"What?" I ask emotionless.
"Rose I didn't-" Justin starts but I cut him off.
"Did you, or did you not fuck her?" I ask him.
"I did..." He says and looks down.
"That's all I needed to know." I say and stand up.
He stands up after me and tries to hug me but I shake my head.
"Rose I swear that I didn't mean-"
I slap him, hard. "Fuck you Justin. We're done." I say.
I don't really know what to feel right now. I'm mad, I'm sad, I'm upset at everything and I cannot believe him. He told me he cared. He said he loved me. He swore he'd be there but he cheated on me.
"So that's it? You don't even give me a chance to explain?" He asks, hurt.
A single tear rolls down my cheek and I stare at him. "What is there to explain. Don't you dare fucking say it was an accident, because I know for damn well sure that she didn't trip and fall and land on your dick." I say, my voice cracking again.
"Rose.." He whispers, moving near me again.
I push him away and shake my head.
"Go fuck yourself. Just like you fucked Mikayla." I say and walk off the bus, tears pouring down like a waterfall.
I just walk. I walk until I can't move my legs anymore and it's dark outside. I'd put my headphones in, and was now listening to A Day To Remember. I had never thought it was possible to cry this much but I guess I had. I was ignoring every text and phone call I had received. I did not want to put up with anyone right now. So I decided I'd stay in a hotel.
I walk to the nearest hotel and check in, deciding I'd text Tay and tell her where I am. Even though I had just met her I felt like she was the closest I'd come to having a sister.
I tell her where I am and I collapse on the bed in my room. I curl up into the blankets and cry into my pillow.
Why did he have to cheat on me... Was I really not good enough?
I walk out to follow Rose but by the time I had gotten outside she was already gone. I groan and sit on the ground, my back leaning against their bus.
Why did I have to fuck up?
Jesse and Kellin walk out behind me and I look up at them. I'd been crying and I didn't want them to bother me right now.
"You know, I'd beat the shit out of you, but you're not worth it." Jesse says and Kellin agrees.
They walk back to the bus, Jack and Gabe following not long after.
What the fuck is wrong with me.
I was so worried about Rose. I know I just met her and everything but she's my best friend, and bandmate for crying out loud.
I texted her for a while after she answered and I was extremely relieved that she was in a hotel, 100% okay.
I text Kellin and tell her she was fine and I sigh. I really hope Rose will be okay when all this is over.
I walked outside and I see Justin still sitting with his back against our bus.
"Justin." I say and he turns around to look at me, wiping tears. "Come inside." I sigh and he stands up.
I walk in and he gets on after me.
"Talk to me." I tell him and sit down on the couch.
He collapses next to me and continues crying. "I fucked up so bad Tay."
"Oh I know you did Justin. Why?"
"I don't know! I was drunk and on who knows what! All I do know is that it meant nothing and I'm in love with Rose and only Rose!" He exclaims through tears.
I sigh and look at him. "You know this fucked her up bad. She's not even coming home tonight." I tell him and he falls silent.
"I hurt her... I'll never be able to forgive myself... I can't believe I hurt her..." He mutters under his breath.
"Well, believe it Fuckboy, and then find a way to fix it." I tell him and stand up, walking away to leave him by himself for a while.
I was curled up in a ball on my bed with my headphones in. I had managed to stop crying long enough to switch to my Sleeping With Sirens playlist.
Then I returned to crying.
It felt like it would never end. I finally hear the lyrics to Let Love Bleed Red and the tears come down even faster.
I couldn't think straight and I needed someone here. And of course the first person that came to mind was Kellin.
I dialled his number and he picked up almost immediately.
"Rose? Oh my god are you okay?!" He exclaims and I take a deep breath.
"Please come stay with me." I choke out through tears.
"Of course, where are you?"
I tell him where I am and he tells me that he would be here as soon as he could.
And he was there pretty fucking quick.
I met him in the lobby of the hotel and he pulls me into a huge hug.
"Oh my gosh Rose we were all so worried. Are you okay?"
"No." I tell him honestly and he carries me back to my room.
I hand him the key card and he unlocks the door, walking in with me and laying me on the bed.
"I'm so so so so sorry this happened to you Rose." Kellin says softly and kisses my head.
"None of its your fault though Kellin." I mutter and bury my face in his neck.
"I still let him hurt you." He says and sighs, playing with my hair.
"It doesn't matter anymore." I tell him.
"You're crying, it obviously does mater." He says softly and I shake my head.
"Kellin, please. Can we just go to sleep so I can forget today ever happened?" I ask him and he nods.
"Whatever you say love." He tells me and I close my eyes.
Just as I'm about to drift off to sleep I hear him say 'I love you Rose.' Then he started singing Postcards and Polaroids. I was asleep without another thought. Just the sound of Kellin's Angelic voice flowing through my ears.