The next day, I wake up with Ashton on my mind. I still can't believe that we kissed. No, I still can't believe that he likes me.
In the afternoon Luke's going out too meet some girl, and Calum decides to come over.
"What are you doing here?" I hi-five him. He shrugs.
"I just came to see you. Where's Luke?" He asks. I point to the stairs.
"Upstairs, he's going out to meet some girl soon." I tell him.
"Ohh, right." He laughs.
He walks into the living room and sits on the sofa, and I follow.
"So, I heard about your date last night... Are you and Ash a thing?" He asks. I look at him.
"I've only just met him, yeah he's kind and sweet and totally hot... But no, we're not a thing." I say. He smiles.
"You really like him, don't you?" He asks. I feel my cheeks heat.
"Maybe." I reply.
"Tell him to come over, I'll leave and you two can watch movies... And maybe something more, if you know what I mean." He smirks. I frown.
"You're gross Calum!" I chuck a cushion at him, before I get my phone out to message Ashton.
Me: do you wanna come over to mine and watch movies? You don't have too.
Ashton replies within a few seconds.
Ash: hell yeah I do! Horror or comedy?x
Me: horror, obviously. Come over in about two hours? X
Ash: definitely x
I fist pump the air.
"I guess that means he's coming then." Calum says. I nod.
"Yep." I reply, popping the p.
All of a sudden, my thoughts are drawn to something else.
"Cal, can I use your phone for a minute, please?" I ask. He nods, unlocking his iPhone and passing it to me.
"Thank you." I say, going onto twitter.
I search my name at the top and it instantly comes up with the same hashtag from a few days ago. I click on it; even more pictures come up and some people have even tweeted to Calum because he said something, tweets like:
Calum, why are you defending the bitch? She had a go at one of your fans for no reason.
She's so ugly and so horrible!
Why did she scream at a girl for no reason? What a freak.
"Wait, give me my phone back. Luke told me to make sure you don't go on twitter." Calum snaps, before snatching his phone away, but I see one more tweet.
Now I know why your family died! They did it on purpose to get away from u. Kill urself!
Yeah, it might be one tweet. But that was enough to cut deep. Luke's right; I shouldn't go onto twitter. 'They did it on purpose to get away from you.'My mind suddenly flashes back to the last thing Noah said to me.
'Love you sis, see you in a couple of days.'
I hold back tears; I'm not going to see him ever again. I didn't even say 'I love you too', I just shut myself away in my bedroom.
"Are you okay?" Calum asks. I realise that I've failed at trying not to cry as my cheeks are soaked in warm tears.
"Yes... No.. I don't know." I begin to sob. He pulls me into a hug and strokes my hair.
"You're okay. Ignore the people on twitter. You're not ugly, they're just jealous that you can hang out with us 24/7 and they can't," he stops for a second.
"Ash is coming over later, he makes you happy, so think about him." He whispers into my hair. I do exactly as he says.
I think of Ashton's smile, his dimples, his fluffy hair and overall his sweetness and personality. I gradually stop crying and then get distracted by the thoughts of Ash.
Ik this updates shit and sorry that I haven't updated in AGES. I was at my grandma's house for a week or so and she doesn't have any technology, and I (stupidly) left all my stuff at my house. Again, sorry.
I've found over the years that I have become obsessed with Twenty One Pilots, and Onision.
Anyway, how many songs of the week do I owe you? Like, four. Plus, I'm in a p!atd mood;
Panic! At The Disco: The ballad of Mona Lisa
Panic! At The Disco: This is gospel
Panic! At The Disco: Victorious
Paramore: Never let this go (I wasn't gonna leave without a Paramore song, was I?)