8. Confession #8
I hate my mom
like I wouldn't say hate, but sometimes I hate her so much. When I'm hurt I trycto build myself back up but she always comes to knock me down again. My mom jugdes me for being a Geek, an Emo, a Gamer. For being me. She always insults me saying I'm stupid and useless. She always says how shexwants the perfect daughter, that God cursed her by giving me to her. I was a mistake I was actually not supose to be alive.
My mom gets so mad with me, she's the person who is SUPPOSE TO SUPPORT ME. Yet all she does is ignore and hate eand insult me. All i want is a nice mom and daughter relationship. Yesterday we went to a Marvel place and I started getting my geek side on and my mon started ssying "please Kate stip acting like a boy, let's go somewhere else more girly, you don't have to be like this because of what kids say and do or what your father is" when she said that I got so mad. She CAN'T CONTROL MY LIFE if I want to be a geek let me be a geek. What does my mom expect me to be? A princess? Well no, I don't like skirts, i don't like the color pink or purple. I'm not a girly girl. I want to be WHO I WANT TO BE i don't understand why she can't accept that.
Sometimes I want to run away from her, from my house, from everything. I see the door but I don't do it. Yet i have this rage to do it...