She said yes. That's all I cared about. I have my world back. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
I never thought she would ever take me back. Not in a million years, but she said yes.
I kissed her and held her and danced with her like nothing ever happened. Tonight was our night and I'll be damned if anything would stop us being together. Not Kellin, not Mikayla, nobody.
I smiled as she finished off the last of the Jell-O shots I made for her. We had been here for like 2 and a half hours. It was starting to get dark outside but our night wasn't over.
"Roses are you ready to go?" I ask and she nodded, you could tell she was a bit tipsy.
"Yep." She giggled. "Take me home and stay with me Justinnnnnn." She says and I laugh.
"Oh no, our date isn't over yet." I smile and she stares at me.
"You're pretty." She says and pokes my cheek.
I laugh and kiss her. "Not as pretty as you." I say and help her to the car.
Justin helped me to the car, and I guess being outside kind of sobered me up a bit. I was still slightly tipsy but I was fine.
Justin started driving and I just looked down at our hands that were intertwined. I smiled at the ring on my finger and brought his hand up to my mouth, kissing his knuckles softly.
He smiles at me and sighs contently. "I love you so much." He says.
"I love you so so much more." I say and quietly hum Still Into You by Paramore.
He drives for a while and I don't really pay attention, I just sit in silence, holding his hand. I missed this more than anything. I missed him more than anything.
He eventually pulled into a beach and I look at him.
"I thought a little skinny dipping would be a way to celebrate getting back together." He says and smiles cheekily.
I widen my eyes and hit his chest. "Are you serious?! We're in public!"
"It's a private beach, plus there's nobody out and the last sign of civilization was like 15 minutes ago, but if you don't want to we don't have to." He says and shrugs.
I roll my eyes at him and smile. "'Meet you down there." I say and jump out of the car.
I run toward the water but with Justin being so much faster and taller than me, he caught up to me quickly, wrapping his arms around my waist.
I giggle and kiss his nose. "The sand feels so weird on my feet." I whine and he laughs.
He turns me around to face him and kisses me. I kiss back and begin to unbutton his shirt. He reaches behind me and unzips my dress. I let it fall down and I kicked it over somewhere.
I pull his shirt off and start unbuckling his belt. I get his belt and his pants off and he pulls away, staring at my body that barely had any clothes on it. I breathe in sharply and realize what he's staring at.
All of the new cuts and scars littered over my stomach and thighs.
"Roses..." I say softly and stare at the marks on her skin.
"Justin don't.." She says and shifts uncomfortably.
"That's my fault." I say and run my fingers over her scars and cuts lightly.
"No, no it's not. Please don't blame yourself." She begs and grabs my hands.
I shake my head and look at her with tears in my eyes. "I made you do this to yourself. I've hurt you so bad you thought you had to do this to distract yourself from the pain I caused. It's all my fault you're hurting yourself..." I whimper and she shakes her head in return.
"Justin baby, stop it. It was my doing. I did it to me. Not you. Please, don't think about them or what happened. Let tonight be just about us, I haven't been this close to you in almost 4 months. Let's talk about that later." She insists.
I look from her thighs, hips and stomach to her eyes and see a pleading look in her eyes. I take one more look at the marks but nod.
I unclip her bra and she throws it on top of her dress. She slips off her panties and throws them with her other stuff. I slip off my boxers and move closer to her, pulling her into my chest. I had no intentions of doing anything sexual, this was just something we've never done. And we are very adventurous. So why not?
I grab her hand and lace my fingers with hers. "Ready?" I ask and she nods.
We both smile and take a running start towards the water. I pick her up as she's running and she pouts. I laugh and jump in the water with her.
I don't let go of her but instead I pull her closer. I spent 4 months missing this and I'm going to make up for lost time.
She leans up and kisses me softly and of course I kiss back. I can see her shivering and I laugh a bit.
"Cold?" I ask and she nods.
"I love you." She says softly and kisses my nose.
"I love you too baby."
We had our fun but it was starting to get extremely cold out and I made Justin take us home. I had silently thanked Justin for telling me to bring a change of clothes so I wouldn't have to get back in that damned dress.
We arrived home at 11 and I saw Kellin and Tay were still here. I roll my eyes at the thought of Kellin. He shouldn't think he has the right to tell me what I should and shouldn't do. I'm a fucking adult.
Me and Justin walk in hand-in-hand and the first thing I see is an upset Tay.
"Hey hey hey Tay, what's the matter?" I ask, dropping Justin's hand and walking over to her.
She shakes her head and smiles at me. It was forced and I didn't like that. "It's nothing, don't worry about it."
I looked at her warily but she gave me a reassuring smile.
I sigh and pull her into a hug. She hugs back the jumps up and down excitedly.
"How was tonight?" She asks.
I blush and begin to tell her everything from start to finish. She squeaks and holds my hand close to her face to admire the promise ring. I blush and smile wide.
"Rose. We need to talk." Kellin speaks from the doorway of the living room.
I sigh and stand up, walking out to the kitchen. He follows and he looks at me, obviously hurt.
"You went back to him. You didn't think of me? You didn't think of us. What about what he did to you? I thought you really loved me." He says, more sadly than angrily.
"Kellin, I do love you." I speak softly.
"Then why did you choose him?"
"Because you asked me to make my decision, and I did."
*3 days earlier*
"God dammit Rose! Make up your mind! Do you want me or him!?" Kellin exclaims, frustrated.
"I-I don't know..." I say quietly.
"Well it's great to know that you don't love me anymore." He mutters, running a hand through his hair.
"Listen here asshole. I never said that. Did I? You're making me choose between the two guys I love more than anything and you just expect me to know right away?! Have some fucking sense." I mutter.
"Tell me when you've made up your mind." He says, shaking his head. And with that he left the hospital, leaving me alone to think.
"Y-you... You chose him." He says almost Inaudible.
"I did Kellin, now maybe you'll realize that I'm not what you that I was. Find a girl that loves you for you and only you. I wasn't the right one. But you'll find her." I speak slowly and he looks up at me.
"How could you...?"
"You asked me to choose. And I did. But it wasn't what you wanted."
He shakes his head with a few tears falling down. "You don't mean that. You couldn't have chose him. Please Rose, give me a chance." He says and steps forward, kissing me.
I push him away gently and kiss his cheek. "I'm sorry Kells. But it's how it is."
"This... This is the end of us." He says.
I nod. "It was great Kellin. But you're still my best friend. Don't let this change out friendship..." I say, hugging him.
He hugs back weakly and sighs shakily. "I... I need some time to think. I'll see you later Rose." He says softly and walks away and the next thing I know, I hear my door closing.
I groan and lean against the wall, sliding down it and pulling my knees to my chest. Why can't everyone just be happy?