21. Running Through My Head
"You dirty fucking whore." It runs through my head over and over. Just hearing it. I know it can't be fixed now for sure. I lie on the bed waiting. I hear fighting outside but I try to tune it out. I stopped crying about two hours ago. It was like I had cried every tear and nothing was last. Like I'm just an empty shell. The door opens but I don't roll over. I clutch the pillow burying my face in it. I don't wanna know. I don't wanna hear how they hate me. How they want me to leave and not come back. "Hello? Are you Ariel?" I open my eyes staring at the window. I know this voice. I just can't put my finger on it. "Hello?" I don't answer still. "I'm guessing you are. "Hello. I'm Niall. The boys said there was an upset girl that they wanted me to meet. Thought we could go eat or something y'know." I feel tears running again. I didn't know I could cry anymore. "Ariel you have to atleast say something.. I know we haven't met bu-" I cut him off turning over. "But you're my new baby sitter. Someone they can push me off on. Someone who can watch me so I won't annoy them anymore. I get it Niall. I get it.. By the way hi. You're so adorable I like your guys music. Pretty good. Thank you for coming but you can leave now. We don't need you. I'll be leaving soon. Thank you." Ha stares at me blankly not knowing what to say.
"I. Don't. Care. What do you not get out of that? Let her go. I don't want her anyway. I could care less if we ever get back together. I thought I wanted her but god I don't. I don't even like her anymore. I realised that when I saw her coming out of Calums room naked." Luke stares at me blankly. "Calum?.." Calum glares at Luke "Don't you ever fucking think I would cheat on Kayla. I fucking brought her home after you were fucking making out or grinding on her or whatever you were doing to her! And I helped her! About three in the morning she started to strip. I was in the floor. She started calling YOUR name." Calum points at me. "YOURS NOT MINE! So I wrapped her in fucking blankets because she wouldn't fucking stay dressed and then I went to sleep. THATS IT! Then you have to call her names and shit making her feel even more worthless. Don't you get all she wants it you? Its all for you. To make you jealous. To make you want her again like you used to. She Love Michael. She loves you!" I start to laugh and Calum just stares at me. I laugh even harder. "Thats fucking rich. I could care less if she wants me. I don't want her. I waited years. I should've moved on long ago. I know that now. Its for the better. Just get off my fucking back."
I close my eyes and shake my head. "Whatever." I stand up and walk out of the room. "Like I said before Michael. If you don't treat her right. I will." I go to walk into Ariels room but I hear her talking. I look in slightly. "They don't care about me Niall. I just want someone to care about me. Just somebody. I need somebody. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to ruin your day like this." Niall says something but I can't really hear it. "Thank you... Will you please go get Luke?" I stand back and run down the hall. Niall walks out of the room. "Aye. Luke C'mere." I turn around and start to walk towards him. "She wants to talk to you." I nod. "Thanks mate." Niall nods. I walk into Ariels room. "Hey.. How are you?" She tries to smile but it doesn't look right. I go by her and sit down. "What did you want beautiful?" She looks down. "I.. I needed to tell you I'm.. I'm sorry for last night. I think I'm going to be staying with Niall and the boys for a little. I didn't mean to bring you into this Luke. I'm I... I just...-" I cut her off "You're going with Niall?" She nods. "Oh... Um..." I stare at her lips. "Luke... I'm sorry.. I didn't mean for this to happen.. And last night.. I shouldn't have done that to you." I look into her eyes. "Ariel. I didn't mind it." She looks down. "Don't say that. I shouldn't have done that to you. I know it was stupid." I put my finger under her chin. "Ariel..." I can't handle it anymore. I stare into her eyes and then I lean in. When my lip meets her I feel something. Something I've never felt before its perfect.. Absolutely perfect."