Spaces. ~N.J.H.~

"Who are you?"
"You don't have to know."
"What if you're an old guy who likes younger girls ._."
"I'm not. Trust me."
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20. 19.

~ Aviana ~

I was heartbroken, and I had no idea why.

I had no idea why Nat-Niall made me feel this way.

I can't really say that I knew a lot about him. Texts can't really say a whole lot of someone's life, I think.

We haven't been talking for that long and now that he's someone he didn't say, I don't know if I can trust him anymore.

It's breaking me, that someone like him hurt me.

I trusted him and told him about my life. I told him some secrets that I couldn't tell anyone.

I did hide him from my family but that was only because I was scared they'd be mad at me for talking to a stranger by accident.

He didn't trust me.

He told me the truth about his family, and his birthday and just what he did but he didn't tell me he was Niall. Niall Horan.

I don't want to talk to him, but than I do want to.

He made my days and whenever I was sad or bored, I could just text him and he would directly reply.

If he didn't, than he immediately apologized for like 100 times.

Now that I know who he is, I know 100% sure that whenever he didn't text, he was at a concert.

I'm so sad at the moment that I can't describe how I feel.

I'm sad because I have no one to talk to anymore.

No one like him.


I was thinking about my thoughts, if that's even possible.
I feel like I'm just talking about someone I like.

But I can't.

It's not like I can like him when I've seen him only once, yesterday.
And that I've been talking to for a while but not long enough.

I'm confused to be honest.

Maybe I fell for his words?

No I don't like him.

I went with my fingers through my blonde hair and groaned loudly.

I had my phone under my pillow and haven't looked at it for hours.

I don't really want to look anyway . I think I'd be more disappointed if he didn't text me and I would be annoyed if he did 'cause than I would probably reply him.

You see, I'm really confused.

My thoughts are killing me.

Maybe I should just put my phone off, not text him for a while until I've cleared my mind.

I can't.

"Hey sis", I shot up, sitting straight on my bed and seeing Jacob walking inside of my room.

Why do I keep forgetting to close the door?

"Oh sorry, didn't know I scared you that much", he chuckled and sat down at the end of my bed.

"Sorry, forgot to close my door so didn't really expect you to come in."

"How are you?" he frowned, probably seeing how bad I looked.

Worse than I normally look.

"I'm fine."

"As if", he raised his eyebrows.

"Jacooob", I whined.

"I'm sorry, Ave. I know there's something wrong with you today. You left the house happily and came back being like .. This" he pointed to me.

"Well thanks."

"I didn't mean it in that way. You're just not happy now and I notice that."

"I'm not", I mumbled.

I did give in, I don't want to hide it now. I'm so tired and I don't want to keep arguing, or him asking me what's wrong.

"Tell me, Aviana."

I slowly nodded, breathing in and out deeply.

"So I met up with a friend today, like I told you.." I started.

I might tell him what I feel, but believe me, I won't tell him that Niall is someone who lied to me and was a stranger first. Not anytime soon , though.

"My friend was supposed to come last time soon but didn't. We tried for the second time and I waited a while until nobody came again" I tried to explain. I didn't prepare this.

I tried not to say 'he' or he would ask who it was and probably start arguing again.

"I'm just sad because my friend lied to me.."

"Who's your friend than? No one should leave my sis hanging like that", he shook his head disappointed.

"Just someone from school, don't worry."

"Than why does she always cancel your meet ups if she's a friend from school? What the hell's that for a friend?"

"I don't know. I'm done with my friend."

I wonder if he still doesn't realize I'm hiding him, by saying 'my friend'.

He said 'she' so I don't know if he would like it being a guy.

I love him, I don't hate the fact he's protective but he's sometimes overprotective.

"That's good, Ave. She doesn't deserve your time at all if she's like that."

I nodded, smiling weakly as he took me in a tight hug.

"Please don't lie to me if you feel like this again. I'm here for you, even if it's for the most simple things."

"Thank you, Jacob. I'm here for you too, big brother" I chuckled.

I sometimes do miss our big fights but we're so much closer now and I love that.

"I'm in my room", I nodded as he walked out of the room.

I smiled weakly, happy I still have Jacob.

Ofcourse I have my mom but she's so busy with her work lately.

I laid down on my bed again, sighing deeply and closing my eyes.

I wanted to sleep 'till everything is over, better again.

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