A/N oh, I know Jesse isn't in Sleeping With Sirens anymore, but just pretend he still is bc Jesse is bae
A look of disgust Stood strong on my face when I looked in the mirror. I, Alexandria Jaiden Rose, would never be good enough for a friend like Kellin. Yes, Kellin Quinn from Sleeping With sirens. A friendship broken to pieces soon to be restored and let me tell you, it's been far too long since I've seen Kells.
I'm just a regular 22 year old girl in a band who dyes my hair and has to many piercings and tattoos. Kellin Quinn is such a fucking beautiful person who's in a band that tours the world, he has so many fans and people who admire him and he decides to still have me as his best friend.
Let's do a little intro about me; I'm 22, live alone. Oh, everyone ALWAYS calls me by my last name I have purple hair right now but I dye it a lot. I have extremely bright blue eyes, I'm 5'4, I'm in a band called Eternal Tragedy with three of my friends, I have a lot of tattoos, including my favourite on my top right thigh that's of a cherry blossom. I have spider bite lip piercings, my tongue, hips, belly button, septum, and many parts of my ear pierced. I love a lot of different types of music but my favorite bands are Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil. Kellin Quinn was, my best friend (working on that) and yeah. That's me.
Those were my exact thoughts two hours ago, but here I am, right in front of his door. Fear laced my mind as I walked into his house. Kellin had been my best friend for what feels like forever, but now I barely hang out with him because of Katelynne. We'd decided to hang out today since Kate wouldn't be around. No matter how hard I tried, I'd never be able to gain her friendship or even acceptance. So I just stopped trying.
Kellin was my first crush, and still is my crush. But I'd like to forget about that and just focus on hopefully regaining the friendship we once had. After all, he is married and has the most adorable baby girl in the world. Even if he's married to the biggest bitch I've met, I'm not going to risk my feelings getting in the way of their happiness.
My hair cascaded down my back in a bunch of purple, white and pink curls. I felt completely and utterly out of place when Kellin walked down the stairs and smiles at me.
"Hey." He says happily and I return a small wave, making sure that all of my scarred skin on my wrists are covered.
"What are we doing today?" I ask quietly.
He walks over to me "Rose, I'm so sorry that we never hang out anymore. You're still my best friend. Hell, you're one of my favourite girls in the world." He says and I hug him tightly.
"I missed you Kells." I mumble.
Okay, let's go back a few years. Me and Kellin have been friends since eighth grade. Going through more shit than you could imagine. He stood up for me when bullies would try and start shit, and I'd always be there for him when he needed me. I had a crush on him for a few years, then I thought nothing of it, realizing best friends would be all we would ever be. He started his band Sleeping with Sirens with his friends, and I had started a band with a few of my friends called Eternal Tragedy. We were still always with each other. Where one would go the other followed.
Our friendship never withered. Our bands hung out with each other, and everything was amazing.
Kellin had known my past. With my suffering from depression, self harm, unfortunate ED's and a terrible past with drug use. But yet he was still here, and still loving me for me.
Everything changed when he started dating Katelynne. He stopped talking to me as much once he realized that Katelynne didn't like me, we stopped hanging out. He'd do everything on his favour to keep her happy. And that's how our friendship ended. Yes I still talked with the rest of his band. Justin and Jesse were as close as brothers and thank god that hadn't changed.
But now back to reality. It's time to get back what we'd once had. And this is exactly what we need.
"How've you been lately?" He asks as we walk out the door.
"Alive." I tell him and shrug.
Kellin had no idea I still had an Eating Disorder. He had no idea I was still suffering from depression. And no clue I was still suicidal.
"Alive?" He asks.
"Alive." I answer. "What about you?" I ask.
"That's great." I answer. "And the band?" I ask. May as well. He doesn't know I still talk to them.
"Awesome! And yours?" He says
"Still fabulous." I reply and smile. "So what are we doing anyway?" I ask.
"You'll see." He says and chuckles.
I pout and keep walking "meanie butt."
He sticks his tongue out at me and we walk down the sidewalk.
We walk for I don't know how long just talking about random things, it feels amazing. Eventually we walk down a beautiful beach and in the distance I see 8 figures. I look over to Kellin and he smiles cheekily.
"So I know you love the beach, and Pierce the veil. So why not have a day at the beach with the two best bands ever?" He says happily.
"Woah Fuckboy, don't forget my band is better than yours." I say and throw in a dramatic hair flip.
"Oh yes, I forgot."
He picks me up and runs down the beach to the other guys and I squirm in his arms, trying to get out of his grasp. "Do you mind?" I ask and he shakes his head.
I roll my eyes and he stops. I jump out of his arms and dramatically run to Justin. "JUSTINNNNNNNNN!" I yell and jump into his arms.
He laugh and holds me up "BAEEEEEE!" He yells and I hug him tightly.
"ITS BEEN 84 YEARS SINCE IVE SEEN YOU!" I yell excitedly and kiss his cheek multiple times.
Everyone around us laughs but kellin pouts. "How come he gets to pick you up and he gets a kiss on the cheek and why does he get more privileges than me." He whines.
"Because Justin is bae." I say and cuddle into his side.
I've never thought of Justin as anymore than a brother, and I plan to keep it like that, but Justin is really nice and hot and perfect....
"Rose?" Justin asks.
"Yes my fairweather friend?" I answer
"Let's go swimming." He says and I widen my eyes.
"N-no thanks." I say and he looks at me.
"Pleasee?" He asks.
I look at him and raise my eyebrows, then look down at my makeup smeared legs.
He widens his eyes in realization. "I'm sorry." He mumbles and I smile.
"It's okay bae." I say and smile.
We all sit on the beach for who knows how long. We have a bonfire and soon Kellin gets a call. Of course, it's Katelynne. He gets up and says goodbye to everyone, leaving without another word. I rolls my eyes and sit on Justin's lap.
"Peasants everywhere." I mutter.
"Good thing you got me and Jesse and Jack and Gabe right?" He asks and I hear the guys in Pierce The Veil cough. "And Vic and Tony and Jaime and Mike?" He adds and I giggle.
"Yes Justin," I say and kiss his cheek again.
He smiles, a small blush appearing on his cheeks and hugs me tightly.
"I missed you." I say.
"I missed you too young one." He says and I end up falling asleep in his arms.