I get out of the hospital today and I'm actually really scared to go home... I don't want to see the place where I was so close to death. That just doesn't settle well.
Justin was taking me home and he had carried me to his car, which I had found highly unnecessary but he wouldn't out me down. He set me in the passengers side and got Ito the drivers side starting the car.
He grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together, which gave me butterflies. I blushed and smiled at him.
"So Rose," he starts and I look at him. "I was thinking,"
"That's never good." I say and laugh.
He rolls his eyes and continues. "And I really feel extremely terrible about everything.. But I can't live without you. I'm gonna quote my song and sound like a douche but oh well. I only have myself to blame, but do you think we could start again? Cause I can't live without you now..." He says softly, rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand.
"Justin..." I start.
"I know, I know. You'll never be able to forgive me because I did some stupid shit, and I hurt you. And I'm so so so sorry. But let me make it up to you. Go on a date with me tonight." He says and I contemplate how things could go.
I mean, what's the worst that could happen?
I bite my lip but nod. "Okay."
"If you don't want to- wait did you say okay?"
"Yes Justin, I'll go on a date with you." I say and laugh a bit.
He widens his eyes and smiles a huge ass smile.
"Oh my god! Okay okay. I'm gonna take you home and then I want you to get ready. Dress up fancy but bring a change of comfy clothes, and a bathing suit." He says and pulls into my driveway.
I nod and look at my front door hesitantly.
"Hey..." He says, parking the car.
I look over at him and he unbuckles my seatbelt, pulling me over into his lap. "It's okay, it's cleaned up and you can barely physically tell that anything happened in there." He says and places his hand on my cheek.
I nod a bit and connect my lips with his.
My fucking god I missed this. It feels absolutely perfect. His lips fit perfectly with mine, just like his hands fit with mine. Out bodies just fit together like two puzzle pieces and everything I do with him just feels right.
He had his hands placed firmly on my hips and my arms were around his neck and hands were tangled in his hair.
It's a damn good thing his car had tinted windows.
I pull away a bit and look at Justin. I could feel him underneath me, and he was extremely turned on.
He gave me a look as if to say he was sorry he did that but I shook my head and kissed him again.
Sure we weren't together, sure we were in a car, sure he cheated on me and sure my best friend is in love with me, but that doesn't mean I can't fuck the guy I'm utterly and completely in love with.
*sexual stuffs ahead :DD*
Justin had somehow so easily pulled my pants off and I had unbuckled his belt and pulled them down as far as I needed to.
He was rubbing my side with one if his hands and still had his other on my hip. I had disconnected my lips with his and was now sucking and biting places on his neck, leaving marks every now and then. He was moaning and holding into my hips tightly now and I smirked in satisfaction, knowing I could do this to him.
"Please don't tease me anymore Rose." He groaned, and I'll tell you. That's the hottest thing ever.
I nodded and slowly lowered myself onto him. He moaned quietly and I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding.
It had been forever since we've done this. What if he realized that he doesn't love me anymore? What the fuck happens if I do something wrong?
I push all those thoughts away and shake my head. Overthinking again.
I began to move up and down at a very slow, agonizing pace. Justin's hand was on my lower back and his eyes were closed, his head resting on the seat.
I begin to move aster and roll my hips slightly. He moans and begins to thrust, meeting my movements. I'm not gonna lie, this felt like heaven.
"J-Justin..." I moan out and he kisses my neck.
He kisses down my neck and to my collar bone, nibbling on it. A string of moans and profanities were spilling out of my mouth as we both sped up.
Not long after I felt Justin slow down a bit underneath me and I knew what was about to happen. I wasn't going to last much longer either.
"J-Justin! Fuck, I-I'm close." I moan out and he nods, going even faster.
*LE SEXUAL STUFF ENDS*
We both finished and I was breathing heavily. I rested my forehead on his and kissed him softly.
"I missed that... I missed you. I love you so much." I mutter and kiss him over and over again.
"You don't realize how much I love you..." He mutters and kisses me one more time.
We dress ourselves and get out of the car, straightening up before walking into my house.
I stepped Into the door and into the living room and 15 people jumped out and yelled welcome home.
Yeah, 15! Because right in front of me stood Oli Sykes, Austin Carlile, and Alan Ashby! No fucking way!
I smiled extremely wide and for once I felt happy. I love these guys so much.
I walked over and hugged each and every one of them. We talked for a while and eventually they all left. It was me, Justin, Tay, Kellin and Juliet left.
I got up and went to get ready for mine and Justin's date.
I walked up the stairs and stopped in front of my door. I took a deep breath and stepped it.
He was right, everything looked the same.
I sighed in relief and looked around in my closet. I found a strapless black lace dress then went to about mid-thought and fit me perfectly. I smiled and slipped into it and out on a sliver, sparkly eyeshadow and black liquid eyeliner and silver, sparkly heels.
I had recently dyed my hair green and blue, very pretty actually. I had left it down and Kellin walked in.
He looked at me confused. "What's up...?"
"Oh.. Um.. Justin asked me out on a date..." I mutter quietly.
I see his facial expression turn from confused to hurt, angry and upset.
"Really Rose?! You're going on a date with that bastard after all he's done?! He doesn't love you like I love you Rose, you know that! Don't be so fucking stupid and run back to him thinking it will all magically be okay because it won't! Jesus Christ.."
I looked at him hurt. I grabbed the rest of what I needed and threw it in a bag. "Oh yes Kellin, because you obviously love me so much more, especially because your able to call me fucking stupid without a second thought. I'm going back to him because I love him. Yes I know, but a good friend of mine told me that second chances won't leave me alone, because there's faith in love. Honestly, grow the hell up an fuck off somewhere you asshole." I yell and push past him.
I walk downstairs and hide anything that may have seemed like I was upset. I put a smile on my face and stepped into the living room. Justin stared at me with his jaw opened and I giggle.
"Close your mouth, you'll catch flies." I tell him and peck his lips.
"You look absolutely perfect." He says and smiles.
"Why thank you, my love."
You know what, fuck this. I'm going to forget everything and enjoy this night that I'll have with the guy I'm in love with.