7. see you soon
Chp 7: see you soon
"Sis? Sis? You seriously think u can call me by my nickname after all these fucking years? Where the hell have u been? I have miss u so fucking much but when I left u said u never wanted to talk to me again! U waved goodbye but never told me goodbye! And then I hear that u fucking started playing the drums again. What the fuck irwin! We promised each other that we were never going to play our instruments without each other. I threw away my guitar when I moved because I wanted to keep that promise. I'm so fucking sorry that u became depressed and 'sad' but if u would have called we could have been 'sad' together. I was bullied for years for my accent. For years ashton!!!! I knew what u were going threw and when I tried to call your mom she made up excuses for u that u were in the shower or asleep or something! I finally just gave up and stopped calling u except for on your birthday !!! And that's another fucking thing where were u on my birthday? Huh? I always called for ur birthday but ash I haven't talked to YOU for at least 8 years. What the hell!!! And now u call acting like everything is fine when it's not. Ashton I thought we were gonna be best friends forever and not get married. Remember that promise because I do. I think about it every single fucking day. You just make me want to hate u but deep down I know I never can."
The line grew silent and I knew he was trying to think of something to say.
He started speaking in a surprisingly calm voice.
"Sorry Sarah for everything. I'm sorry I wasn't there for u and I'm sorry I didn't ever talk to u and I'm sorry I called u sis after all these years. I'm sorry I started playing the drums again and I'm sorry that I didn't tell u happy birthday. I'm not sorry that I made it big and I'm not sorry that I think of u every time I'm playing on stage. I'm not sorry that you can't ever hate me And lastly I'm not sorry that I didn't say goodbye because it wasn't goodbye. Sarah I really miss u but me and the boys are going to be in America for awhile while we are on break, I already talked to your mother and I will be staying with you in LA while I'm on break. I will be staying in the guest room that I guess has a connecting door to your room. I really hope that we can get back to how we use to be. I miss you so much and I guess I will see u soon. We'll actually in a week. Love you 'sis' "
Suddenly I wasn't mad at him anymore but kinda excited to see him after so long.
"Love you too 'ashy' see you soon." Fuck I can't believe I called him his nickname from so long ago, but somehow it felt right to call him that again.