6. Chapter 5
To first fall in love, I'm really glad it was you.
I wrote that to him and many other things. I told him what I thought about him and how he didn't have to worry about me liking him anymore, but that I would always love him and he couldn't make me mad for that.
You see, I had told him that I liked him more than a friend, and sometimes I regret it. I regret it because now Nathan and I aren't friends anymore.
But sometimes I'm also really glad I did tell him. It was destroying me inside, keeping it inside. Even though he knew I liked him, I still had to physically tell him.
But then we didn't talk. We weren't talking before either, but this was official.
I had lost my best friend.
And that's why I regret it. If it meant I was going to lose him this way I would have changed how I felt a long time ago.
But how could I have known? That I was going to lose him?
When we would be playing games as kids, how could I have known that in my senior year of high school, Nathan and I wouldn't be friends anymore?
That's the mystery of life. You don't know what happens. They tell you to take risks, make the most of your life.
But I didn't want to do it alone. I didn't want to go through life without him.
I am desperately in love with him, remember?