Yes Or No?
Alice p o v
So I called for a doctors appointment after I got home from my run and they told me to come in at 12. I made sure my brother and sister got sent off to school perfectly fine. You're probably wondering why I'm 17 and not in school. Well, I got so bullied for being Ashton's sister that my stepdad figured it was best if I started classes on the computer.
Instead of my usual sweatpants and all I'm in skinny jeans and a Rolling Stones shirt. Pretty much all my shirts are band shirts. I don't apply makeup because if I do end up pregnant it will smear because I will be crying. Slipping my shoes on I grab my phone and put it in my back pocket. Getting in the car I drive to the doctor.
I hate driving actually. I know everyone looks forward to it but I just am not a fan. It is to much pressure for me. I play some 5sos and park the car twenty minutes later when I arrive. Turning my phone down I walk inside and take the elevator to level 3. It is the top floor.
"Alice Irwin?" The doctor calls me back. I hear whispers after my name. I hope no one here knows me. Before when I had the pregnancy scare I was so excited to be pregnant because I thought Luke would be with me through everything but then I got some sense and I know that he will be gone for half the year, giving me no time with him. Ash will be mad and my parents probably will be too.
"How are you?" He ask. "I'm good, sick but it's all good" I smile. "That's great. Can I ask you to sit back and roll your shirt up?" I do as told and he warns me the gel might be cold. I already knew that from last time though.
"And there is your baby" he points to the blob on the screen. "Congratulations!" I just sit back in shock. I'm going to be a 17 year old mother. This can't be. Everyone will get so mad and hate me. My parents, my boyfriend, and the one that bothers me the most... My brother, Ash.
"Here are your pictures and some pamphlets just letting you know some things you should and shouldn't do while pregnant. You are three weeks and four days. Should I schedule you for an appointment next month?" He blabs. "Umm... Yeah I guess so. Any day works" I respond.
He asks about the 17th of May. I say that will be fine and leave. When I get out to the car I start screaming and punching the seat beside me. Placing my head on the wheel I start sobbing uncontrollably. I saw the blob, I'm really going to have a baby. I want to tell Luke in person, I just don't know how I will do that.
Before I can pull out I get a phone call from him. What are the odds. "Hey babe you're on speaker. Ashton wants to talk to you too. Says he is missing you a lot." "Oh alright" I try to control my crying. "A-Are you alright? Have you been crying?" Luke asks. "Oh... Ummm.... yeah I was just crying from a movie. The one person just died and it was sad" I explain.
"Aww you are so sweet." Luke gushes. "Anyway while you have girly conversations, how is everyone Al?" Ash cuts in. "Oh everyone is good." I keep my answers short. "Well we have a surprise... The tour has been extended so it will be over in 7 months instead. There is a small break in between but it now goes until November." Ash cheers.
"W-wow that's great" I break down. "Ali it will be fine. I will be home in July for my birthday and we are doing some Australian shows in October." Luke tries to comfort me. Well unless he could be with me when I have our baby I can't see this being good.
Maybe I could just get an abortion... Did I really just consider that, even for a second. It's my baby, it is growing inside of me and I'm in charge of this baby's life for the next eight months. I can't just abort it, I'm just scared at the moment.
"Can I come see you guys play a show?" I burst out without thinking. Oh my gosh, what did I just do? "I would love that. We are going to the Beacon in New York this week. Why don't you come?" Ash says. "Ash I want her here just as much as you but is it really the right time. Why should we bring her to the tour after only a week. If we fly her out why wouldn't it be later when we miss her even more and get more desperate to see her" Luke argues.
If only Luke knew what I had in store for him when I visit. "We can fly her out more then once! Alright you can come to the Beacon!" Ash comes to his own conclusion. Luke really is the sensible one of the band. I hear what sounds like a door and they have to go. I say my farewells and hang up.
Driving home I go back to school and thankfully I'm done school in a month and a half. I can't wait to graduate. Oh no, my brother will miss it. He means the world to me and I wanted him here when I get out of school. Oh well... They are living their dreams.
As they school day comes to an end I hear the door open which means my brother and sister are home. "How was school?" I question. "Boring. Can I soon graduate?" Harry complains. "No but I can" I rub in his face. It gets me the hate eyes. Lauren never has good days because she hates school so I don't bother to ask.
When mum gets home I help her make dinner but I get sick. "Honey are you okay?" She asks as I bring my head out of the toilet. "Fine" I say but soon start crying. "Come let's talk" she guides me back to my room. "What's wrong?"
I have to tell her. I'm only 17 and I have no idea what I'm doing with a baby. Babysitting is nothing, you give the kids back, but this is my child, I can't give this one back. "M-mum... I-I have to t-tell you som-thing. It's got me so stressed all day" I cry. She wipes my tears away.
"You know you can tell me anything" she assures me. "I-I'm three weeks pregnant" I bawl. "What?" "I'm pregnant and scared and I don't know what I'm doing. I need your help" I am a mess. "Well thank you for telling me. So Luke is the father?" She double checks. I shake my head.
"Oh wow. So aside from being a teen mum your boyfriend will never really be home" she sighs. Gee thanks for the reminder. "Well we can get through it alright. I love you. I'm not happy about it at the moment but we can get through it. Did you tell Luke yet?
"No. They said they missed me and would fly me out to New York so I can see them perform. I'm thinking of telling him then. Can we see if you could come too?" I ask. "I would love to but work is so busy and I missed so much time when Ash was here so I can't take anymore days for a while. I will take you to the airport though" she kisses my head.
I guess I'm flying solo... Literally. I'm just happy that she took the news well. Now I need to tell my stepdad, brother, and Luke. I don't think any of them will be excited about this big change. Hopefully I'm wrong...
There is a baby! Thanks for reading it means world!💗