I didn't know what was happening. Brandon had just leaned in and kissed me and I just decided to kiss him back. I don't know why I did it but it just felt so right. I had finally pulled apart.
"Brandon" I said and looked away. "Why did you do that?" I asked.
"I don't know why I did it, all I know is that it felt right" He said.
"Brandon, I can't" I said and tried to walk away from him in hopes he'd take the hint and leave. Instead he had grabbed me by my waist and turned me around.
"Liz listen to me" He said and just looked me in the eyes. "I know it might seem random and you probably don't feel the same way but, that just felt so right" He added.
"Brandon I felt something too but, I can't do this" I said and looked down. He just lifted my chin with his hand so I was now staring back into his eyes.
"Liz, why can't you if you felt something too" He asked.
"I can't because..." I began.
"Why?" He asked with such desperation and despair.
"Because I know that I'll eventually break you, like I always do, and then you and everyone else will hate me and I can't deal with that not again" I said tears forming in my eyes.
"What do you mean, you'll break me and everyone one will hate you again?" He asked.
"I never keep a relationship longer than a month anymore and everyone will hate me." I said this time a tear drop had found it's way down my cheek. With this Brandon had raised his hand to my cheek and wiped the tear away.
"I am willing to give this a shot and I don't think I would hate you, plus you'd have your friends wouldn't you?" He asked.
"Brandon, I don't think you understand. I don't really do relationships anymore and can't afford to lose everyone I have now" I said remembering how my life used to be without my friends that I was so lucky to have now. I wasn't ready to give any of that up. Plus I wouldn't be able to date Brandon in public if I wanted to keep the majority of my friends because if they found out, they would most likely leave me.
"Please Liz, give me a chance. I promise we don't have to date in public so you don't lose any of your friends just please" He had begged.
"Brandon, I don't know" I said and thought about it. Should I go for him or should I just leave it were we are now. I mean yeah he's a jock and basically all the jocks hate me and my friends just like we hate the jocks but, this is completely different. This I feel something with this. I don't know why but, I want to give him a chance and at the same time I'm still a little per cautious. I mean ever since I started to talk to him, I seemed to be changing. I don't know what this boy has done or how he has taken over me but in that second in time I had been able to make my decision. Without telling him or giving him any warning I smash my lips onto his and quickly break away.
"We can't date in public, but heres your chance" I said as he hugged me tighter to him.
SORRY IT HAD TAKEN ME SO LONG TO UPDATE!! I was just really busy and kept forgetting to update. I promise you that I will be better and try to update more frequently. Again I am very sorry for not updating sooner.