I watched the peaceful look on her face as she slept in my arms. God dammit Rose was beautiful.
I've never felt like this before. Not even with Kate. And then I realize. I love my best friend, Alexandria Jaiden Rose.
I caught myself staring at her multiple times and I sighed.
Too bad she'd never be mine.
I was unbelievably mad at Justin. I could not tell you how badly I wanted to punch him in the face and yell at him for causing so much pain to the only joy in my life other than my fans and my daughter. But right now, Rose needed me. And I'd put her before anything.
I picked up her phone and looked at the time. 10:07. I had also seen what she had been listening to. Why does she do that. She makes herself hurt more than she already is.
I sigh and put her phone down, and I debate whether to do what I was thinking or not. What could go wrong?
I leaned down and kissed her softly. She stayed asleep and I sigh. She will never know just how much I love her.
I must have fallen asleep on Eternal's bus because I woke up still on their couch. I sigh and stand up, looking at the time. 9:38am. Nobody's awake yet.
I walk back over to my bus and none of these fucks are up yet either.
My heart still felt like it was ripped out of my chest, beaten with a stick and run over by a truck, but it's all good.
I plug my phone in and sigh. We have one more concert here then we get back on the road. That's wonderful.
The stadium we were performing in was within walking distance. I could already hear the fans waiting and I smile to myself a bit.
I hope today isn't a huge fuck up.
I wake up wrapped tightly in Kellin's warm embrace. I smiled slightly at the most peaceful look he had on his face. He was adorable. I remembered yesterday's events and my face fell. I didn't want to go back and face everyone. But I guess I had to right? I sighed and kissed Kellin's cheek.
His eyes fluttered open and he smiles at me. "How are you feeling today love?" He asks me.
"Alive." I say softly and smile back.
"Well, it's a start."
I stood up and grabbed my phone, seeing endless messages from Justin I deleted them all and shoved it in my back pocket.
Kellin's stood up and rubbed the back of his neck. "We have a show in three hours, we better get back." He mutters and I nod.
"It won't be as bad as you think it will, I promise." He tells me and I muster a tiny smile.
"I really hope you're right Kellin." I tell him.
"I'm always right Rose."
"Oh shove a sock in it Quinn." I say and giggle
He rolls his eyes and we grab everything we had with us, which wasn't much but we still didn't want to forget anything.
As we walk down the hallway and reach the elevator, I found myself humming Panic! At The Disco and I shake my head, why is that even coming to mind? I haven't listened to them in a long time.
"Are you humming Panic! At The Disco?" Kellin asks and I nod shyly.
He chuckles "I didn't even think you listened to them anymore to be honest," He tells me.
"I dont, it just randomly popped in my head." I tell him honestly and laugh.
We checked out and got a taxi back to where our busses were and I fought with him, but Kellin ended up paying the driver.
We walked onto our own busses and I showered and got dressed into an All Time Low T-shirt and a pair of grey skinny jeans. I curl my hair and pull it into a ponytail, leaving the bangs out and then I move onto my makeup. I put on a grey eye-shadow and then black eye-shadow to go with it. I apply my eyeliner, perfectly winging it and last but not least, my mascara and Bright red lipstick.
I wlak out and see I've somehow managed to do everything in just enough time. My band was standing in the living room waiting for me. Tay gave me a look and I smiled.
"Let's rock this motherfucker." I say and walk off the bus.
We walk into the venue and guitar techs and managers and all those people were running around handing us our guitars.
"You're on in 5." Some guy tells us and we nod.
I gave them all pep talks and we went over what we were going to play.
"Can we also play Northern Downpour By Panic! ?" I ask them and they nod.
When our time comes we all run on stage and greet the fans.
We play our set and I tried holding back my tears the whole time, but once we started singimg our song Let Me Go (if you know what's best) then all my tears came out at once.
We sang our last song, which was All I Want by A Day To Remember. We thanked everyone and ran off stage. I was still crying and as I ran off Kellin pulled me into a huge hug.
"You did amazing baby." He says softly and I smile through my tears.
"Thank you Kellin, now go and kill it." I tell him and kiss his cheek.
He nods and I turn around, seeing a sigh that honestly made me sick to my stomach.
Justin, kissing Mikayla.
He'd already hurt me enough, does he want to kill me?