1. chapter one
Am I going to die? Am I going to die a boring death? Or am I going to suffer? Is this life all trick? A beautiful misery? Is the pain worth it? Is love real? Or just a real joke? What will be a reaction if I died or if I disappeared? Is God real? Or just a fake belief in an imaginary being to reassure us? What's the point of asking?
October 12, 2011
I am going to die anyway... I am going to die slowly and painfully. I am going to die never living my life; never being loved by "my other half" and never experience heart break. Beautiful misery? No, just a scribble of a painting. A speck on a portrait, an unimportant speck. No God would do this to a person, make us suffer. Unless it's just a game?
December 2, 2014
But I know I did something; I know I will die and I will suffer. I will live too and it will be beautiful and so very miserable. So, yes, it's worth it. If I died today, someone would care because I am love and I did love. God, gives us will and hope, he is mysterious. So there is no point in asking; that is a waste of time because he has a path for each of us. Take it.
January 10, 2015