"You should forgive him. It's been four months since the incident." Audrey jabbed my side as she ordered us caramel lattes with extra foam. Wincing, I opened my mouth, but words didn't come out. Why haven't I forgiven him yet? "Are you going to say anything?" Her eyebrows raised, and I sat, speechless.
"Fine. But how do you expect to move on if you don't even acknowledge the fact that you are still in love with him?" My face started to burn and I clenched my fists in my lap.
"I'm not in love with him." I grinded my teeth together, my fists lost feeling in them.
Sighing, she looked me directly into my eyes. "I know you better than anyone else in this world. And I know, you aren't over him. That's why you won't let this go. You have to. For his sake, and for your own." Rage grew in my stomach and I felt like I was about to explode. She noticed and didn't move from her spot.
"..." My body was shaking, violently. How can she say this about me? She apparently doesn't know me well enough to know that I'm long over Dominic. There's nothing left for me to say about the subject.
"Alexis...?" Blinking, I looked at her.
"I have nothing to say about the subject." I stood up. "Thanks for taking me out for coffee. But I don't want to bugged about a topic that is long forgotten." I placed a twenty on the table and walked away. Her mouth was left agape as I realized what I had done. I looked at the sidewalk cracks, as I decided that it had to be done.
She'll forgive me eventually.
"Hey." Jeremy smiled wide, his teeth glistening in the sunlight.
"Hey." Smiling, pushing down the rage I had building up.
"You okay? You seem--"
"Like I'm faking it?" Frowning, I crossed my arms. "How do you always see through me?"
"You're as transparent as a window." He shrugged, a smirk playing on his lips.
"Yeah, and you're the exact opposite. Sometimes I think I know what you're feeling, but then, I think something else." Laughs, trying to figure him out. "You're just plain confusing. And those are the facts."
"What if I told you that I hide how I feel?" He said, smirking.
Laughing, I uncrossed my arms. "Noooo. Really?" I said, sarcastically.
"Yes." I tackled him to the ground, and he laughed, tickling me. Laughter overcame me, and I cried for him to stop. He shook his head and kept tickling me. Memories of being with Dominic flashed in my head, and the smile that was on my face disappeared. I started to stand up, and he noticed a mood change as he stood up too.
"What's up?" He wrapped his arms around my waist. His head laid on my shoulder, and I held my breath. He knows that's my weakness. "I won't let go unless you tell me..." He whispered against my neck. Goosebumps formed across that area, and I shivered.
"Audrey kept bugging me about the incident..." I sighed. He held me tightly in his arms.
"I'm sorry..." I turned around in his arms and reached my arms out, wrapping them gently against his neck.
"She doesn't know about us yet." I frowned. "I hate keeping secrets from her."
"It's only for a bit longer." He smiled as he leaned down to kiss me. I turned my face, forcing him to kiss my cheek.
"Hey, no pda in public. Someone will spot us." I pushed him away and laughed. "Later." I walked away, knowing I left him pouting. I turned back and saw his head tilt to the side while he had his lower lip hanging out. I giggled and ran over to him. He grabbed me and kissed me with as much passion as possible. My heart started to skip a beat and I let out a sigh. He smiled as I started to walk home.
What did I ever do to deserve him? I smiled even wider before frowning. Memories of Dominic flashed into my head again and my mind started to wonder.
What would have happened if he never had cheated?
"Where do you want to go?" Dominic pecked my lips. My heart fluttered as I held his hand in my own. Our bodies were pressed together as we walked down the school hallways. I smiled even though everyone around us was talking about me.
"For what?" I whispered.
"Our anniversary, of course." He smiled. It felt familiar. Warm. I giggled silently. We stopped at the door of my homeroom. He pressed my back against the wall. His eyes yearning for something...for something he wants from me. I gulped. I knew what it was. But I wasn't sure if I'm ready to give it to him.
He pressed his forehead against mine, our faces inches away from each other. My heart started to quicken. I tried to breathe slowly, but I failed, resulting in my body shaking.
I pressed my lips against his. Feeling the electricity flow from his body to mine, and back to his. My arms wrapped around his head. And he held one arm around my body as he pressed one hand against the wall to steady himself. He pulled away and flashed me a smile.
"I love you." He whispered.
"I love you, too." I whispered back. The bell started to ring and I pecked his lips. Smiling, I walked into the classroom.
I sat at a desk near the window, and felt my body shiver. I pressed my finger against my lips and felt the ghost warmth. I smiled wide, blush spreading across my cheeks.
Love of my life.
"She's over you. You know that right?" Caleb spoke in a hushed tone. My eyes found his as I finally realized that he was hovering over me.
"Why does it even matter...she'll never love me." I started to sit up, but he pinned his knees to my legs.
"She hasn't stopped loving you." I tried to push him off, but he didn't budge. "Trust me."
"What are you talking about? And what are you doing, dude?" I winced as his kneecaps dug into my legs.
"I want you to win her back." He said, his hair covering his eyes. I gulped, knowing he's hiding something.
"What's in it for you?" I growled. He smirked and flicked his hair out of his eyes. He's eyes were pitch black. It felt like I was getting lost into nothingness.
"He deserves to be with her..." I mumbled to myself.
"True. But don't you want to be with her?" The girl appeared onto my bed. Her smile playing on her lips.
"Yes...but...he deserves her more." I sighed, knowing that's half of the truth.
"What is in for you?" She crossed her legs, her pale white skin gleaming in the sunlight.
"Nothing..." I stared into space.
"Really? So you're just doing this with the kindness in your heart?" She smirked. My heart dropped and I growled, silently. What is she getting at?
"You want him to get back with her so you can steal her away from him. You want to fix her heart." She hopped off the bed, pacing toward me. Her fingers lightly traced my body. Goosebumps formed all over. I bit my lip and gulped down my fear.
"So what? What's wrong with that?" She smirked even more. "It means the world."
As I slid the key into the slot, I heard a rustling behind me. I stood still, not knowing whether to turn around or not. I reached for my phone but a presence overwhelmed me.
"I wouldn't think about it." The stranger said. Their voice hissed into my ear, and my body started to shiver, violently.
"Who are you?" I mumbled.
"Your worst nightmare." I could imagine them smiling, enjoying the fear I'm in. I tried to push it down, but no matter what I did, I failed.