Today was 5 seconds of summer’s last show in Perth, before continuing their tour.
I had no idea how to feel anymore.
I’d said no to Luke, I think with his charm he had already found someone new.
Maybe I wasn’t meant to be with him, I mean I really was messed and fucked up.
Why would he want me?
A rape victim, a mess and a disaster as a human.
He deserved so much better than what I had to offer him.
Maybe I should go to the concert, just to say goodbye for good.
I mean I could at least be there and say goodbye for real.
My head was yelling no, but my heart was screaming yes…
I had to go.
I quickly looked at the time and felt like I was late.
The show started in 30 minutes!
I quickly hurried to get some human clothes on and brushed my hair.
The short hair was easy to style, cus I just kinda had to push it back.
I looked into the mirror, and saw the same little scared girl I saw before I had to move to Perth and leave Luke for good.
Or I thought I had to.
I guess now it really was the end.
I quickly got to the concert and looked at the time.
The show had already started…
How was I supposed to get in now?
The doors were closed, and the sound of screaming fans wasn’t making anything better.
Right when I thought it was too late, a guy walked towards me.
>Jadalynn, right? <
I quickly looked at the man and smiled.
>Ashton, Michael and Calum told me to wait out here for you, they knew you would show up<
I smiled and breathe.
The man showed me the back door and told me to go wait in Luke’s dressing room.
I smiled and thanked the man before going into the room with LUKE standing on the door.
I looked around the room, as I thought about what to say to Luke.
How did you tell the only guy you’ve ever loved, that you had to say goodbye?
Maybe I shouldn’t say goodbye, but just ask him to be my friend?
But then again, I couldn’t trust him; he turned Bruce in to the police and made me move away…
I looked at a picture Luke had hanging on his mirror.
It was a picture of me, him and the guys.
I think it was the only picture I’ve ever taken with them all.
I caught myself smiling, and pushed some of my hair behind my left ear.
I quickly turned around, and saw a sweaty and tired Luke standing in front of the door with a smile on his face.
He smiled and wiped his forehead with a towel.
He threw the towel on a chair, and walked closer towards me.
>I didn’t think I would ever see you again<
I slowly nodded and tried to pull a smile.
>Ash, and the other guys got someone to get me in<
Luke smirked and walked faster towards me, as he wrapped his arms around my waist and held me tight.
I could smell him sweating, but it didn’t matter.
I wasn’t going to judge.
>Luke I have to talk to you<
Now was the time.
I had to say goodbye.
>What is it? You know you can tell me anything, I love you<
In the same second he said that, everything I’d been thinking about since that other day where we fought, disappeared.
>I love you too<
I looked into his eyes, and forgot all the bad things that had happened between us.
All the reasons why I shouldn’t be with him.
>Go with me on tour<
My heart stopped.
Could I actually go with him on tour?
What if I would just get in his way of having fun?
I didn’t want to be the reason; he hated the tour they had been dreaming about for years.