i checked the box. blue meant positive.
i put my hand over my mouth. my eyes watered up and a lump formed in my throat. i can't be pregnant. i have a life to live! i need at least six more years before i can have a baby. i want to be free for once. all my life i've waited for being out of high school and traveling the world and living like every day was my last. and then i would settle down years later.
"Aug? Earth to August? what does blue mean?" Jenna waved her hand in front of my eyes.
i looked at her with great sadness in my eyes, it took all of me to not break down and start crying. when she looked at my expression, she pulled me into a tight hug. i think she knew the answer just by seeing me. i couldn't take it anymore. the pressure was getting to me too much. i started to sob loudly into her chest. she stroked the top of my head. my hair was down and sticking to my face because of my tears.
"shhh. shhh. Auggy. Shhh its okay. everything will be okay" she said to me softly as she rubbed my back. her comfort made me cry even more.
my life was officially over.