8. fangirl high
Chp 8: fangirl high
When Alyssa and I went back to school on Monday I couldn't help but notice that everyone was fangirling over 5sos ( it seemed like that anyways). I still hadn't told Alyssa about me being friends with ashton and I think she knew I was keeping something from her.
"Are you okay Sarah? U haven't really been talking much since you busted your phone at my house. I thought you got a new one? Anyways you have been acting kinda weird. Did I do someth-" I cut her off knowing I was gonna have to tell her at some point. Guess that was now
"It's -it's not you it's me." Wow I sounded like it was breaking up with her. She looked at me confused before I spoke again.
"I-I -I well um ..." I was having trouble telling her because I didn't want her to start freaking out. I didn't want to become even more noticed at school.
"I will tell you later " I said quickly then running off. I had never kept anything from Alyssa before and this wasn't even that big of a deal. It's just that it's weird that Alyssa knows ashton better then I do right now and she has never even met him. I want to tell her but I know she will just start freaking out and fangirling like everyone else. Shit I thought they had some good music but girls at my school were crazy !!! Why had I just found that out today?
I walked into the bathroom and saw two girls looking at their phones. One of them had a fucking 5 seconds of summer shirt on and I was so fucking annoyed.
"Are u fucking kidding me right now. Is this some kind of joke?" I looked at the two girls with wide eyes. Ever since that phone call all I could think about was ashton and his band. What was wrong with me? I then noticed the girls had left ,but when ? I came out of the bathroom and everyone stared at me and whispering about me. One of those girls must have told someone about what I had said. Being friends with the most popular girl in school had it's perks but the bad thing is that every single fucking time you do something wrong you are noticed. I had a short temper I admit that, but I really hate people staring at me so as i walked down the hall to my locker I just kept staring back at the people who were staring at me. Their eyes quickly changed directions and were no longer looking at me.
When I was in my 5th period class (math) I took my usual seat in the back corner. A girl came up and say next to me like she always does. I knew her name but I had never talked to her. I knew she was friends with my other best friend Evan and that's about it. I looked over at her as she sat down and was about to say hi when she put her binder on the desk. OF COURSE!!!!! She was part of the 'fam'. It said so in big bold letters!
I BELONG TO THE FIVE SAUCE FAM!!!
Forget about it. I never said hi before so why say it now. I suddenly found myself drawing Ashton's name in my notebook.
"What the hell am I doing?" I guess I said it out loud because the whole class was staring at me. Luckily the teacher wasn't in there yet so I didn't get in trouble. However before the teacher did get there I slipped out of the class and out of the school and walked home. Sunday (the day ashton was coming) couldn't get here soon enough. I was excited to see him but I was also nervous of what he would think of black skinny Jeaned high topped converse band t Sarah. The only Sarah he knew was a little girl who wore pink and purple everyday and always had her hair straight with a bow in it. What was he gonna think? Would he like me for who I am now or will he want me back to the way I was? What was I going to do.