Niall changed. It was as if he lost the desire and I almost wanted his old person back. He was like an empty jar and he could hardly talk to us. I understood why, but I was angry over that Simon could destroy a person, without getting a penalty. I chose to keep a low profile. I didn't dare to do anything and I was like everyone else. A ghost of my former self. A week passed, two weeks went by when once it had been three weeks I felt as if the gang was dissolved. We kept us away and it felt wrong to even try.
I lay in bed late and I could only thing about everything. It was as if I was in a prison and I heard familiar sounds through walls. I heard the neighbours went to the bathroom and I heard the guards walked past my door. They were like a clock. Every evening they went through the corridors and they seemed to think that they did something right. I knew that the truth was something entirely else. That night when Niall got into trouble, the guards were gone. I realized that Simon and all the teachers had control over everything. They could decide what they wanted and they got to do what they wanted.
I don't know how I could miss it. I fell asleep and I woke up by a hand, as was pressed against my mouth, so that I wouldn't scream. I felt someone lay on top of me and I quickly realized that it was a teacher. I tried to resist, but I was too late. My hands were taped over my head and I felt that I couldn't get rid of the man. The panic was complete and I didn't know what I would do.
"Damn I'm just going to fuck you!"
It was Simon. He ripped my panties off fast and by using the knees he parted my legs apart. Quickly he put both hands over my mouth and he almost made me lose my breath. I managed to breathe through the nose, but it was too little air. I tried to kick, but he was so heavy that I couldn't do so. I felt that he was already naked. He had pulled down his pants to his knees and I felt his cock landed on me.
"You have to get rid of the Virgin." he hissed hoarsely, and he sounded like a werewolf, vampire or devil. His voice was foggy and I was sure he was another person deep down. "I'm going to fuck you so hard that you don't want anyone but me."
I closed my eyes. I felt the tears just flowed and I realized that I had no chance. Simon groaned and he smiled when he realized he had won. I felt him rubbing his cock between us and he moaned in pleasure.
"Don't you wanna know what it's like to fuck?" he hissed hoarsely. I swallowed and I continued to turn a blind eye. I couldn't after all do anything about it and he wouldn't obey me if I shook my head.
"Do you feel how horny I am?" he went hoarse and he laughed with pleasure. "I'm so fucking horny that I intend to do it quickly."
He began trying to penetrate. He had to keep his hands over my lips and immediately I began to do everything so that he wouldn't succeed. Quickly he became irritated, I felt how he moved a hand and he took a stranglehold on me. Rapidly changing the situation and I realized that he was capable of killing me.
"Damn my dick doesn't kill anyone." he hissed cold. I swallowed and I felt the strength disappeared. He pressed a hand against my mouth and the other against my throat. It was hard to breathe and I felt I almost lost consciousness. It was as if I landed in another world and everything was foggy. I didn't hear his voice and I almost stopped breathing. I felt he again made an attempt and he succeeded. I felt how he penetrated and I felt how he filled me out. The tears came, but I could do nothing. He moaned and I heard every breath he took. It was like the worst nightmare ever, and I hoped to the last that this didn't happen.
Have you ever fainted? It was as if I landed on a cloud, and instead of Simon, I felt nothing. I was like a light little spring and it was like I was on my way to the light. I have no idea if I was going to die or not.
I heard the sound, but I couldn't open my eyes. I heard an ambulance, but I didn't understand what was happening. I wanted to be left on my little cloud and I did everything to get there again. I couldn't bare the real world.
"Her body has fallen into shock."
I realized that the person was talking about me. I don't know if he was talking to me or to anyone else. His voice sounded calm and still he didn't think that I would die, which was a disappointing.
"She needs to rest and when she's ready she will come back."
I ended up somewhere between life and death. I don't know if I was still in my body, but sometimes I woke up to the voices talking. I realized that my body was lying at a hospital but where my spirit were was a mystery. I tried sometimes to fight and open my body's eyes, but I didn't succeed. Instead, it was as if I had a choice. If I wanted to live or if I would die. Okay, the truth was that I didn't care. For the moment, it was quite pleasant. I fell asleep, I woke up, I discovered that everything was unchanged and I fell asleep into hibernation again.
"How is the situation?"
I recognized Eleanor's voice. I wanted to smile and say that it was quite all right, after all. Yet I couldn't do more than just remain in the same state.
His voice sounded hoarse and immediately I realized, it was Harry.
"She hasn't woken up and she doesn't respond to anything."
I wanted to scream. "Here I am, Harry! I hear you!"
"What a pity." murmured Eleanor. "I regret that we didn't stuck together."
"I know." whispered Harry. "I regret that I didn't keep her under surveillance."
Huh? He guarded me?
"It was bad luck, bad luck." Eleanor murmured, as if it were a comfort.
Slowly, I began to remember. I heard those sounds of moaning and a body that kept me stuck. Slowly I realized what had happened. Simon had nearly killed me. It was like I got back my memory and that small cloud attracted more than ever. I had been raped and subjected to the worst thing a girl can encounter. I remembered his hands, his heavy body and his movements. It was like an awakening.
"Please, Sam, don't leave me."
Harry cried and he held my hand tightly. I wanted to say something, but I still couldn't control the body. I also wanted to cry and I wanted to scream out my hatred over Simon. Yet it was as if I had to calm down and I had to stay still.
"It will be all right."
Perrie sat by my side. It took me a few days before I realized that everyone in the gang took turns being in the room. It felt safe in a way and I just wanted to smile. Despite all that had happened, they wanted to care about me?
I know! For a long time I was in a coma, or whatever you call it. My life stood still and I learned that friends were there when you needed them. The big disappointment was that my parents just visited me a few times. Maybe they wanted to show that they cared little? Maybe they were ashamed and didn't dare to be with me too much? I had no idea what was happening out there in the world or around me. I struggled just to stay put. Slowly I realized that I wanted to live. Okay that my life hadn't been good, but I only got one chance I could change.