12. What Would You Do
"HOW COULD YOU!" Calum shoves me back against the wall. "YOU KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN HE'S BEEN IN! YOU KNOW HOW HARD HE'S TRYING! HOW COULD YOU!" He shoves me again and I just let him. I knew it would happen eventually. I sigh letting him hit me. "Calum.. You know how I feel about her." He gets a good swing and a throbbing pain goes through my jaw. "Ow fuck!" I hold my jaw just to get punched again this time a bloody nose. "Fuck you Ashton. You're trying to hurt him. You can have anyone you want and you pick one of your best mates loves. How dare you." With that he turns around and walks off. I put my head down. I know its stupid.. I know. I don't want to hurt Michael but... I sigh walking into the bathroom. When I finally get yhe blood cleaned off my face I take my shirt off since its blood stained now. I examine my jaw seeing a bruise coming on. I sigh. I walk out of the bathroom heading to my bed. I see Ariel standing there. "I.. I'm sorry I got you in trouble." I sigh again sitting on the bed. "Don't worry about it. I knew it would probably happen.." I close my eyes and breathe in deeply. When I open my eyes shes standing right in front of me. "We shouldn't.." She ignores me and gets closer kissing my I pull her on my lap. "I want you." She whispers in my ear before kissing me again. I groan and flip her over so I'm on top.
I hear a knock at my door. "Oh hey Ariel." She pushes her way past me. "I have to tell you something." I stare at her thoughtfully. "Okay." I sit down on the bed. "here sit down." She shakes her head amd paces. "I know Ashton is in trouble now because of this.." I look at her weird. "And I know you have strong feelings for me and we were like a thing I guess when I had my memory.. But.. Well.. I'm just going to say it.. I've been with Ashton for a while now.." My face drops. "You... You what?" She closes her eyes. "I'm sorry.. I just.. I don't know how to return the affection if I don't know anything about you or remember you.. I've got to know Ashton.. I know you have strong affection for me but I.. I just can't... I can't return it." I put my head down. "Get out." She stands there. "I said get OUT!" I point at the door and she takes off running towards the door. How could he? How could he do this to me and he's getting in trouble now? What the fuck does that mean?!? I stand up and punch straight through the wall. My hand throbbing. "Why can I never be in love."
Ashton takes over and start to kiss down my neck he gets to my sweet spot and sucks. I moan a little and tug at his hair. He rips my shirt off going down farther. He gets my pants off. I rub around his shaft teasing him. "Don't tease." He growls against my neck ripping his boxers off. He's more aggressive than I thought he would be. I scratch down his back as he goes harder. He pulls out and lays down pulling me on top of him. As I start to ride him everything comes back. I hesitate for a little. He doesn't really notice though he puts his hands around my waist to make me go faster. I close my eyes. How am I supposed to tell Michael I remember everything when I'm with his friend.. And how am I supposed to tell his friend that I remember everything when I'm with him now... But.. I.. I still love Michael.. I still love Ross.. Ross cheated.. Michael has been here to whole time.. How do I tell them.. I don't know what to do. The next thing I know I'm on the bed panting by Ashton. He kisses me. "You're so fucking sexy." He kisses me again. "I'm tired.." I whisper. He nods and I turn around. He puts his arm around me and pulls me close. I can't help but let some tears fall. How can I hurt them both.. If I tell Michael he'll naver want me again.. If I tell Ashton he'll be so upset no telling what will happen. If I don't tell Michael he'll be so upset.. Ashton will be happy though.. What do I do?