My Diary

#2015
Hi I am winnie and this my life story it's is so filled with drama u want to know if it is true or false but i will have to tell you everything i write in this book it true (not the names tho they are all changed and made up sorry) Sit back and relax i hope u enjoy it as much as I am trying too.

0Likes
0Comments
1889Views
AA

2. Is this LOVE?

Dear Diary, Today, well I found who are my real friends and who are not. So Kirstie, Ana, Evie, Kelsey and I we well all sat in a place inside the library and Kistie stared at me and said "our group is spilting up" and I said "i know". She is like one my really close friends like I feel I can tell her anything, but then I get a scared feeling. Today I had my musical practise and I saw you know who Ben, the one person I thought and felt that I got over but I guess I didnt. I guess I just tried to forget he exsit at all, like I left facebook and unfollwered him on instagram and but then when I saw him face to face with another girl I felt like i was getting jealous but I dont know why I thought I'm over him and feel so but why can't I move on? what does he have on me? When I saw him talking to another girl i said to myself "i will never stand a chance against her, she beautiful and looks smart and sounds funny" I guess I might be a little jealous but thats all. What if this is more than the fact I havent gotten over him. what if this is more than like? What if this is LOVE! ? how do I know if this is love I have never felt this before. I have tried for so many times to get him but I can't seem to get over him. Why is love hard? I tried to get him to like me but, it's no good he wants someone more older and taller and prettier than me. Today I read something that changed my mind about wanting people or liking I have to be myself or else I will never be able to know who I really. But I fell like this feelings I have is real you know like the kind you only get in movies and TV shows. I'm scared that if anything happened I will get hurt so much that i will end up hating myself for the rest of my life. I stared watching a TV show called the tomorrow people and I love it, it distracts me from the real world. I woke up thinking today will be different but it wasn't, maybe it is time I face that I need help or should i just keep calm and leave everything the way it is.  until next time, Love you always Winy 
Join MovellasFind out what all the buzz is about. Join now to start sharing your creativity and passion
Loading ...