Change Me [Justin Bieber]


16. Chapter Sixteen

Monday morning I woke up to the sound of my alarm. It was the last day of High School before I was off to LA with Justin. I turned my alarm off before I turned around and felt Justin wrap his arms around me. He had awoken to the sound of my alarm as well.

"Good morning princess."


"You have to get up."

"I don't want to."

"No, me neither but you have school and I have a few things to do around town before we're going to LA."

I woke up when he said he had things to do and looked at him.

"What do you have to do around Chicago?"

"I have friends here, we're going to meet up at the studios down town and have some fun."

"You can just do that?"

"You can come by after school if you want to? I can send someone to come pick you up?"

"No it's okay, I'll just drive on my own."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I guess I'll have enough to look out for today without having a driver around as well."

"What do you mean?"

"After everything that happened Friday people will talk. Why do you think I've had my phone turned off all weekend?"

"Because you wanted to spend time with me?"

"Really Justin? You don't think people are going to talk? The biggest star on the planet wanted to talk to me at a tiny high school in Chicago and he came all the way from New York."

"I'm not that interesting."

"You're wonderful you silly little boy. That's why you're loved by millions."

"But I only love you."

I smiled at hid my head in his chest because I got a little shy. He was the most adorable person I had ever known.

"And I love you."

He kissed me and then looked into my eyes. As I looked at him I heard my mum knock on the door.

"Amy are you up?"

"I'm on my way. Don't worry."

"I always worry about you."

"I know mum. I know."

I kissed Justin again and got out of the bed and out into the bathroom to take a shower. After I had showered, I brushed my teeth, used the toilet and applied my make-up. I then went back into my bedroom where Justin had sat up in the bed with his phone and looked at me. I wasn't dressed in a towel as I usually would as something about today made me feel both nervous and secure about myself.

"You have a beautiful body."


I smiled at the ground and blushed a little. He made me feel good about myself and I loved it when he did.

I opened my drawers and looked through my clothes. I found the perfect pair of underwear I owned and played a little with it as Justin watched me put it on.

"You're teasing me baby."


I smiled at him as I turned around and closed the bra in the front. I had to squeeze my breast a little together to close it properly. I saw Justin bite his lips softly and stare at me.

I looked through my clothes and had a hard time choosing what to wear but found the perfect summer dress that I was allowed to wear at my school. I put it on, went to my mirror, and made my hair look perfect. I wasn't going to wear some of the things I had gotten from Justin because I wanted to look normal. I wanted to be normal for as long as I could possibly stay normal.

"You look adorable."


He got up from the bed and gave me a long warm hug before he let go of me and handed me my bag.

"Be a good girl. I'll see you later."

He kissed me and I ran downstairs where my coffee stood ready on the table and my mum sat down with her own cup as well. My dad stood in the hall and was on the way out of the door. Him and I had started getting a little along again.

"Have a good day."

He smiled at me before he left.

"You too."

I walked out into the kitchen, I still had another 10 minutes before I had to leave.

"Are you nervous? You seem a little out of yourself."

"No I'm alright. A little nervous maybe. There's a lot of things going on and I'm still not okay but I working to get there. So of course, there are nerves here and there but I can make it. I know I can."

I sipped my coffee and looked at my mum. I don't know if I convinced her that I could make it through the day but that was the thing I had to do to go to LA. So I would do it.

I drank out my coffee and hugged my mum before I went out to my car and drove to the school. Kristy was waiting for me by my parking spot and waved at me as soon as she saw me.

"So you did come today!"

She greeted me as I got out of the car.

"Of course I came, I have to come before I'm going to LA.

"You're taking off again?"

"It's some music stuff, I'm going to LA for like a week and then I'll be back. Don't worry about it. I'll always be here for you."

"Maybe I could come with you sometime."

"I would take you to all the places I've gone but I can't take you to LA."

"You'll take me somewhere some day though, right?"

"Kristy you're my best friend and I'd do anything for you, I'll take you to LA sometime, but not this time. I'll have to do this on my own."

"Of course."

She smiled at me but I was sure it was a fake smile. We started walking into the school, people were looking at us but no one said anything. I was surprised to not even hear my archenemy Tyler McGraw as we walked past his group and him. No one said anything they just stood there speechless, or that was of course until the school news started on the screens around the halls. Then everything went back to what it used to be.

Good morning Kelvin Park! It is a great day to be alive. Or rather it's a special day to be a student at Kelvin Park. Last Friday we had a visitor here at the school by no other than the superstar himself; Justin Bieber. You heard me right folks. The superstar turned up in a car on the school's parking lot and asked for no other than Kelvin Park's own Amy Johnson. But it wasn't with happiness that Amy Johnson greeted the superstar. People heard her say he was a jerk and was to leave her alone before she left the school ground. Though people seemed very impressed and the superstar stayed for a short while and spoke an awful lot to this girl who seems to go around a lot with Ms. Johnson.

After denying all rumors about the two of them it seems that there is more going on between Amy Johnson and the superstar himself. What will be the next move for the two? I can't tell but I know we haven't heard the last from them.

During the weekend another cover was added to Amy Johnson's YouTube channel with the superstar in the video, so we know they have seen each other during the weekend as the rumor speaks that the video for the cover is in fact filmed in Amy Johnson's bedroom. Which is also where the superstar was last spotted! We think there might be going something on between the two of them but things are yet to be confirmed!

I rolled my eyes and took my books from my locker. Why couldn't they just leave me be?

Tyler walked towards Kristy and I and I felt like I was about to vomit as everyone was staring at us.

"So you did fuck a superstar after all?"

"Well at least I get some that's more than I can say about you."

Kristy hold back a laugh and so did some of the other students around us.

"Don't come around here and be a smartass Johnson."

"Oh but you see McGraw I'm just doing what everyone else including myself should have done a long time ago when you started bullying people. You're being a smartass yourself so why can't I be the smartass for once?"

He was just about to speak when someone else behind me did.

"Amy Johnson, are you bullying another kid in the halls you were bullied in yourself?"

"With all due respect sir, I wouldn't call standing up to yourself with a hint of sass for bullying. I'd call it being pretty damn awesome."

I looked my uncle in the eyes as he heard my words.

"Drop the attitude and get to class."

He turned and looked at the rest of the students standing there.

"All of you!"

I rolled my eyes again and walked down to my art class. This was going to be fun. At least I would have something to brag about this time.

“Amy Johnson, my little superstar. Welcome, I didn’t expect to see you here.”

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world Mrs. McKenzie. This is my favorite class, and I love coming here.”

“What a positive attitude to come into class with. I’m very happy to see you here.”

“I’m happy today. I feel great.”

“You look great my girl.”

“Thank you.”

I smiled at her before I found a seat beside Kristy and waiting for the last few students to get into the classroom before the lesson began.

“Okay class, today we’ll be doing the very last take outs for Glee for this year and I’m happy to tell you that Mr. Smith will be joining us with the Glee club. So we’ll start with Ashley, you’re going to be singing solo, let’s see what you can do, and Kenny we’ll have you play the guitar and Kristy how about you on the piano?”

She smiled down to Kristy and I sat back in the chair and looked at the other students as they worked their asses off on the stage. It was fun for me to see someone else fight so hard for it when I knew just how naturally it was for me to do some of the things they were doing. I smiled and shook my head a little before I started drawing on the stack of paper in front of me.

After about 30 minutes when we were half way through the first lesson my teacher finally gave me some attention. I hadn’t been allowed on the stage for the first 30 minutes, and I guess it had something to do with what had been going on over the weekend.

“Amy Johnson, will you please take the stage for the acoustic song that’s going to be song?”


I lay down the pencil and walked on up on the stage.

“What is the song I’m singing?”

“She will be loved by Maroon 5.”


“I’m sure yeah.”

The music started but they were playing it the way I had recorded it the other day. This was my version of the song.

“Beauty queen of only eighteen, she had some trouble with herself, he was always there to help her, she always belonged to someone else.”

I was just about to sing the next part but then I heard Justin and saw him down in the other end of the room. He smiled up at me as he was singing to me. Until he made it to the chorus and I started singing with him. We sang the rest of the song together and I smiled as he was moving around with me on the stage. It was so adorable. When we stopped singing he looked at me and then kissed my cheek.

The class clapped and some were out of themselves but Kristy wasn’t… Kristy had taken her stuff and I saw her back as she left the classroom.


I ran after her out of the room and Justin was left on the stage but I heard him start talking. This was what he was good at, performing and talking. This was his life.

I found Kristy a little longer down the hall by her locker.

“Kristy, what’s going on?”

“That was supposed to be me, that’s what’s going on.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I was the one who talked to him when you left him, I was there for him when you weren’t! He was feeling shit about the message you had left for him! I was the one to tell him how you had moved on. I was the reason he said those things about you in that interview, I was the one who told him to say he didn’t know you because you didn’t want to have anything to do with him. I was the one who talked to him all the time, that was the reason I never wanted to hang out after school because I was too busy talking to him and making sure he was okay. I was supposed to take over when I told him to come to Chicago to see for himself how you were feeling about him, I was the one to tell him not to talk to you and you still end up with him! How did you take the thing I love the most and make it yours all by yourself?!”

I was out of words as I looked at her. She had just explained everything to me. Things I had questioned for a long time. How could someone I had trusted for my whole life do these things to me? Why would she be like that? Why would she take away the only thing that had ever made me feel like I was worth something why why why would my best friend in the world do something like this to me? Was it because I was better than her? I was a better singer, I was skinnier, I was prettier and I had a much harder time than her.

“I was the one to tell the school about New York, I was the one to share everything. I was the reason you became popular and you still get the boy I wanted the most! You’re a pathetic little attention seeking whore and you’ve always been! You try to cover it up in your silly depression and the fact that you wanted to kill yourself! You know what? I wish you had done it! I wish you had ended it when you tried to, at least that would have taken you out of the way and I would have had a bigger shot at being the one he wanted to take to the studios and the one he would fuck.”

A tear escaped my eyes but I didn’t care I was going to stand tall through this and let her speak out her anger. I was going to let her get it all out and then kill her with kindness. That was one thing I had learned but I was also going to humiliate her. She was going down and it was going to be hard. I wished to put the same pain on her as she was putting on me right now. I wished for her to suffer and I wanted her to suffer hard.

“He wasn’t supposed to fall in love with you!”

“He did fall in love with me. He loved me from the day he met me and he never stopped. He’ll always be mine Kristy, because I won’t let go of him. I love him too much.-“

“You weren’t even a fan!”

“Being a fan has nothing to do with this. I love the kid for who he is and that’s more than I can say about you. You’re obsessed with him. It’s terrifying, and I never wanted to be like that. For me it was all about getting to know a boy who was interesting.”

“You wouldn’t have given shit if he had been some pathetic little street boy from New York.”

“Maybe not but then I’m lucky he isn’t. I don’t care about his fame. You know me and you know I don’t like attention so calling me attention seeking is just being stupid because again, I don’t really like it.”

“Why didn’t you just die?”

“Why didn’t I die? Because I’m stronger than my mind. I’m stronger than what’s going on inside of my head and I’m stronger than the voices I’ve created off of my insecurity. I’ve become a new and stronger person and I’m trying my best to be. What you’ve done and said is wrong and vile and I wish for you to never be a part of my life again. At least I have big enough balls to build myself again and that’s my than we can say about you. I wish you a good life because you’ll never see me again Kristy, unless it’s in a magazine or because of the paparazzi but from this moment on we can no longer be friends. Friends don’t do what you’ve done, and I’m sorry that it had to come to this in our friendship because I really cared about you. But not anymore. Now you’re nothing to me, and when I talk to my boyfriend about this whole thing and tell him what you’ve said I’ll let him know what your plan was after all. I think he’ll agree that a friendship is no longer a thing that can be. Goodbye.”

I went into the classroom where I took my bag and then looked at Justin who saw the crystal clear eyes on me and then got up from the desk he was sitting on and wrapped his arms around me.

“It’s okay baby.”

He kissed my head and the rest of the class looked at me until Ashley yelled really loud.

“Are you guys actually dating or what the fuck is going on?”

"A lot of things are going on Ashley but what's going on between the two of us is nothing you should worry about."

I let go of Justin and looked at the rest of my classmates.

"My time as a student here is done. I can't be here anymore, I don't belong here anymore. Thank you for all of this but it's not the same anymore and nothing will ever be normal again. Mrs. McKenzie you're the best teacher I've ever had and I'll always remember you, thank you for everything you've taught me. It's given me this opportunity."

I gave my teacher a hug, which wasn't normal at all.

"Jeremy Smith, my dear uncle I'm glad I got to spend time with you here as well as in my home and I'm sure I'll see you there as well when I'm there but it's time to move on now."

He smiled and gave me a nod before I took my bag and walked with Justin out to the car he had taken.

When we walked out to the car I wasn't saying much. I had just handed in all of my books and told the office that I would never set foot on this school again as it was all too much.

"Are you okay baby?"

"How can I be okay with what I have just heard?"

"What happened?"

"I think you know Justin. I think you know what just happened."

"Did she tell you?"

"Of course she did! Was that the reason you said all of those things about me? Pretended not to know me?"

We stood outside of the car and looked at each other. We stood on each side of the car and Justin had just opened his door.

"Was it?"

I looked at him again.

"Just get in the car, this is not the right place to talk about all of these things. We'll talk about it when we get home."

"I think I'll prefer an answer before I get into a car with you."

"Just get in the car Amy."

"Or what?"

"Amy please don't do this to me."

"You know what? I'll just take my own car back."

I shut the door and walked down to my car. I sat down behind the wheel and started crying. I broke down and tried looking for my medicine in my bag but I couldn't find it, I was panicking and it wasn't the first time I was feeling like this. I hit my fists against the wheel and shut my eyes. I just waited for it all to end. Soon I heard the passenger door open and Justin sat down beside me in the car after he had moved all of my things from the floor and the seat.

"Don't cry baby. I don't like to see you like this."

"I can't breath."

I had soaked my shirt as I was crying too much and I was at a state of mind where I didn't know what to do about myself anymore.


He had just taken my pills out of his pockets. He must have taken them from me because he was scared I couldn't handle it.

He handed me the pills and I put them into my mouth. It was the strongest medication I could get and it made me so sleepy so fast, so I crawled into the backseat after taking them and lay down all curled up in a little ball.

Justin got out of the car and got into the back with me. He placed my head on his leg and I lay there for a little while before I fell asleep while he was stroking my hair.

When I woke up again I was in my bed in my bedroom back home. Justin wasn't in the room but I could hear him talk to my mother down stairs.

"Justin I know you're a superstar and I really like you, don't get me wrong, but you can't just take her out of school just because she doesn’t want to be there."

"It's not about taking her out of school Mrs. Johnson. It's about what happened and what I did. I did something terrible to your daughter and I want to make it good again. She isn't feeling good but she's getting better and I'm going to make things right again. She can't go back to that place, you wouldn't want that on your daughter if you knew what she was going through when she's there."

"What did you do to my daughter?"

My mum's voice was cold and she hadn't heard the rest of what he had been saying I could almost imagine the scary and serious face she made at him just to make sure he wasn't going to do something that was actually terrible to me.

"When Amy got home from New York everything was fine between the two of us for a few days but then she called me and left a message on my machine saying that she wanted to be normal. I was devastated that I couldn't be a part of her world anymore, so I started talking to her friend Kristy. It was a stupid idea. Kristy can be manipulative. She can make everything seem just the way she want it to and that's what she did. She convinced me that your daughter was okay and that she wanted nothing to do with me or for that matter the rest of the world. I believed every word Kristy told me because why wouldn't I? She was with the girl I love so much. I really do love your daughter. Kristy told me to keep a low profile as people were still asking questions and then I had this interview where I said I didn't know Amy because I thought she didn't want to be famous. The first few days she kept trying to reach out for me but as I was away for a while I couldn't get back to her and when I wanted to get back to her she wasn't there or that's what Kristy said. I tried pulling myself together but no matter what I did it didn't work, so I decided to come here and try to work this out. I wanted to know what was going on with her, I wanted to see that she was okay but at the same time she was just too far away. I watched you since Wednesday and I know I should have come forward straight away but I thought it was easier to just see for myself that she was actually okay and that this was actually what she wanted. It was far from what she wanted... She's been terrible since she came home from New York 4 weeks ago, hasn't she?"

"She hasn't been herself for a long time Justin. Amy isn't like other people, she needs extra care like a child but she also needs to be independent. That's why I wanted her to go to New York in the first place. You broke my daughters heart but you also showed her that you could make it right again. To tell you the truth she has been terrible since she came home from New York because she missed you so terribly much that it broke her down."

"I wish she could have stayed."

"I know Justin but it wasn't the right time."

"But that's the thing. It was the right time for it, there just wasn't enough time for it."

"Maybe that's true."

I smiled when I heard my mum give in to Justin and then decided to get up and get into some more comfortable clothes. I still wasn't feeling good but I was feeling better so I decided to take my laptop and sit down in my bed with it. When I opened my facebook I had a few new messages most of them were from kids from my school who wanted to know what was going on. I had a few messages from people I didn't know in my other inbox as well and decided to look through some of them but I didn't reply. I never replied much to people anymore even though I wanted to, I just didn't have the courage to do so in time. I took to my twitter account after a while and wrote out for people to know.

@RealAmyJohnson: I have officially dropped out of High School. Kelvin Park you've been a pain in my ass.

I probably shouldn't write that but I did and it felt good. Some people were quick to respond but I honestly didn't care. I just wanted it to be over with. After a while I turned back to my facebook page and decided to write out so everyone knew.

Dear friends of facebook and whoever else is reading this,
as of today I have decided to drop out of high school and I won't be returning to this school, hopefully ever again. The part of this junior year that I have taken has been very challenging for me and I won't take my senior year at this school. I might finish in home school but that is yet to be decided.

If you've been my friend through this past few years or in some way supported me about what I've done and who I've been thank you very much. I hope you finish with pride and make yourself as well as your family proud of you.

I've chosen to focus on my music career with my lovely boyfriend and as of tomorrow we'll be flying out to Los Angeles to figure out the future we have together. If you're in doubt of who my boyfriend should be and you're too fucking nosy and want to know I've added a picture of him and I after I spend a week with him in New York.

~ Amy Johnson

Just as I finished and had added the picture to the post as well as posted it Justin came into my bedroom.

"You're up."


I smiled at him and put down my laptop when he sat down next to me.

"How are you feeling?"

"I'm okay."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm fine Justin. I could be better but everything is better now that you're here."

"I'm always here for you baby."

"I heard what you told my mum."

"You did?"

"I was hoping Kristy had lied to me just to get a little attention as I haven't been giving her much for the past 2 months."

"I know... I'm sorry I should have gotten back to you like you asked me to but I was too scared."

"You shouldn't ever be scared of me baby."

"I know now."

I rested my head on his shoulder and looked at the post as my facebook page updated.

"What is this?"

Justin looked at me and then back at the post on my facebook. It's me saying goodbye to the few friends I had at school and a picture of us.

"I thought you wanted to keep us a secret."

"It's never been a secret. Just one big fight and I'm sick and tired of fighting. I just want us to be us and do whatever we want."

He smiled at me and then placed a kiss over my lips.

“Then let’s be us.”

I smiled at him and kissed him. He was finally mine and he wasn’t going to leave this time. It was perfect. 




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