To everyone who fucked me over, played me, tried me or lied to me, because you're all dead to me now
// Original product of Olivia Turner. Do not copy or share without permission. ©2015-2016


22. Twenty Two


"Good morning dear" I see Jamie walk in with a tray.

I'm so drained from all of the crying.

"Is that food?" I ask.

"Yes. Just scrambled eggs and toast" she half smiles.

"Oh, okay" I sigh.

I look at the shape of my legs that are underneath the sheets.

They're lifeless.

That thought rushes through my head.

My tears build up at the boarder of my eyes.

I blink them away and take the tray.

She inclines the bed so I can sit up.

"I'll leave you alone. If you need anything, remember to press that button"

She points at the small remote.

I hate being alone. I don't want to be alone.

I remember telling Allen I did and he was taken aback.

I have nobody now.

I'm all alone in this shitty hospital.

My mom has to be at work to earn money. 

Jamie is using her insurance for me, which is very sweet.

Because we don't have insurance at the moment.

She's the only one here that cares about me.

"Now I'm a warrior, I've got thicker skin, I'm a warrior, I'm stronger than I've ever been" I sing to myself.

I'm lying to myself with this song.

But it helps a little.


"Karen, I just want to see her" I say over the phone.

I stayed at the hospital over night.

"Just don't let her do something stupid. I love you, bye"


I told Karen I can't rush into saying 'I love you' right now.

I walk to the front desk.

"Is Andrea awake?"

"I'll check and see if Jamie put it in"

I tap the counter anxiously.

She glares at my hand.

"Sorry" I stop.

"She is awake. She'll accept visitors in an hour"

"Thanks...Is Jamie around?"

"She should be on the same level around Andrea's room"

"Can I find her?"

"Yes" she sighs and types on the computer.

I nod and run to the elevators

I go up a few levels and get off.

I walk a little ways.

I walk past Andrea's room.

I stop and look through the window.

It's just a large window that anyone could see through unless the curtains are closed.

She's just sitting there looking at her food.

She pulls at her hair in distress.

It's still just as purple from before.

"Allen?" I turn to see Jamie.

"Oh, I was coming up here to find you but"

"You saw here and you couldn't just walk by" she finishes my sentence.

"Uhh, yeah" I shove my hands in my pockets.

"You can see her in an hour. Why did you need me?"

"Is...She still mad at me?"

"Furious" she smiles.

"Why are you smiling?" I try not to get frustrated.

"Because she just cries all day. And she told me it's not because she's paralyzed. It's because she's all alone. And I know every time she says that, she needs you. She doesn't want to admit it, Allen. I know she needs you. You just have to break her"

I want to smile but I can't. How am I supposed to get her to forgive me?


"Do something great" she says. "If I were her, I'd love that"


"Nobody does stuff for her often. If you did, that'd have to help a little"

"Thanks Jamie"

"I'll talk to her and see if she wants visitors right now" 


She unlocks the door and walks in.

Andrea looks up at her and smiles a little.

After a moment, Jamie walks out.

"She said, maybe in an hour. But if it's you, then about three hours"

"Okay" I huff.

I decide to leave for a bit and walk around.

I see a music store.

I shrug and walk in.

It's the only interesting place around here right now.

"Hey, we have a special offer on the acoustics, electrics, and basses" the tattooed girl says.

"Alright, thanks"

I decide to pick up and acoustic and play around.

I used to play but my strings broke and I never got it fixed.


I wish my mom could be here.

I need someone. And Jamie's working with another patient.

I hear a knock and see a delivery guy.

"Come in" I say.

He walks in with a huge bouquet of balloons and flowers.

And another with three gigantic teddy bears.

And then, Allen.



He walks over.

"You hate me, and you have every right to" he hands me a box of chocolates and another small one.

"What are all of these boxes?"

"Gifts. And here's one I'll hope you love the most"

I look at my hands.


"Andrea-Marie Claire Helen. I'm so sorry for what I did. I took you for granted. I thought you were using me, but I realized all you wanted was to not be alone. When you told me you wanted to be alone, in that moment, I knew I hurt you. I shattered you. I caused you to walk out on me. I'm sorry. I can't bare not having you around...And calling me a bitch"

I start to cry a bit and laugh at that.

He tears up.

"Not having beside me is like not having a conscious. I can't be alone either"

"You have Karen"

"I'm empty without you, Andrea. You were my best friend. I can't lose you. She let me go for a long time. I don't want to do the same as her to you. I'm taking the time now to say, that when I said you weren't wanted anywhere...the one place I'm positive your wanted, is in my life. You made me laugh like no tomorrow. You made me smile bigger than ever. You made me want to protect you and let no one around you. You were my little fragile girl. If someone dropped you, you'd break. I didn't want anyone to do that to you...But I did it myself. Now I'm more hurt than ever. Please come back to me. I need you"

He starts crying.

So do I.

"If it wasn't obvious, I pushed you away because I needed you. I wanted you to come back"

"And I did"

"That's exactly what I hoped you'd do. And you did. I'm so lonely without you. When I told Jamie that I was sad because I was lonely, she knew I needed you. But I couldn't admit it"

"Andrea, I'll never leave you again"

"Don't, and I won't" I smile while still crying.

"Can I hug you?" He asks.

"What do you think?" I open  my arms.

He rushes over and hugs me


"Now open the box"

"Okay" she slowly opens it.

It's a necklace. It's a necklace with her name.

It's cursive writing.

She smiles.

"I love it..."

"Good. When you need courage, remember I'm always here to motivate you"

She smiles.

"I just want to go home"

"I know-"

"With you"

I smile.

"Don't forget that I will always be here" I grab her hand.

She holds it tight.

"Allen?"Jamie walks in.

"Yes?" I say.

"Karen's here..."

I sigh.

I don't want to leave Andrea right now.

"Just go" she places her other hand on top of ours.

"But, I don't want to leave you" 

"I'm fine" she smiles. "We're fine"

I smile and hug her.

Then I walk out.


"Jamie, will  you put this necklace on me?"

"Yes, but when you have your CT scans or MRIs you'll have to take it off"


She walks over and clips it around my neck.

"It's very beautiful" she smiles. "Do you want me to move any of this stuff?"

"No, leave it" I smile.

She sits the balloons next to my bed and the bears as well.

She takes the flowers and places them in a vase.


"What are you doing here?" I say as I walk out of Andrea's room.

The curtains were closed now.

"I-I came to find you"

"I told you I was gonna visit her"

"You've been gone all day"

"I know...I had to wait three hours"

"And what did you do in those three hours? Not call me?"

"I was trying to find a way for her to forgive me"

"Did she?"

"Yes" I smile.

"What did you do?" She asks a little rudely.

"I brought her stuff"

"So you bought her forgiveness?"

"I spoke to her first. She forgave me, then saw the gifts"

"What did you tell her?"

"That's personal. Please Karen"

"Okay, I'm sorry"

"I'm going to my house tomorrow by the way" I state.

"Okay. But I'll visit soon" she hugs me and leaves.

I sigh.


Allen walks back in.

"Do you have therapy tomorrow?"

"Yeah, we're gonna work out my legs, although they're dead" she kind of laughs.

"I know there's a cure for the sickness, and even though it'll go away, you may not get to walk again. But at the same time, I have so much faith in you"

"Thank you" I smile big.

"I'll see you soon, but I have to move back into my house and see my parents"

"Okay, bye bye" I say.

He smiles big and gives me a hug.


Everything is okay now. 

I think.

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