It's insanely weird when you remember that there's a child in your stomach, and actual, living, breathing child. Yet even though I know there's a beautiful baby boy or girl in there, it doesn't make me feel like my life is going to be changed forever. No I don't believe getting pregnant so young will ruin my life, if anything I'm so happy that it happened.
I'm four months along now and everything seems to be going great. My stomach is getting bigger and you can definitely tell that there's a baby in there. So soon enough the fans are going to find out.
Justin and I have been as close as ever and I really do love him with all my heart. He's been the most amazing guy ever and I don't think I could beat losing him. If you wanted a description of the perfect boyfriend, Justin would be it.
Right now we were just laying in bed, watching South Park. He was his arms around me, rubbing my stomach. He does that at lot but I'm not complaining. I had my hands over his and was smiling. Everything that happened this past year doesn't even matter anymore.
"Mhm?" He asks, kissing my shoulder lightly.
"Let's do something." I say.
"I don't know, something other than laying in bed and watching TV all day." I tell him and smile.
"Wanna go to the beach? There's one not far from here that nobody ever goes to. It's pretty nice."
"Onward!" I exclaim and get out of bed. "But first I'm going to change." I tell him and stand up.
I don't even bother leaving the room to change, after all, Justin was the one who got me pregnant. I changed into my bathing suit top, and had a little trouble getting the shorts on, but eventually did. I did my makeup and pulled on my crop-top sweater thing. I did my makeup and pulled on my converse then looked at Justin.
Tears rolled down my cheeks and I felt pathetic as I knocked on the door of Rose's house. But honestly right now I don't care. Rose was the only person who would understand and I was not going anywhere near Gabe.
Rose opens the door and sees my tear stained cheeks and pulls me Into a hug automatically. "Jack, love. What's wrong?"
"G-Gabe..." I mutter and she rubs my back.
"Come in, please and tell me what happened." She says softly.
I nod and we both walk into her living room. She sits on the couch and I lay my head in her lap. She plays with my hair, stroking my cheek with her thumb.
"What did he do, Jack?" She asks.
I take a deep breath and look at her. "He was acting like he didn't care, like I was an embarrassment to him. I asked him to tell the fans and he flipped out and I just don't understand him sometimes. It's like he doesn't even fucking love me!"
"Hey, Jack. Calm down. That was a real dick move of him but you need to calm down. He was probably scared of how people react to this whole situation. I know it doesn't make it hurt any less but you have to take everything into consideration. And I can assure you that Gabe loves you more than anything." She says, rubbing my back.
"I know, I feel terrible for just leaving but the way he said that he wasn't going to tell them yet it made me feel like he was disgusted by me," I mutter and sit up, shaking my head.
"Jack, you know that's not the truth. He loves you."
I groaned as I left the house, getting in my car. I knew I fucked up, and I knew he was upset. Jack means everything to me and I would never ever want to do anything to hurt him, and I know one way to prove it to him.
I called everyone I needed to, I bought everything I needed to and a small smile crossed my face. I don't know what he's going to say, but I can only hope by me doing this he's going to realize that I love him more than anything and I'd do anything for him.
Rose got a phone call and talked for a while, eventually hanging up and looking at me.
"Get dressed in something nice. Borrow something from Justin." She demands.
She stands up and raises her eyebrows at me, telling me to go. I nod and stand up. She wobbles away and I laugh slightly at her. Her stomach is getting huge and she's only four months pregnant.
I walk up the stairs and apparently Justin knew what was happening because as soon as I walked into their room, clothes were being thrown at me. I was extremely confused but changed Into them anyway. It was nice, black skinny jeans and a button up shirt. Now I was extremely confused.
I walked back downstairs and saw Rose and she smiled. "Come with me, child." She says, grabbing her car keys and slipping her converse on.
She walks out to her car and gets in the drivers side, and I get in the passengers side. She starts driving down the road and I look at her.
"What are we doing?"
"Shut up and cooperate," she says, half-jokingly.
She eventually drives into the parking lot of the beach and gets out. "Come on, paddawan." She says and smiles, closing the door.
I get out behind her, huffing in frustration. I'd really like to know what's happening right now.
She leads me onto the beach and I look around and see something set up in the distance. I furrow my eyebrows and she walks along with me in-tow. She has an odd bounce in her step as we walk and she looks extremely excited.
We walked for a few minutes and eventually everything came into vision. I made out Gabe standing there, holding a single rose and dressed up nicely. I smile and look around, noticing candles and rose petals on the ground. I shake my head in disbelief and keep walking. Eventually Rose walks over to my band mates and her bandmates, standing to the right of Gabe.
"What is happening?" I ask as I get closer to Gabe.
He just smiles at me and holds out his hand. I look at him skeptically and take it. He pulls me close to him and kisses me softly. A blush rises to my face but I kiss back anyway.
"What is this all about? Please tell me, I am so confused." I laugh.
"Well, I was a complete dick earlier. I know that and I feel terrible. I never meant to hurt you, Jack. I love you, more than anything or anyone. I'd do anything for you, and I really hope you know that. So, to prove it to you I thought of the one thing that might make this better.
"Jack, I love you. I want to show you off to the world and it was extremely stupid of me to react like that. But I really, really love you. It took me long enough to realize it, and I know that saying it is nothing but empty words, but really, my feelings are more than any words or actions could do anyway.
"You are just so perfect. The way you smile and laugh and you're just... My everything. Its unbelievable to say that I finally got the guy I've wanted for so many years.
"Please believe me when I tell you that I want to be with you forever, and I'm not afraid to let the world know you're mine. So, Jack fowler." He stops and gets on one knee, pulling out a box. "Would you do me the honour of calling you mine, forever?" He asks, hopefully.
The ring is a simple, silver band with forever engraved on the inside. Without hesitation I dropped to me knees in front of him, with the hugest of grins on my face. I kiss him softly, but passionately.
"Yes." I mumble against his lips. "Yes." I pull away and say a little louder.
He smiles and slips the ring on my finger, kissing me again. I heard cheers from behind us but at the moment I could've cared less who was watching us right now. I must have looked like a mess but once again, I didn't give a shit. Right now all I cared about was me, Gabe and forever.