Sam knows I want to wait but I think Ricky said something to him saying
"don't you want to be close to her"
but Sam keeps on bugging me on making me have sex with him.
Sam: I wanna be close to you baby
me: no Sam Im not ready
sam: we'll I don't wanna be with you get out!
-I started crying as packing up I walked out the door-
kayla: hey what's wrong?
me: Sam kicked me out
kayla: I'm sorry but you don't wanna be here right now
random voice: Kayla come back to bed
me: who's that
Kayla: aha no one
-i pushed her out of the way-
me: oh Ricky I'm going now
ricky: Alyssa wait!
i started to run but he catcher me
ricky: Alyssa what's wrong?
me: Sam broke up with me you happy!
ricky: no I thought he was happy
me: no you told him that he'd be the first sense you
ricky: I never said that
me: it wasn't you wow.
i ran to my moms no one was there I found a blade and pills mad I had to go with the pills this time I love my family, Shawn, friends, boyfriend, babies what do I have left nothing I have nothing I wished I had something I took the pills the whole bottle and I heard someone and they started screaming but I passes out so I couldn't hear
me: what no I'm supposed to be dead!
Shawn: you really wanna die huh
me: why'd you say me
shawn: I saw you running and crying into the house and I know when you do something like that something bad happened so your gonna do something bad
me: you really know me don't you
shawn: no shit of course I do
me: I really miss you
shawn: I miss you too and btw I called Sam
im actually glad he called I heard some running and asked where someone was
bella: oh thank god your okay
me: where you the one who was running
bella: no your dad was
me: WHAT DADS HERE!!!
bella: oh did you have your twins?
*dad walks in*
me: no I lost them about a month ago
bella: oh I'm sorry
my dad looked a little sad I couldn't tell if it's because of the or I was gonna die
me: dad you okay?
Dad: I just didn't know how much you hated me when I used to hit you and I just didn't think you'd do this
me: you read my suicide note
dad: I'm sorry
me: it doesn't matter
dad: yes it does you lost the twins and I wasn't there I hate that!
me: no dad it's fi-
I directly fell right into the pillow all I heard was the monitors going off
Dad: I NEED A DOCTOR!!!
Doctor: blah blah blah
Sam: where is she?
Sam: what I thought she was fine
dad: she was until she fell into the pillow and can't wake up
dad: who are you anyway and where's Ricky?
Shawn: this is her boyfriend
Dad: oh what happened with her and Ricky
Sam: they broke up before she lost the twins
Dad: oh how upset was she when she lost them?
Ricky: she was really upset
Dad: oh hi Ricky
Ricky: hi Mr.Swift
Sam: how do you know she was upset
Ricky: because I was there for her unlike you
Sam: you were why we broke up!
Ricky: we'll at least I was there for her when you broke up with her because apparently you told her that i told you that you wanted to be close to her
Sam: because you did!
Ricky: bro your drunk I never said anything
Sam: YES YOU DID!!!
dad: alright were in a hospital calm down
bella: yea calm down
Ricky: so Bella how's your baby?
bella: he's good he's here actually because he was born a month early
Ricky: oh at least he's okay?
bella: yea he is
Doctor: Mr.swift your daughter is in surgery
dad: what happened
doctor: we'll the pills kicked in the second time and she almost died but we catches her before she couldn't fight anymore but were working on her right now
dad: is she gonna be okay?
Doctor: we don't know but we'll keep you updated
Justin: is sister okay?!?
Sam: we don't know yet she should be fine
Alex: I hope she'll be okay the last thing I said to her is that I hate her
Justin: I told her I miss her
mom: I said I was happy for her
Dad: Stop she's not gonna die
Mom: What if she does
dad: she's not she's strong and she'll get through thus
*i screamed and everyone heard*
Ricky: Doctor what was that?
Doctor: It was Alyssa Swift She's alive you can go visit her
Dad: honey you okay
Me: my stomach is killing me
dad: don't say killing you scared me
Me: I'm sorry dad
Justin: I'm glad your alive
me: I don't know if I am yet
Ricky: hey you okay?
me: hey yea but I've been better
Sam: hey baby
Me: Sam I'm sorry
Sam: no I'm sorry imma wait until your ready
Sam: can I talk to her alone please
*everyone walks out of the room*
Me: What's up?
Sam: you never lost the twins
Me: They weren't born though
Sam: yes they were I just talked to the doctors and they said they gave you like hella drugs and like they gave you an C-Section that's why you have that scar but you gave birth to them and I wasn't there yet but there here right now
Me: wait omg I need to see them
Sam: I'll go with you