It Only Took 5 Seconds

What will happen to Maddy when her life is turned upside down. When she is forced to move halfway across the world. she thinks her life couldn't get any worse when suddenly it changes when she meets an interesting set of boys. Could this change her life? Read It Only Took 5 Seconds to find out. Warning- self harm -COMPLETE-

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8. Bracelets.

Chapter 8.

*warning sensitive content*

I laid on my bed crying. I looked down at myself. I hated being insecure. I hated being border line depressed all my life. I hated wanting to die. I hated me.

I looked down at my left sleeve, looking away quickly because i knew what it hid. Scars. Multiple scars. There was one im particular that I hated. The last one I ever left on my body. It was the biggest and deepest of them all. Being the most prominent scar that you could see. I looked at my stack of bracelets that were on my desk. I never left home without them. I have been clean from cutting for well today it will be my 559th day. Away from my past.

I never told anyone about my cuts. How everyday I held that blade in my hand fighting the urge. I through the blades away after a year of being clean. Ha, like that stopped the urges. I never wanted this.

I sat up. Knowing that I had to. It will make this terrible thin go away.

I went into my pencil case and found a pencil sharpener. I unscrewed the screw with my finger nail and soon enough the blade popped off. I was crying so hard, I felt like. I was going to drown in my own tears.

I went into the bathroom and locked the door behind me, sliding down it as I did. I lifted the sleeve of my sweater. I ran my ice cold fingers over the scars. Making sure I wanted to do this.

Before I knew it I felt the cold blade drag harshly across my skin, and blood fall to the floor. I did it again and again.

I looked down. Ashamed of what I had done.

Why.

I sobbed even harder. Taking the blade to my skin one more time pressing a little harder. Crying out in pain.

I felt myself get dizzy. I pushed my self up turning on the tap and taking a drink of the cold water. It felt nice. The cold water helped me to stop the tears. I ran my bloodied arm under the tap to try and wash away what i had just done. It didn't work.

I went to the towel and dried my arm before wrapping it in gauze. My arm burned and ached. I took a tylenol and felt it glide down my through with ease. I pulled down my sweater sleeve and ran into my room to put on the bracelets. I looked at the tylenol bottle.

I could end it. I could end it right now. Not feel anymore pain. I wouldn't suffer. I would die. Like i was supposed to in that accident with my parents. We could be together again.

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