3. If You Didn't Know Me
If you didn't know me, you'd think I was normal.
You wouldn't have guessed what colors flowed through my head
Only those I know, those that I let in, those I temporarily let down my guard for. Only they know why
Only they know why I have only shaped scars that I can't explain
Only they know why I cry alone at night
Why I wonder what couldn't been
What other things my eyes might have seen
These are the ones I trust to hold me close
To whisper to me
To keep my heart and secrets locked in the box that they shall never leave from
Only once had I let them free
Only that once
And I know I shouldn't have, but did I listen to my conscience? No
That hurt and took my innocence away
What did they leave me with oh what did they leave for me to scavenge?
Nothing but broken bones and bruise
Tears that made the sea and everything they touched red
Only then did I realize that I shouldn't have trusted them
And I should never trust another one again.