Weeks have gone by since I was with Justin on the bus. I've been feeling really sick lately. To the point that I can't even get out of bed. I'm so emotionally and physically drained. Nothing I eat will stay down. It might just be that I miss him. Who knows.
Pattie came up to the room to bring me some soup. But slipped something on the tray with it. And she just stood there looking down at it. "Go check." I looked at the tray and the little stick was just laying there.
"That's not possible... I can't be.."
"I'd do it to be sure. You haven't been running a fever.. And this can't be over missing him... Theres something more to it." She walked over to me and helped me up off of the bed. She walked me to the bathroom and left me to do it myself. I sat over the toilet and peed on it. I waited for five minutes. A green plus came up. Tears began to fill my eyes. I sat there for awhile before Pattie knocked to make sure I was okay.
"I need help." I tried to sound as casual as possible through my worries. She walked in and helped me up. We went out into the bedroom and I sat it face up, lied down, pulled the covers over my head, and began to sob even more. This can't be happening. Justin isn't going to be here which means I'm alone in this right now. I have family.. That's it.. Not the father to my child.
"Babygirl... Its going to be okay. We just need to talk to scooter. He will help Justin make time to talk to you so we can figure this out. Things will work out, I promise." She closed the door and left me to myself. What am I supposed to do. He will know, but what can he do miles away from me. From us. I'm not ready, I wasn't when I suggested it. But now the reality hit and I just can't be a mother. Not yet, not now.. I cried myself to sleep.
I was woken up by someone putting their hand on me. I pulled the covers off and Pattie was standing there with a worried Justin and Scooter. My heart raced because I wasn't expecting this... Justin saw the look in my eyes and sat on the bed beside me. He pulled me in. I couldn't hug him back. I just cried.
"I told them it was an emergency because I knew it would be best if it were said in person. Justin, scooter, you guys have some very serious thinking to do.. I'll be downstairs." With that being said the door was shut and two concerned men were waiting for answers.
"Whats going on? Is everything okay?" Justin pulled away and looked me in the eyes. I looked away from both of them and sat silently trying to figure out how to tell them. He put his hand on my face and made me look at him. "Anna. What is going on. You need to tell me. Please." Yet again tears were pouring down. I looked at my stomach, grabbed Justin's hands, and put them on my tiny baby belly. I looked up at him to read his expression. He stared at my stomach, his eyes wide. His mouth slowly opened like he was going to say something, but the words were stuck and wouldn't come out. I then grabbed the pregnancy test from the nightstand and handed it to him. He took it and looked at it, back to my tummy, and then up at my face. "You're sure?" Was all he could say. I nodded slowly. He put the test down and pulled me in again. I don't know if the was as scared as I was, or if he was excited.
"I'm not ready, Justin.." I whimpered in his neck. He took a big breath and let out a sigh. I felt something drop on my shoulder. He was crying. Scooter then excited the room to talk with Pattie.
"We will work this out. We have to." He grabbed the back of my head and his other arm was around my back. "I love you." I could tell he was still crying. His voice was weak and shakey. I wrapped my arms around him and started shaking. I was panicking.
"I love you too.. Don't leave us.. Please.." I begged.
"I'm not. Baby, we are going to be parents. Marry me.." My heart stopped. I choked on my own words. He was being serious. It took me a bit to breathe and actually answer his question.
"Yes." Was all I said. His hands then went back to what is going to be our child. He got on the floor onto his knees holding his hands in place. He kissed my stomach. I held his hands on it. We might not be ready, but he was making me feel better about it..
Scooter came back in. Justin pulled him aside and told him he had to stay. Scooter told him that meant postponing the rest of the tour. Justin said it was what was best, he agreed to give fans half of the refund but to give them tickets to the same places on different dates, even lowering the meet and greet passes. Scooter had announced it off of Justin's twitter apologizing for the delay in the concert but leaving out what was going on. He let them know that it was family reasons and that everything was okay. He then left and Justin got into bed with me. He spooned me holding our peanut bump. I put my hands over his.
"We are going to make this right for us. Our baby deserves the world. You deserve the world. We need to schedule an appointment to find out how far along we are." He kissed my neck.
"Do you want anything?"
"To stay like this. Forever."
"Your wish is my command, my Queen."
shit just got reals. What do ya think? Comments!!!