It was late in the night, or early in the morning, when I woke up. I couldn't get back to sleep, so I picked up my diary, I carry it everywhere with me, and started writing.
'Tonight was amazing, I went out for a meal with Dan, Alex and Phil. They're all so adorable. Phil drove me home to get some clothes. I put on my favourite dark dress that mum never let's me wear, and those really nice boots. I had to put my old bow in as well, especially since I heard that my grandma was in hospital. I really wish that she could get better, but it's unlikely. I'm not even allowed to visit her; so unfair. I mean, I texted her yesterday and she replied fine, I don't know what happened. '
I started crying, and shoved the diary into my bag, hoping I could get back to sleep. It took a while, but I finally did.
At about 7 o'clock I woke up, school habits, and checked my phone. There was a text from my mum.
Hi hun, I'm guessing you got the news about gran. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but before I left there was a good chance of her recovering well, I hope you're okay, message me anytime you need me. I'm not sure when I'll be home, but you're 16 next week, you can look after yourself for a while right? xx
She left on Monday. Two days ago, there's no way gran was fine then. I couldn't live with a mother that didn't even care to tell me these things.
Hiya mum. Yeah I got the news that you decided not to tell me. I'm 16 next week, and I'll be moving out as soon as I can, if that's alright with you. xx
I was so angry, I didn't even have anywhere to stay, but I wanted to leave her to herself, I needed my own space, privacy, and I needed to be part of a family.
I didn't think it was relevant at the time love, and if you want to move out, I can't stop you, just make sure you're safe and can afford wherever you're living if you do. I'll be back soon xx
I didn't even bother replying. I'd find a place to stay, get a job, and live without needing her help.