I left the hotel room, and turned off our song. I looked like Nina Reeds again. Brunette, pale skin, lost. I payed for the room and called a taxi.
"Where too?" the driver asked.
"Bristol." I told him. I handed him the money, it was the last of it. I couldn't turn back now. It was time to say goodbye to Nutty Nina, the crazy impulsive girl. It was time to say goodbye to kitten, guess what? She did suffer the same fate as the cat. It was time to say goodbye to shadow, no more hiding, no more sneaking, open minded, open life. I sat back in the taxi and gazed out the window, thinking, reminiscing and dreaming. The journey went to fast, and we arrived outside my house sooner than I was ready for. i leave the cab was to change who I was. It was to be an open-minded optimist who had learned from her experiences and wouldn't make the same mistakes again. Somehow I stepped out the taxi, and rang the doorbell. When aunt Hope answered the door she didn't seem to believe it was really me.
"Nina?" she asked.
"It's me." I admitted, beginning to cry.
"Oh Nina! Where have you been? It's been over a month! Come on in, come on in." She floundered, beginning to cry herself. We sat down with some coffee and I explained to her what had happened.
"I met someone that night at the concert. He called me his shadow. I felt special with him, like he could bring me the hope that was missing in my life. I followed him, we were on our way to London. I think I fell in love with him. Then we changed direction, heading for Manchester. I fell out with him. He wouldn't be open and honest with me. So I came home, to you." I kept my explanation brief, keeping out all the Simon mystery and Greg murder.
"Oh my darling." She exclaimed, hugging me tight. "It's okay dear, nobody is ever going to hurt you like that ever again." This was meant to reassure me, but instead, it made me feel dismal and dark.
I looked myself in the mirror. I was back in school uniform, ready to go back to school. I was ready to face Jade, ready to battle Miss Roberts, ready to say 'I'm okay' and actually mean 'hug me'. And if I kept telling myself that I was ready then maybe I actually would be. I went downstairs and started to scoff a banana, I didn't want to miss the bus, I wanted today to go well. I picked up my lunch and walked down to the bus stop. I only had to wait an extra 10 minutes for the bus to arrive, that had to be a good sign. When I got into school I was still a little late though.
"As if a month and a half wasn't enough absence Ms Reeds, now your ten minutes late." Miss Roberts groaned, everyone knew I was back in town, yet my class mates faces were still shocked and surprised. Jade was giving me nasty looks, but I ignored her, today was going to be a good day.
After class Jade came up behind me.
"Hey Nina, are you okay?" She asked, her sympathy was obviously fake to me, but everyone else seemed oblivious to her spite, and thought she was being genuinely sweet.
"I'm just peachy." I replied, giving her the most sarcastic grin I could.
"You don't have to pretend" she said, placing her hand on my shoulder, "I know that boy broke your heart. I can see it in your eyes." That boy? How did Jade know about Daz? She must of overheard when she was at the news studio. Immediately whispers spread round the hallway, people wanting all the juicy gossip on 'that boy'. Jade gave me a bittersweet grin and paced away, leaving me for the gossip hungry girls to devour.
"Did you run away with a boy?"
"Did you kiss him? How far did you go?"
"How did he break your heart?"
"Was he your first love?"
"Are you two still dating?"
I didn't reply to any of the questions individually, I just said 'no' to all of them. Then I walked away, tears building up in my eyes. Of course people would be curious, no-one wouldn't ask a question. I just didn't think any of them would involve Daz. He was the memory I wan't to suppress forever.
I went on with my day, sitting through lessons, avoiding questions and trying to be my usual self. At the end of the day Jade bumped into me again.
"Nina, I'm so glad I found you. I hope I didn't cause any trouble today, isn't it horrible when things get spilled onto you like that." She smiled, making an obvious reference to the coke incident.
"Don't worry Jade, I managed to handle the questions." I replied.
"Really? I'm so relieved. Is it true you didn't tell the police his name? That's some loyalty to the boy who you hate." I swallowed, I hadn't told the police Daz's name, or that he killed Greg. I told them I never knew him very well, and he barely told me anything about him, and that I just wanted to forget him. I told them the truth.
"He never told me his name." I lied.
"That's odd, you don't seem like the sort to run away with a boy who wouldn't even tell you his name." She pondered.
"He wasn't any ordinary boy." I admitted, then turned and left. I would forget Daz, even if it tore my heart in two, I would forget him.