Beautiful Things, They Never Last
"Like autumn turns leaves,
winter will breathe,
cold on our necks,
snow in our paths,
Wherever she goes,
All that I know about us,
is that beautiful things,
they never last,
That's why fireflies flash!" I sang, tears streaming down my face. This song makes me really emotional because it's true.
Beautiful things never last.
As odd as it is, I have a huge crush on Michael. He's just so amazing. He's perfect for me. He just doesn't know it yet.
His happiness is a beautiful thing to me...
Ever since he couldn't save Diana, his smile has faded.
Beautiful things never last...
I need something beautiful that will last...
I will find one thing... One thing... That's it...
I need something to make me feel alive again, no matter what it takes...
Life may get better or it may get worse.
All I know is that Diana will never leave my head. I saw the girl die. I saw her the second before she started trying to die.
That has haunted me.
Though, maybe life will get better...
I can only pray that it will...
Melanie may be gone. Amy may be gone. Diana may be gone.
I will never stop searching for Melanie.
Though, that won't help me. She will hate me if I find her either way. That isn't going to make me a happier person.
I need to focus on me and drowning out the pain.
I have endless support, now I just need to support myself...
That's the key to happiness... Other's support added with your own...
I am absolutely determined to be happy again.
I. Will. Get. Through. This.
I sighed as I peeked at the crowd again.
How was I supposed to do this? I'm still in utter pain from everything that happened last month.
We're all pretty lonely now. We all keep to ourselves a lot. I don't know if that's healthy, it probably isn't, but we just want to be alone and imagine our girls are here with us.
I remembered the last words of Amy. She told me to be strong and to keep my career up.
Are you happy now, Amy?
I often call out to her mentally. I hope she can hear me when I do it, because I do it way too much. I just want to have a feeling that my Amy is here with me. Talking to her mentally helps me feel like she's here experiencing everything with me.
You know what?
I'm going to be stronger.
There is no bright side to three of my closest friends dying, I know that. But why not make my own? Why not make my own happiness and joy. I can't be depressed forever.
After all, those things happened naturally.
Natural disasters is what I like to call them.
We can't stop natural disasters from happening.
They're depressing when they do.
Though they mentally kill us, maybe there is a good in it...
Natural disasters cannot be cured easily, but what about improved?
Natural disasters must happen to make us stronger people...
Thank you so much for reading! I beg of you to please continue reading the sequel on my account, My Venomous Cure 😊 This may end sad but you'll see the good in it if you read the sequel.
You see, I already wrote the sequel. You don't have to wait for chapters or anything. I was so excited about it and got a bit carried away lol. So please read it! It's been my best book so far I think ❤️
The main thing that I wanted you all to get out of this book is that suicide is not the answer. It hurts everybody around you and it's absolutely depressing. I want you all to be strong 💪 I'm here for you. I know you can get through anything.
I love you if you've even read this all the way through. So thank you 😊 It really means so much to me.
-M :) <3 xxxxxxxxxxx