3. Confession #3
I use to be... Anorexic
I never wanted to eat, I felt as if I were fat, I felt so weird. I would always make up lies so my parents wouldn't find out that I was anorexic. I never ate and if I did I ate small portions of things, I never ate chocolate for a while, when I was anorexic I seriously wanted to die. I thought that maybe, getting skinny would make me sick and I would eventually die, but it never worked, so I just kept being anorexic, I was anorexic in all 6 grade, summer break and beginnings of 7th grade.... I stopped being anorexic in September... I one day thought that being anorexic was stupid so I wanted to stop so I ate a heavy dinner one night, a few hours later my stomach started hurting and I threw up what I ate for dinner, my body wasn't ready for me to start eating good again so I stayed anorexic.
Being anorexic is different then bulimic. Anorexic is when you don't want to eat for reasons and bulimic is when you eat then throw up what you eat to not get fat, most models are bulimic. I am not anorexic anymore, but sometimes I wish to go back to that state but I know I can't... I still have something you can call an 'eating disorder' but that's just another confession...