"And that... That's the head." She said as she pointed up onto the monitor. She continued moving the.. I actually don't know what its called. I'm talking about the thing that the doctor moves around kn your stomach and you can see your baby on the screen.
Tran.. Trans.. Transducer! That's what they're called. Took me a while but I got there. Haha.
As our doctor showed us, by us I mean Mum, Kirsty, Andy and I, my baby, and pointed out the parts, my mind wandered back to Calum.
"Excuse me, I have a quick question," I smiled and she looked at me and nodded for me to ask her tje question as the scan came to a pause temporarily, "I was just curious as to when I find out the gender of my baby?" I said.
"Oh, right. For most women it happens at 20 weeks, but it can be anywhere from 18 to 22 weeks depending on when we can fit you in." She smiled as she answered my, well, Calum's answer.
Note to self: Tell Calum about when we can find out the sex of baby Peanut.
Anyway.. This didn't go on for very long, the scan was only like 15 minutes or something, so, not too long. She was extremely nice and was always willing to answer questions.
"Thank you for everything." I smiled as I as waved to her and we exited the room, smiles still spread across our faces.
"Oh, my baby!" She smiled as she pulled me in for a huh, sniffling every second or so, "He or she is going to be the nost beautiful baby, Ellyse. I'm just happy right now. I promise they're happy tears." Mum saif as she wiped away the tears that were rolling down her cheeks. I rubbed her back gently to try and comfort her. I hate seeing Mum cry.
"Okay, well, lets get home before any more tears are shed!" Andy said enthusiastically and we all agreed on it.
As soon as I got home, I went straight onto Skype with Mikey, "I miss youu, Kitten. Come home!" Were the first words I said to him as he answered but it wasn't him, "Oh, oops."
It was all the boys but Mikey, "Oh sorry, Ellyse. We'll get Michael for you. Hold on a minute." Luke raced from sight.
"Hey, Ellyse, is Andy there by any chance?" Calum asked as his cheeks tinted a light shade of pink, "Please?" He smiled.
"Of course." I was just about to call the girls up when they both barged into my room.
"Calum!" Andy yelled as she ran and jumped onto my bed, the laptop almost falling off if it wasn't for Kirsty's catching skills, "Whoops." She tugged on the collar of her shirt.
"Hi, babe!" His smile huge on his face as he waved to Andy, "I love you and I miss you." He pouted and crossed his arms.
"I love and miss you too, Cal Pal." She giggled at his nickname and he laughed too. My mind still couldn't help wander back to Michael.
What's taking Luke and Michael so long? It's been a few minutes now, I didn't think it took this long but you never know, this is Luke, he's pretty strange. But you know, aren't most brothers a bit weird?
"He's here!" Luke yelled as he and a bloodshot eyed, messy haired, sloppily dressed Michael appeared into the room and everyone seemed to be in shock about Michael's appearance.
"I think we should give them some time together in private." Ashton said and everyone nodded quickly as they rushed out of the rooms as soon as possible.
"Michael..?" I said as my heart felt like it had been pulled out of me and stomped to pieces, been sewn back up and placed back in my chest as I took in what he looked like at the moment. His head shook slowly, "Baby, what happened?" I asked gently. I had never seen Mike like this before.
"I-I miss you so much, darling. I love you. I love you. I love youuuu." He broke out crying, tears streaming down his pale cheeks. My heart shattered into a million pieces seeing him cry, the longer I watched him cry, the more it pushed me to tears until tears were running down MY cheeks. Pregnancy hormones don't help, "A-and I ju-just *sniff* wish I-I was there *sniff* to see Peanut. I l-love you, Ellyse." He started to stop crying but I didn't. In fact, I think I just cried harder hearing him say he loves me.
"It's ok-okay, Kitten *sniff*, you'll be here f-for t-the *sniff* gender r-revealing ultrasound." I sniffled as I felt a warm blanket being placed around my shoulders and I looked up to see Kirsty with a sad smile on her face and Andy in the background in the doorway with the exact same expression her face.
"You guys are so in love.." Kirsty said as she also passed me a hot chocolate before placing a kiss on my forehead, wiping away my tears and leaving the room, "We'll be just downstairs if you need us." She said as the door closed behind her.
"That sounds great, babycakes. *sniff* I love you so much, don't ever forget it." He wiped away his tears and rubbed his eyes that were so red.
"I love you to the moon and back, Kitten. I will always love you, I promise I'll *sniff* never stop loving you and that is a promise I will never break.. I can promise you that.." A smile formed on both of our faces, gradually growing bigger until we were giggling away.
Once we had calmed down, I took a gulp of my hot chocolate, gently blowing on it first to make sure it wouldn't be too hot and Michael smiled at me in admiration, "You're beautiful."
"Oh, stop it Mr. Handsome." I giggled and he stifled a laugh. After that, came a long silence. Not an awkward one but a comforting one. We took in each others features, a mix of love and lust filled in both of our eyes as they examined every inch of our bodies which started to make me feel a bit self concious and I wrapped my blanket around my so it covered my whole body and Michael's eyes came up to meet mine immediatly.
"Don't. You have an incredible figure, Ellyse. If I were you, I'd be showing off my body left and, or right so don't hide it, babe. I love you." I could tell he genuinly meant it just by looking in his eyes and I slowly let my blanket slide off of me and he smiled, succeeding.
"What on earth would I do without you, honey?" I asked as I took another sip of my hot chocolate, "I love you."
He pulled out his phone from the pocket in his sweatpants and typed something up rapidly before he looked back up at me and smirked. I furrowed my eyebrows before my phone dinged from beside me and I picked it up, reading the notification.
"I'm looking at the most beautiful woman in the world right now @ Ellyse5SOS I love you, darling xx" I read the tweet aloud, my smile growing as I read more and more, I favourited and retweeted before looking up at the love of my life, Michael, "Damn you, Michael and these damn feels." I giggled as I wiped away a happy tear that had slipped from my eye.
"Aww, baby, don't cry. Please don't cry, babygirl, I didn't mean to." He pouted as he hugged the laptop and I hugged it too.
"I won't cry, Kitten." I smiled at how much he really cared about me. What did I do to ever deserve someone like Michael Gordon Clifford? He could do way better than me but for some reason he stayed with me. What an idiot move.
"I'm never going to leave you, if that's what you're thinking of my love." He said, "I love you and Peanut with all of my heart and if we ever have more children, I'll love them with all my heart too. You're just so perfect Ellyse." He blew a kiss at me and I caught it as I sent one back and he caught that.
After talking, crying and laughing with Michael for goodness knows how long, he had to leave to go to an interview. I was pretty sad that he left but on the plus side, I needed to eat something for dinner and go to bed.
Oh my goodness, how long were we on Skype for?!
I headed downstairs where I couldn't hear nor see any sign of the girls down here, they must've just gone to bed. I was too lazy to make myself a proper dinner so I just made myself 4 pieces of toast with peanut butter on top and a little container of boysenberry yoghurt as well seeing as I was pretty hungry.
Thank goodness I haven't started getting weird food cravings... Yet. I'm only just a month pregnant, still got around 8 months left, give or take.
After I had eaten, I took a quick shower, changed into my comfortable undies and crop top because It seriously really comfortable to wear to bed and threw my hair up into a bun because I'm seriously too tired to even bother.
I texted Michael a quick "Goodnight." Before I turned off my phone and got some sleep. I wish I was beside him.
Thank you so much for reading!