I'm feeling sad again and I don't remember when this all started. I was always so happy and now I can't remember the last time fell asleep without crying. Look at me, I am such a mess. Maybe it's because it's late and I am overthinking things, but I feel alone in a house full of people.I look around me and all I see is pain and everyone is so distant. Even when I am laughing I feel the sadness toking hold of my feelings and I can see my eyes don't shine the same way they used to before. And this pain I am feeling is so excruciating and it's so overwhelming and it feels just so wrong. I'm not the type of person who can easily talk about her feelings, but I guess I lied way too many time and I don't know how to pretend to be okay anymore.