I woke up with a bright light in my face. I was in the hospital. Everything was sore and I just ached everywhere. I sat up in the bed and no one was in the room with me. I looked at my arms and saw blood lines through the bandages and the same on my stomach and on my legs. I was officially covered by bandages soaked in my blood. I didn't cry, I didn't scream and I didn't worry. I knew how I did this to myself and how much I wanted to die after the bad things I said about Calum. I just sat there, not feeling, not wondering anything at all. The Doctor came in and told me about the medication I need to take and all that crap.
"Did any boys come in here?" I asked him.
"Yes, they stayed here for the whole two nights. I literally dragged them out this morning because the reeked the place due to not having any showers or clean clothes. They will back soon, I'm sure." He finished just before he left the room. I stood up with my medication tube and walked to the main desk.
"Hi. Can you call this number please?" I asked her as I handed her a piece of paper with a phone number on it. She nodded and dialled her phone. She had a conversation with the boys and I heard through the phone.
"Could you ask them to come and see me please?" I mouthed to her. She quickly nodded and told whoever that was on the other side of the line. She put the phone down.
"They are now on their way. I specifically asked the dark-haired one to come and see you!" She said and she winked at me which made me smile. "Oh, and once they are here, you are free to leave." She told me. I thanked her again and went to my room. the boys were all on my bed.
"Becca!" They all shouted at me as I walked in. They stood up and ran to hug me. I winced in pain as someone touched my cuts. They all backed away. Calum nodded for the boys to leave and he sat me onto the bed.
"Why did you do this baby?" He said as tears slid down my cheeks. "Mikey told me about your conversation. I'm not angry at all. Is this why you cut?" He asked. I didn't say anything but nodded. "Why? I love you so much!"
"The fans have said some things about us and I know I shouldn't believe it but it scares me." I told him.
"Becca, you know me better than they ever will. I want this baby and I want to marry you." He said.
"I love you too. I only did this because I thought you hate me and would want me to die!" I nearly yelled at him. He started to cry. "I am so sorry Cal." I started to cry again too.
"I love you so much. I can't loose you." He whispered. I kissed him properly and wrapped his hand in mine. "Next time you want to cut, you will take my arm and do all the damage to it you want."
"But I could never hurt you." I told him and he nodded. Then I understood everything.