I swear I cried an eighth sea. My heart was broken, now it's missing althogether, I need family so I went home. I walked into my house, I didn't tell anyone as it's a surprise. I let myself in and set off to find Lauren when I heard some sobs from her room I literally dropped everything I heard a smash but I didn't care. I ran to her room I opened the door and there sat mum and Lauren, I noticed a photo missing it was a picture of her and her boyfriend at the Christmas barbecue... If her hurt her he's dead. If you can't tell I'm very overprotective of Lauren and Harry. I must have moved and made a noise because they looked up at me a started hugging me and smiling, god I love them. Then suddenly I felt like crying Lauren's smile reminds me of Alaska I miss her so much, I promised myself then and there that I will get her back no matter what I have to do.
I was working so hard to edit the video of the interview and have the article ready for my boss in 2 hours. But it was hard to concentrate when all that's in your head is Ashton, his eyes, his smile. I will never forget the first time I met him I looked at him and then he came up and talked to me and I thought he was some kind of tough guy with all that muscle he has, then I said something funny and that all went out the window. His laugh is amazing!
I have been talking to Cal, Mikey and Luke lately but I haven't had the guts to call Ashton. Somehow I know I have to but I just couldn't. The other boys have been really nice to me and for some weird reason I can tell I will be friends with them for a long time but as for Ashton I have no idea, I'm just going to see where life takes me.