Happiness of loneliness

Though I have fallen in love many times in my life. Do I have really been in love once?
Yes, I have only fallen in love once, at when I wasn’t especially lonely. I was much younger at that time and honestly, I was just fine without a female partner to share my life. And now I think about it, actually I was truly I fell in love much later with the same loved one.

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1. Happiness of loneliness

Over 15 years later, VJ moved to Delhi, the city where I live. I am astonished, one night I got a message saying “Are you the same PP…”

Mandi House adda was our favorites, but this time we barely meet. She always had badly busy at work. Although we spent some good time, and Delhi was very hot those days to melt anything…

VJ: I am confused

PP: for what?

VJ: It's not happiness, am thinking about it

PP: I don’t have Happiness T-shirt…

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In the mid summer of 2000s, I and VJ were lone working at deserted graphic studio in Bhopal. It was very hot there. Everything is look like melting all around. Night was fairly pleasant at the lake city. We spent long hours in the lake, sharing each other to form the malted heart.

But the same time I was much focused in my work and created some good. I was very happy that those days are creatively productive.

VJs vacation over and she left for her place. Later I realize that I am selfish, I use others emotions in my work. I work good when I am hurt, the pain makes me happy. Unknowingly I set this as my happiness. This happiness praises me on my work.

End of summer on of my class mate MC joined the studio

…the monsoon started

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Though I have fallen in love many times in my life. Do I have really been in love once?

Yes, I have only fallen in love once, at when I wasn’t especially lonely. I was much younger at that time and honestly, I was just fine without a female partner to share my life. And now I think about it, actually I was truly I fell in love much later with the same loved one.

To all of us this happens who have had no choice to give up the first love. A sad reality that when you have fallen in love deeply, you desire for that love, and want to find it again and again. Again you become lonely. Then you started to fantasize and looking for a reality that doesn’t exist actually. Then you fall in love with someone who is unworthy of it somehow.

The first time you fell in love, can’t be described entirely. The emotions, the state of your being and mind became a different creature entirely—this individual who needs this other to survive. And you were just introduced to an infatuation that you rely on for life, which you never before even realized existed. It’s all incredibly devastating, to say the most amazing, most intoxicating, most nasty and painful feeling in the world. We get that first taste of it, we become addicts for life.

Sadly many hanker after go, we placed yourself in to an abandonment. Oftenly it is not our own fault because actually it is not that simple. It is not you, him or her, it is the timing, the situation where we makes mistakes were not willing to take risk.

And we go on living at the best we can, with the unforgivable about that tang, that incredible fragrance that filled our soul. Remembering those moments we lived with the person we loved. Then we spend the rest of our lives looking for our next fix.

Loneliness is a strong motivator. It moves us to make some very poor decisions in the hopes of maybe getting lucky enough to meet someone.

We make many silent sacrifice for us…

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