Never Again (5SOS)

'Can I do this, should I do this, Can I fall in L..' I said to myself, I cant do this again, not again. I saw him there staring at me with his dark brown eyes. 'I cant not with him, his a player. All he wants is a night with you like Aaron did. I got up from the table to leave "whats wrong did I do something wrong" Calum said as he stood up grabbing my wrist stopping me from leaving. I pulled back and walked away without saying anything.


19. Chapter 18 // I'm sorry

We got back to the beach house at about urrmm, I don't know really we were to into what we were doing we lost track if time.

"I mean it doesnt make any sense" I giggled "Who the hell looks perfect in an American Apparel." I continue commenting on one of the song that he sang to me,

I stepped into the house then turn back to Calum who was laughing his heart out by my weird comments "Its just a song," he said between his laughter "I ran ou-"

He didn't get to finish his sentence when a clear of throat startled the both of us, I almost dropped the guitar in my hand, I turned to see the Mel, Ashton and Luke was there sitting at the dinner table.

"Have fun?" Mel giggled looking at Ashton who was smiling, I looked over at where Luke was but he wasn't there anymore, "So.." Ashton trailed out, "Oh shut up Ashton." Calum stern out walking out the kitchen heading up the stairs, what was up with him now,

First he was all down to earth and sweet and then his like this heartless jerk, "Is he bipolar," Shit why the hell did I just said that out loud, I hope no one heard that

"What's that Lina?" Ashton asked looking confused, "Nothing." I said running upstairs "Lina hurry up, we're heading out in a minute," Mel yelled from the kitchen "Ok" I yelled back,

When I passed Cat's and Luke's room I swear I heard yelling, but I didn't bother to eavesdrop. Cause its their relationship, it has nothing to with me.

I reached my room and right after I stepped in I almost jump out of my skin when I saw Calum on my bed flipping through my other scrapbook, its full with old poems that I have written when I was with Aaron, "Hey!" I yelled, the only thing he did was look up at me with a smile then back down. He wasn't even startled or even felt bad that he went through my personal stuff,

I walked up to him and snatched the book, "You know if you put some tunes to those words they could be awesome song." He suggested, "Hell no," I said as I walked to the dresser placing the book on them and looked at myself in the mirror, "I could never" I continued with a cracking voice, why do I fell like crying when I think of him. Everything feels so wrong, maybe its the fact that I truly loved him.

I felt a single hot tears running down my cheeks but I wiped them away as soon as I realized it, "You know what Lina," I turned to Calum who was still sitting on my bed "You deserve better then that jerk." He said softly as he stood up walking over to me, when he reached to where I was standing he placed his hands on the table between me. We were inches away, "Your beautiful and nice." He leaned closer to me, "C-Calum," I chocked out, my heart was beating so fast in my chest just thinking that I think I might want him to kiss me now "Yes," he whispered, his lips was inches away from mine I could feel his hot breath and smell his minty breath,

Shoot, should I lean to him and urrgghh, NO! Lina you cant, he would just use you like he used the other girls. His a playboys and the worst one of them all. "I cant," I turned my head to the side with my eyes shut, "Oh my god Lina, I'm so sorry," He placed his hands over his face, What, why is he sorry, he has never said that he was sorry to me before. "Its not your fault, its me." I said when he walked over to the bed, "I'm sorry," that the last thing he said before he walked out the door leaving me stunned after what had just happen.



I walked out and headed straight to my room, what the fuck did I just do. What the hell was I thinking, why would she want to kiss me back. Wait, why would I care. You cant care about her like that, it would ruin you reputation, she is a nerd urrghhh, "Fuck!" I said a loud, as I paced back and forth in my room.

"So.." A voice trailed out from behind making me jump. I turned to find Luke walking in "You and Lina?" I crossed my arms over my chest, he is not thinking what I'm thinking right. "Hell no Luke," I brushed my hair with my fingers, "She doesn't mean anything, You know me better then that," I continued and walked over to my suitcase grabbing my black t-shirt and pulled open the one I'm wearing before putting on the black one, "Are you sure Cal?" He asked again as if I was lying, "Well duh, sorry that I punched you yesterday,"

I walked passed Luke and out the door but a figure on my right caught my eye making me stop, when I turned I saw Lina standing there with tears in her eyes and her hand over her mouth, when she realized it was me she ran back to her room and slammed them shut, Shit!


😲🔫 ouch,

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