I'm going to be fucking honest right now. I may be wrong in what I say, but this is how I feel.
This is MY opinion and MY point of view.
I have 5 best friends. They mean literately the world to me! I would take a bullet for any of them, or all of them. I love them a lot, and I care for them soooo much.
But sometimes I feel that, I don't matter as much to them as they do to me. And at this point im talking about 4 of them. Sometimes I feel that, I only matter FOR REAL to them, when im in pain, or suffering, sometimes I feel like im just a fucking piece of shit to them when im not hurt.
Like, in my eyes I feel that others are important to them, and I understand that, but I feel bad because I feel like, I'm not as important, or cared about, or...I don't know. I feel that they don't like me.
I mean, when im talking to them, im being myself, its realy rare for me to be myself. I always change my personality when I talk to some people so I can be accepted, because NO ONE ever accepts me for who I am.
I...guess that's also part my fault... :c
But with those 4 friends, I love them sooo much and they mean EVERYTHING to me, but...I feel like im just another normal person to them....
It's just what I think...but I don't really know, but just thinking this, makes me feel like im no one.....
And...I know they wont see this...which brings a little more pain to me.