I have never exerted as much control as I did this weekend. To have temptation following me around and not even give in for as long as I did, I have to say I am very proud of myself. I was certain Leo was completely straight and I only had the intentions of becoming close to him, at least till I got to know him better and know if he could ever be interested in me. I'm good at analysing people.
Last night, when I had taken a very drunk and gone Leo back to our suite, he was forthcoming enough to tell me how hot I am and how he thinks he's going mad being attracted to a man. I was shocked and insanely pleased upon hearing this and even more when he asked me to stay with him. Truthfully I wasn't going to leave him alone before because I didn't want him to suffocate in his in vomit in case he threw up.
He hadn't rejected my touch when I came to assist when he was vomiting, I even caught him smelling the sheet of the bed, where I had slept beside him and when we were at the gym, the way he couldn't take his eyes off my body, I knew I would give in to temptation. I almost did when I went to help him with his workout and the way he reacted to my touch on him had me losing it, I was more than happy leaving the gym and in need of a good and cleansing shower, if I didn't want to mess things up.
But as we know I couldn't resist and now I have crossed the line and there's no going back.
Leo is quiet, I am not insensitive to know, that he may be going through some sort of emotional trauma about what had just occurred and give him space I can do, but leaving isn't an option, for either of us.
"Can you go dress up? Or we aren't shopping anymore?"
I believe he's either going into denial or avoiding mode. As I said I would give him space to think about all this as I am satisfied for now.
I leave him to his cake. I suspected he had not known about my sexual orientation because he had not mentioned it nor had he acted oddly around me. I'm not being insulting towards straight people, but I believe he would have made a verbal statement about how he wasn't into men to me if he had known I am gay.
By the time I am done wearing my outfit for the day, he is done with his cake and even washed the plate, which room cleaning service could have easily done when we are out of the room.
I don't want to shop for myself, I need to shop for Nia. Nothing extravagant, just some things for her to know she's on my mind and how important our little friendship is. Which I inform Leo about when he starts to protest, this isn't about him but his daughter, so he backs down although I know he still doesn't agree with my reasoning.
The items that I bought will be delivered to our room, with that being done for us, there is no need for us to head back to the room yet.
"Let's have a late lunch at one of the restaurants, it could be a date and we can share information about one and another."
Leo doesn't object, which makes me believe he's leaning on giving our not quite relationship a try.
Once we are settled in at our table and our food and drinking orders have been taken, Leo doesn't hesitate to start talking.
"Nia is all that I have left in this world, ever since her mother died. When Niamera got pregnant and we decided to keep the baby, our parents strongly disagreed even then we fought against their pressure to abort Nia, because of that we got disowned. Our families turned their back on us, even when Niamera passed, her own family didn't come for her funeral. Nia is the most important and my actions affect her, she hasn't seen me with anyone because I don't want her to get attached to a person who could leave at any time and in this case, she's already attached to you, so it's even harder."
I let him talk understanding his concerned father point of view, but at the same time, all I can really hear is excuses and reasons he had been feeding himself to not fully commit to anyone in the years that had passed since he had Nia.
"I can assure you. No matter what happens between us, it doesn't affect Nia and I's relationship, that's between Nia and I. I love her like she's my own, I would never hurt her and I would sincerely hate if I couldn't ever be her friend."
I know I have him stunned at my declaration, but it's nothing but the truth.
"Leo I'm not forcing you to do anything you're not willing to do, that includes being with me how I actual want. It would crush me to not pursue what we have, but if you don't want it, it's also fine and we'll remain friends with one and another."
Leo looks slightly stunned, I don't get him sometimes. He sighs and nods his head in agreement with what I am saying?
"I just need time, there's no need to rush Hadley, right?"
On that note, we were done discussing and settle for eating our food in mutual silence.
At the beach, we find a shady area for us to lounge, but he doesn't stay seated for long as he is eager to enter the sea water. I already planned on using the time at the beach to catch up on my business and had requested for a resort staff to bring me my work briefcase, once I am seated at the beach.
I watch Leo, swimming which is extremely entertaining as I get to see his bare chest and sexy wet bod. It doesn't take long for the staff to come and I quickly get engrossed with work, only to stop and look for Leo, who has acquired a number of female fans.
"Never thought the day would come, Hadley Jenkins would fall for a guy, a straight one for that matter."
I hear Malory's voice before I spot him. He had been coming from my back before he helped himself into the beach chair beside mine. "Isn't your boyfriend going to flip out if he sees you beside me?" I ask him, wanting him to up and go back in the direction he had come from.
"He doesn't know I am here."
I look at Malory fully and give him a warning look "Don't tell me you stalked me here?" Malory just shrugs and grins, relaxing more into the chair "I was bored Hands, cut me some slack and it's been a really long time since I saw you, I had forgotten how fun it is being in your company." I let out a heavy sigh, Malory dumped me because he claimed I had gotten too serious when all he wanted was a lot of fun. I don't believe I was too serious because I never proclaimed having any feelings for him other than sexually and I knew we wouldn't be compatible where it truly mattered. Besides the person made for me, was several feet away from me playing volleyball with his bevvy of female fans.
"So does he really have a daughter? And he is what age 21? When did you start picking college boys?"
"Malory I don't see how it concerns you, who I date or get involved with and secondly he told you he had one didn't he?"
I reply and Malory pouts, such a petulant young man. I try to focus on my work again since Malory doesn't seem like he is leaving anytime soon when he makes his move.
He is beside me and moving my laptop from my lap and places a hand on my chest "Come have some fun with me, no need pining after a guy you won't have when you have willing me ready to go." He says quickly I am in the act of brushing his hand away when Leo comes up, a look of surprise on his face, while he pieces together the puzzle in front of him.
"Sorry to interrupt you lads, Mr Jenkins I'm going to the beach bar with some friends and wanted to see if you want to come, but I see you're way too busy, so I'll see you back in the room later."
He rushes out, not waiting for my reply he turns and goes as soon as he's done speaking and Malory is still beside me on my own beach chair. I face Malory "Go back to your boyfriend. I have zero interest in you and your behaviour right now is nothing but humiliating, now would you excuse me?" I pack up and organise my briefcase, beckon a staff to return it to my room, all the while ignoring Malory who still has not moved an inch or opened his mouth.
"Goodbye Malory," I say finally as I walk off to find Leo, he called me Mr Jenkins, I don't want to believe we are back to that or he actually thinks I and Malory had actually been flirting with each other after the way I reacted to him and all I have said to him.
The bar is a restaurant of some sort and I spot Leo, with his female fans but luckily enough there are four other guys sitting with them, he being surrounded won't deter me from approaching him. I walk till I'm behind his chair and place a hand on his shoulder so he'll look up at me, I smile at his friends who are openly staring at me, wondering who I am.
"Leo, you left so quick, I had to pack up my briefcase and tie loose ends. Will you introduce me to your friends?" I say politely and I see Leo roll his eyes, while two girls who are seating beside him start giggling. Instead of Leo introducing me to them, he gets up and bids them farewell and I could see some of the girls looking chest fallen that Leo is leaving.
He doesn't give me any warning and sets off, I catch up with him easily and we are walking side by side quietly, but I know his mind is brimming with questions and he is itching to say something.
"Malory and you, huh?"
Of course, he starts there.
"We were an item some years ago, he left me though said I'm too boring – Leo looks at me "Malory's words not mine," I say honestly, Leo becomes a lot calmer surprising me, I had been expecting him to become more incensed about what he had seen.
"Malory was making a move on you right?" I nod my head in agreement and he nods his head before he stops and looks at me with all seriousness "I'm not a rebound guy or any of that bullshit. Don't mess with me if your feelings are tainted."
"I am not that kind of person, Malory is jealous of you. That's the reason he acted that way, he can tell that I never felt half as much as I do for you, for him or any other guy. It was a petty thing to do and I am sure he regrets his actions. Leo, I'll say this as many times as it takes to make you believe I want you more than I have ever wanted anything in my life."
He kisses me, once he thought about it I think he just moved into action, not wanting to back out. I groan against his lips and I feel him smile has he pulls back from the kiss, he looks up at me a shy smile on his face and I know I also have a smile on my face and he says
"I feel better now."