1. I still love you
Dear love of mine.
How many times haven't I done this already? Sat here by my table with a pen in my hand.
Every week ever since that day.
I miss you dearly and I want you back. I could have saved you but I didn't. If only I knew then.
The times have changed greatly but yet I live in the past clinging to your dead body.
I still look for you. I look everywhere.
I will look for you even if I might never find you. I will never give up. Your life was worth more than hundred of mine.
That day in the moment of your last hour I held you. I held you closely and told you the second biggest secret in my life. You found out that I wasn't perfect but yet you thanked me.
My biggest secret was that I loved you. But I was never brave enough to tell you as much. Not even when death knocked on your door.
I loved you ever since I met you and I will and can never forget you.
I lied to you and to myself denying that I was in love with a man let alone my soul mate!
I was discurraged but as said, times have changed and I am more open with my feelings. I knew I loved you but I kept denying it, everyday and every passing hour.
I wish I had told you even if you might not have loved me back. Now that I am old I still wish to tell you. I want to be with you no matter what gender or age.
I dearly wish to find you my love. That is what I am set upon until the day I die.
I loved you once and I still do.
I always have and I always will.
Your friend in love.