When I wake up I'm in the hospital. Everyone is around me. "Hey guys." I said and stood up. No one answered. "Guys? I'm right here?" I said. I tried to poke Melissa but my finger went through her shoulder. "What the hell?" I whispered. Then I started to look around. Wait.. Why am I still in bed? I'm right here. I'm standing. The door opened and a nurse came in. "It's time." She said. Everyone let out a loud sob. What's going on? Melissa gets up and walks over to my body. She whispers in my ear," Mira I love you so much. You're my best friend forever. Please if you can hear me don't give up. Please come back. Wake up!! WAKE UP!!!" She said while shaking me. The nurse pulled her away. Mikey came up to me and said,"Now is the time to make your decision Mira. If you don't wake up now.. You'll be gone forever." What is everyone talking about? I'm right here. Why cant they see me? I float over to my body and get back in. I just lay there and concentrate on coming back to life even though I'm not dead.
The nurse walked in and said it was time. I get up and walk over to Mira. "Mira I love you so much. You're my best friend forever. Please if you can hear me don't give up. Please come back. Wake up!! WAKE UP!!! I said while shaking her. The nurse pulled me away and I sat down. Then Michael went up to her and said something. "I'll give her a couple of minutes. Then we have to pull the plug. I'm sorry." The nurse said and she walked out. I just sat there sobbing. "MIRA PLEASE WAKE UPPPP!!!" I yelled. At this point I'm shaking, crying hysterically. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I feel a pair of arms around me and I know it's Luke. "Shhhh it's gonna be okay. Shhh calm down baby calm down." He said softly. I eventually calmed down and the nurse walked in. "I'm sorry for your loss." She said and walked over and pulled the plug. Everyone went silent and just stared at Mira.
Miraaaa get up. I keep telling myself. Why can't I move or talk? What's wrong with me? Ughhh come on Mira!!! Finally I gained feeling back in my hand. I wiggled it lightly hopeful that would see it. "Guys." I heard Mikey say. "Yeah" calum said. "She just wiggled her hand!" He said excitedly. Fuck yeah!!! It worked!! Woo-hoo! "What?!? No that's not possible!! The nurse just pulled the plug!! She's dead!!" I heard Melissa say. Then I started to flutter my eyelids. Finally I can move them. "GUYS LOOK!!" Ashton yelled. "Oh my god. I can't believe this! Go get a nurse!!!" Michael said. A couple of seconds later the nurse came back in. "Mira if you can hear me flutter your eyelids again." She said. I did as I was told. "This is great." She said. The nurse started to hook up all the machines again and I felt slight pinches from all the needles.
I can't believe it. She's alive. Thank you God. I just can't stop staring at her. She's so beautiful. I have to get her to be mine. I'm just nervous because I recently found out that Ashton has a crush on her also. I see the way she looks at him. It makes me sad when I see them together. "Mikey." I heard a weak, soft voice say. I look over at Mira and her eyes are open and she can speak a little. "Mira." I whispered. "Hi." She said with a weak smile. "Hi baby." I said with a small smile. "Hey Mira." Ashton said. I tensed up a bit. "Hey ashy." She said. I saw her face light up when she saw Ashton. He just looked over at me and smirked. "Are you okay Mikey?" Mira asked. I looked over at her. I have to be strong. I can't let her see my sadness. "Yeah. I'm fine." I said with a fake smile.
I could tell something was wrong with Mikey. "Are you okay Mikey?" I asked. He took a moment to answer. "Yeah. I'm fine." He said with a smile. I know that's a fake smile but I decide to let it go for now. The nurse walked in and started to explain to me what happened. She said that I was too stressed out and depressed and it caused me to go into a full black out for a whole week. "How is that possible?" I asked. "We're not completely sure." She said. I just nodded a little and she walked out. I looked over at Melissa. She was standing with Luke and calum. While Mikey and Ashton were beside me. I took Ashton's hand in mine and looked in his eyes. "Is everything okay love?" He asked. "Everything's fine." I said. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Michael tense up a little. "Mikey can I talk to Ashton in private for a moment." I said. He nodded and got up and went with the others to get some food and drink. "What's wrong Mira?" Ashton asked. "I need your help with Mikey." I said. "What do you mean?" He asked. "I really like him and I want him to be mine but I don't know if he feels the same. Can you ask him for me?" I said. "Sure thing love." He said. We talked for a little and then everyone came back in. "Hey Mira how ya feeling?" Melissa asked. "I feel better. I'm still a little weak but I'm okay." I said. "That's good to hear." Calum said. "Mira Im so happy you're alive." Melissa said while hugging me. "I am too." I said and a few tears fell from my eyes. "Mrs. McNeal." The doctor said while she walked through the door. "Yes. Is something wrong?" I asked. "No, no nothing's wrong, but there's another visitor here to see you. He said he's your dad." She said. My smile faded and my heart broke into a million pieces. "Would you like him in here?" She asked. "No. I don't. That man is not my father." I said while tears formed in my eyes. She just nodded and walked out of the room. "Hey guys can I talk to Mira alone please." Mikey said. They nodded and walked out. "Hey Mikey what's up?" I asked while wiping some tears away. "Well um Ashton talked to me, and I just wanted you to know that I do like you. I like you a lot and I want you to be mine (pause) Forever." He said. I looked him in the eyes and grabbed his hand. "Mikey. Forever is a long time." I said. He laughed a little. "I know it is but I can't imagine my life without you." He said. "Mira, after you're all healed and better.. Will you go on a date with me?" He asked. "Of course Mikey." I said very excitedly. "Great." He said and leaned in for a kiss. I put my hand in front of his lips. "Not now Mikey." I said chuckling a little. "Okay okay." He said and kissed my forehead. "Go tell the others to come in." I said. He got up and everyone came in. "The nurse said you're doing good and you should be out of here by next Tuesday." Melissa said. "That's great!!!" I replied.
*one week later*
Today is my release day and I'm so excited!! The doctor said I'm fully healed and I can do anything. When I get home I'm taking a nice hot bath and relax. Tomorrow I have a date with Mikey. We're going mini-golfing and then getting ice cream after. "Mrs. McNeal you can go home now." The doctor said. "Thank you so much." I said. "No problem. Just be safe." She said. Melissa and I walked out of the hospital and went home. When we got home she just ordered some pizza while I went upstairs to take a bath. I pick out my pajamas and go to the bathroom.
I walk downstairs to see Melissa eating. "Hey Melissa." I said. "Hey girl. I hope you don't mind but the boys are on their way." She said. My face dropped. "What? You're kidding right? Michael can't see me like this!!! I look awful!!" I said. "No you don't you look gorgeous." I heard Mikey say while wrapping his arms around me. I looked over at Melissa and she smirked. "Oh yeah I forgot to tell you... They're already here." She said while smiling. I turned around and buried my face into Michaels' shirt so he couldn't see me. "Miraaa get your face out of my shirt!" Michael whined. "No I look awful." I said. "You never look awful. You're always gorgeous to me." He whispered in my ear. I finally gave in and looked up at him. "Wow." He whispered while looking at me. "What?" I asked. "You're so beautiful." He said. I felt my face heat up. "Awwhh you're blushing." He said. "No I'm not!!" I said while I felt my face heat up even more. "Awhhh you're so cute." He said. "Shut up Mikey. Melissa what are we gonna do?" I asked. I looked around and noticed everyone left. "Where did they go?" Mikey asked. "Probably the living room." I said. We walked around the corner and saw them laying on the couch watching mean girls. "Really Luke this movie AGAIN." Mikey said while throwing a pillow at him. "Leave me alone." Luke said in his baby voice which caused all of us to start laughing. "Awhh is someone being mean to my little lukey." Melissa said mocking luke. He just pouted and watched the movie.
*after the movie*
Everyone was asleep and I was just laying on Mikey. I can't fall asleep. I'm wayy to excited for tomorrow. I sigh and start to get up to go to the bathroom. I walk in and shut the door and lock it. I look at myself in mirror and sigh. "Why would he like me? I'm not even that pretty. The only thing I like is my eyes. The rest of me is horrible." I said to myself. I open up the medicine cabinet and see my old friend. Silver and shiny sitting perfectly on the little shelf waiting for me to pick it up. I grab it and hold it in my hand and stare at it. So many memories flow through my mind. There were nights when I would sit in here crying on the floor. Blood everywhere from my little friend. He made the pain go away. That blade was my happiness. No Mira no don't do this. My conscious told me. I didn't listen to it. Each cut got deeper and deeper. I finally stopped and let the blood pour. Then I heard a knock on the door. Shit. "One second!" I said. I quickly got a towel and wrapped my arm up and wiped up the blood. I flushed the toilet and ran the water. I found some bandages and gauze. I cleaned up my cuts and wrapped them up and rolled my sleeve down. I open the door. "Oh hey ash." I said. "Hey are you okay? I didn't see you sleeping and I got worried." He said. "Yeah I'm fine ash thanks." I said and tried to walk past him. "Mira why are you crying?" He asked. "I'm not. I'm just really tired and my eyes water when I'm tired." I lied. "Oh okay. Well goodnight." He said. "Goodnight." I replied. I went back to the living room and looked at Mikey. Should I go to my room or stay here? I debated for a little and decided to go upstairs. I put a blanket over Mikey and walked up stairs to my room.
*the next day*
I wake up and go downstairs. It's only 7:30am so everyone else is still asleep. I decided to make breakfast. I started on the pancakes first. I grabbed the mix and some chocolate chips. After that I got started on the eggs and bacon. "Damn it." I mumbled. The salt and pepper were too high up and I couldn't reach them. "Need a little help?" I heard Ashton say. "Yeah thanks." I said. He got them and handed it to me. "Mira. Why is your wrist wrapped up?" He asked. Oh shit! I forgot I rolled up my sleeve. "I just um I um it's just um I'm starting a new trend." I said with a fake smile. "Mira you don't have to lie to me." Ashton said. He looked me in the eyes and started to move closer. Soon enough our faces were inches away from each other. "Ashton what are you doing?" I asked. "This." He said then he crashed his lips into mine. I didn't kiss back I just stood there shocked. He pulled away and someone cleared their throat. I turn and see it's Mikey. "Mikey it's not what it looks like." I said. "Oh I think it is. You were kissing Ashton." He said. "No Ashton kissed me but I didn't kiss back." I tried to explain. Michael just turned around and walked out the door. "This is all your fault. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me and now he's gone!!" I yelled and ran upstairs crying.