19. Confession #16
Sometimes I feel alone.
I know people are always here for me, will always be there and all that, but sometimes, they're not. Or even if they are, I still feel alone, I feel alone, abandoned, sad, angry. I get so much emotions when I'm alone. If I'm sad. I usually hide it. I don't need people worrying for me, I'm not worth it, and besides they could be suffering more, and I'm just another problem in their life. I don't want to be a problem, that's why I never say who I REALLY feel. When I say 'I'm Fine' or 'I'm good' most of the time it's a lie. I don't want it to be...but I say it, so I don't cause problems, I don't want to be a problem and I don't want people worrying. I'm not worth their worrying. And I'm not worth, being someone else's problems.
If you have read through ALL this book you can see I have my own problems. I don't need people worrying or me being a problem to them because of the stupid things I have done or do. I really don't. I try lying, sometimes people do know when I'm hurt. Or if I tell you why I'm hurt, it's because I'm crying and I need someone. Even though I'm always still alone...