Where even was I? It's dark, getting cold, I feel lonely and I just want to collapse. But you know what?!? I don't even give one anymore, nothings gone right, if I had just accepted that she was telling the truth and I was being an ass then none of this would of happened. I felt my phone vibrate for the hundredth time or something but I just ignored it, besides who would it be? Jenna? Pfft no. She hates me.
This is so stupid. So fucking stupid. I'm stupid. Why am I walking around in a country alone with no effort of getting the only girl I love back. I need to get her. I have to. There's no say in that, Jenna is the only girl I want in my life, I want to marry her, have kids with her and grow old together, I wonder if she ever thinks the same thing about me?
Spinning vigorously around on my heels I started picking up the pace to find my way back to the hotel. God there are so many creeps about, what time is it? 2,3 in the morning? I have no idea. For some reason I don't want to. It would just make feel like... Like I am running out of time, I have to get back to her. What happens if she already hates me? What is she going to say. Fuck Luke don't think like that.
The music which was pumping from each hotel was getting louder and louder as I walked closer towards them all, I kind of remembered what the building looked like, tall, white and slim which towered above most other buildings. My eyes crept up the sky to see the American flag proudly swaying in the chilly breeze of the night. Who knew it would get this cold at night.
As I raced around the building I noticed our tour bus parked up and smiled slight but it faded away as Jenna's beautiful face popped back into my mind. At least I made it back.. Right no distractions Luke I have to make it too her.
''Rom 853...'' I mumbled to myself as the silver-nailed-on number caught my eye. That's her and Claire's room. I wonder if Claire's even in there with her I mean she was looking for me, unless it's her brother... Yeah probably Ashton.
I gulped and took several stride's over towards the door, every move I made the knot in my stomach was getting tighter and tighter, why was I so afraid? Why? Because I was scared I would loose her.
I raised my hand up to the door and with all my strength and power I knocked on the door, it came out pretty quiet though I'm not sure if she heard it or not.
''Ashton, I-i'm fine, just leave me a-alone.'' Jenna's broken voice came out as barley a whisper.
''I-it's not Ashton, i-it's Luke..'' I stammered struggling to get my words out. There was no reply just a deadly silence which I hated with a passion.
''L-luke.'' All of a sudden there was a click at the door and the stupid tears came back. The door pulled open ever so lightly and I could feel my palms getting sweaty. I rubbed them against my pants which just made them even worse. ''H-hi..'' Seriously. Luke hi? That's all I said. This isn't going to turn out well.
''H-hi.'' Luke stammered rubbing his hands against his pants. Shit he looked so nervous. Tears brimmed in his eyes and the stains were visible just like they were on my face.
''W-what do you want?'' I tried not to cry again. Don't Jenna, don't, I have to stay strong. I mean earlier I completely broke down and locked Claire, Michael, Ashton and Calum out of the room. I guess it was pretty selfish of me but I couldn't bare being around anyone. My insides were going crazy, partly from nerves and anger and all my emotions but then because Luke, the boy I loved and had too many feelings for was standing in front of me.
''Jenna p-please..'' He begged. ''Give me a second chance.. Please...'' He took my hand and fell to his knee's. ''L-luke I-i.'' I sniffled as his eye caught mine before he turned away. ''I-i get it. You don't want to b-be with me anymore..''
''No! Luke! I fucking love you! I don't want to leave you, I love you.'' I dropped down onto my knee's next to him.
''We're never fighting again, okay!'' Luke cried/ laughed at the same time as tears fell down both our faces. ''Never.'' I smiled/ cried like him and smashed my lips on his.
We're together, we're not angry, we're together, we're not sad, we- okay I should shut up now, but this was perfect. I was with him.