It's been three weeks since me and Justin have gotten back together and everything has been great. Everyone has been happy and it's amazing. The only thing that's been bothering me lately is that I've been getting sick. Like sick in the morning and through the afternoon. There's no reasonable explanation for me getting sick. I've gained back a lot of my weight, no excessive drinking. And I've been off any drug I was using.
I had been in the bathroom ridding my stomach if any contents when I felt a hand on my back and another one holding my hair back.
I finished up what was happening and what I recognized as Kellin, handed me a glass filled with water.
"Thank you." I mutter and rinse my mouth out, flushing the toilet.
"You're welcome, what's the matter?" He asks and pulls me into a hug.
"I don't know." I mutter and explain to him what was happening.
He looks at me with a worried expression and bites his lip. "When was the last time you and Justin did... It?" He asks.
I widen my eyes. "L-like three weeks ago... But.. We.. We used... Oh my god." I breathe out.
"We need to get you a test..." He mutters. "I'll be right back." He says and gets up.
I nod and lean my back against the wall. I stayed there thinking about everything, mostly worrying. I mean, I just got Justin back, what happens if he doesn't want a baby and he leaves again? He knows I won't give up the baby... I can't lose him again.. I just can't...
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Kellin came back and knelt down in front of me.
"Here, take this." He says softly, handing me the box.
I take it into my shaky hands and nod, shooing him out. He leaves and I do my business and call Kellin back in. I wrap my arms around him and rest my head on his chest.
"What if I am pregnant and he doesn't want a baby..?" I ask, shakily.
"Everything will be okay love." He sighs and rubs my back.
My eyes snap open as the beep of the pregnancy test sounded through my ears. I take a deep breath and pick it up off the counter.
My breath hitches in my throat as I look at the small piece of plastic in my hand
No fucking way.
"Well?" I ask her, still having my arms wrapped around her.
"I-I'm.. Gonna be a mom." She stutters out.
I widen my eyes and smile. "That's amazing!" I exclaim but she seems anything but excited.
"Kellin... He can't find out." She squeaks.
I sigh and pull her into a hug. "It'll be okay. I promise I'll be here through it all, I'm sure Tay will too and everyone else. But if you want to keep this between us for now we can." I say softly.
"This was just so fucking unexpected." She mutters and buries her face in my neck.
Before I got the chance to comfort her I heard the front door opening. She backs away in a panic and shoves any evidence of her being pregnant under the sink.
Just as she closed the cupboard doors there was a knock on the door.
"Roses?" I hear Justin ask.
I open the door and he looks at the both of us confused, which would only be expected. When your girlfriend and the guy who had a crush on her are both in the bathroom and the girlfriend looks like she had been crying, there's going to be some obvious confusion.
"What is going on here?" He asks with slight amusement in his voice, but you could tell it was covering up another emotion, I just couldn't tell what.
"I came over and saw Rose in the bathroom, she got sick so I came in and held her hair back and we've just been trying to figure out what was wrong. We just stayed in the bathroom to make sure she didn't get sick again." I say, half truthfully.
I could see he was a little hesitant, but nodded anyway. "Are you okay now?" He asks Rose and she nods, smiling a bit.
"All better, probably just sick or something." She shrugs and hugs him.
He hugs back instinctively and kisses her head. "Well, thanks Kellin." He says awkwardly.
We still weren't best buddies, but I guess it'll take time.
I sighed and nod. "I guess I better go, hope you're feeling better Rose." I say.
"Bye Kells, thanks again." She says and I smile and nod.
I walk down the stairs and out the door, I wasn't jealous. I think I've grown up a bit and realized that she's happy and that's all that matters.. Plus I think I might have a crush on a certain bassist for a band named Eternal Tragedy.
Justin picked me up and carried me over to the bed, laying me down and laying beside me.
"Are you sure you're alright?" He asks and I nod, kissing him on the cheek.
I didn't have to worry about getting him sick because the last time I checked, you cannot catch pregnancy.
"Do you need anything? Are you hungry? Are you-" I cut him off by kissing him softly.
"No baby, I'm fine. But thank you." I say and smile. "Just stay here with me, please." I say quietly and wrap my arms around him.
"Anything for you," he says and runs his hand through my hair, rubbing my back gently.
God I hope that I don't lose him, all I can hope is that he takes the news lightly.