The next day was followed with a similar morning. Wake up, write, get dressed, makeup, school. The only difference is Jenna didn't have a nightmare. It was a dream.
I had one of the best dreams yet. I actually had a successful relationship and got married. I doubt that I'll ever get married and be as happy as can be, but whatever. I guess I'm okay for now. Except for the fact that L. hasn't talked to me since the night he got drunk and flirted with me. It's been bothering me so much. He kissed me 4 years ago because he thought I was older...Then once he found out I was 2 years younger than him, he flipped out and left me alone. But what he never knew is how much I liked him. I still do to this day. He's such a darling. I know it's not his fault that he was being so flirtatious but I can't help but blame it on him. I've spent all this time being so depressed over him not liking me I've wasted time. I feel used. He doesn't even remember that night. But I do. I think about it all the time. "Jenna let's take a selfie!" He said to me as he fell back on a couch."Upside down?" I said. "Yeah!" It's my favorite pictures. I always look at it. Ugh, I need to stop feeling this way but I don't know how. He's always been one of those boys that I've liked no matter what, even if at times I don't think about him 24/7, there's always a way that he kick starts the feelings. Even if we just talk... The only person that knows is Annie, but she forced me to tell her because I broke down crying in my art class when a song that reminded me of him came on. The way he smiles, talks, walks, everything he does I love. I feel that I'm obsessing over him but I can't help what I feel.
Jenna wiped the few tears that were rolling down her face. I miss him so much, she thought to herself. He's been away for a family vacation. A few minutes after Jenna pulled herself together her phone went off. She picked it up and answered it.
"Hello?" She said.
"Hey Jenna...." She felt herself grinning like an idiot.
"Hi Louis." She said.
"Sorry for calling you so early, I was just wondering if you're busy this Saturday? I can't help but feel you're really not okay."
"I'm fine though." She said.
"Jenna," He said, she heard Louis let out a sigh, her heart was beating hard in her chest, "I know you aren't alright, okay? I've seen your posts on social media. I have sisters, I can tell, they did the same thing when something was bothering them." Jenna felt a pang in her heart when he said I can tell, she felt tears threatening to spill from her eyes.
"Louis, it's complicated."
"That's what you think." He said with a kind calming voice. She then realized he cares.
"I," Jenna sighed and felt her body slouch, "okay Louis, you win." She said.
"Alright, let me know if you need anything, I'm on my way home. I might arrive at school late, so if you don't see me around, I'm probably not there yet, okay?"
"Okay." She said. "Wait Lou-" before she could finish her sentence he hung up. She sighed and stopped in her tracks. She decided to write in her diary again shortly after her surprise phone call.
So Louis JUST called me and said that he wants to meet up this Saturday because he's concerned about me. I'm really not sure how to feel about this. I hate that someone actually sees through me. I can't tell him everything. I'll feel so low and self-defeated. So I'll just tell him lies and play it off, he'll never suspect a thing, I'm a master at lying. Good luck to me!
She tossed her diary in the usual drawer, grabbed her bag and left home for school.