My mind was going crazy, I haven't talked to Niall since the other night on Skype and I had no idea why. He was posting photos on Twitter and Instagram, but not returning my calls or texts. I was getting way too mad for this, I knew something like this was going to happen and now I have a pair of twins wondering why their dad hasn't called them or even talked to me. By this time. Ciara was going threw withdraws and won't listen to a thing I say.
"Ciara, you have to go to school." I try and drag her from her bed but she's putting up a fight and by this time, I was sick of it. I was exhausted, my heart was hurting, and I was feeling what she was feeling, if not more. "Ciara!" I screamed so loud that Alec came running in. I had lost it, I never realized how badly we needed Niall around. Even a few missed phone calls and we were all going stir crazy. "Fine, stay home, I don't care anymore." I walked out of her bedroom and Alec ran right behind me, hugging the back of my legs and telling me he loves me. "I'm so sorry." I whisper and bend down to his level.
He stares at me like he doesn't want to hear what's going on, my children are my everything and I hate to see them hurting. Looking at both my kids I know they're going threw extreme pain right now, their dad is their number one. I sat in the car, Alec was still in the house getting something and I laid my head on the steering wheel, grabbing my phone and calling Niall one last time. "Please please please pick up." I sobbed.
"Hello?" He finally answered.
"Oh my god." I smiled and leaned back in my seat. My hand went to my forehead and a smile was placed on my head. "Hi."
"What's up?" His voice was full of cheer.
"Loosing it." I admitted. "We need you." I sobbed out loud, covering my mouth and holding my breath so he didn't hear.
"We're coming home early. Something happened down here that's why I haven't been able to call you, but we're doing our Ireland shows early!"
"You didn't have time to call me, but you had time to go out and post things on twitter and instagram?" I bit at him, my patience running low at this point. "Do you understand how hard it's been for us? We've been trying our hardest to keep this house together and can't even shoot a simple text or even a 30 second phone call to say hi?"
"Maybe I shouldn't have called you, sorry. Tell Tessa I said hi." I said with a bitchy smile and hung up. I took a deep breath and tried to hold myself together. Alec walked out with his sister and his jacket, smiling at me and I laughed.
"Got what I needed." He said as he climbed in the car.
"Okay, we just have to pick up Theo first and then I'll drop you guys off at school."
"Mum, can I get a smoothie first?" Ciara sobbed in the back seat, I looked at her and Alec threw the mirror and smiled, "of course." I said and took off for Greg's house.
Theo has grown up to look almost like Niall. His hair is almost the same as his whenever Niall first started with One Direction but his build a little bigger. He was skinny, but he had muscle to him, fit more than anything. I think Ciara has a crush on him because every time he's with us she's all over him, asking him to play with her and showing him her new clothes. Theo loves it, mind you, but he is 16 almost 17 and I don't think he wants to spend his time with his Uncle playing with his little cousin.
I beep the horn and Theo comes running out, "hey!" He says, he even sounds like Niall. Honestly, this kid got little-to-nothing from his parents. But our kids made up for it, Alec looks similar to Greg. "Serious question, I'm asking you because my mum doesn't understand at all and you're actually really easy to talk to. Okay?"
His statement caught me off guard and I laughed a little. "Okay, thanks. What's the question?" I asked.
"More like advice?" He said in a questionable tone. I nodded my head and looked at him as we hit a red light. "Okay, I love to write, you know this." I nod my head again. "I want to learn more about the English language and even more languages if possible, because I love Spanish and French."
"Theo, where are you going with this?"
"I wanna write, Braelynn. I want to publish my own books and I want some kind of degree in writing or whatever!" He sighed, I loved the passion in his voice whenever he talks. Doesn't matter the topic, if he's interested [which he usually is] he'll get so into it and put his whole heart into it. He reminds me of Niall whenever he does that, especially whenever Niall talks about his family or career. "But there's a problem... both my parents want me to do two seperate things. It's tearing me apart. Be a lawyer, make mum proud, do business, make dad proud." He put his head low. "I don't know what to do, like I'm almost done high school! I'm almost 17, I graduate this year." He himmed and hawed.
I pulled over by the front doors of the school, letting my kids out and then looking at him. "Theo, you can't run life around everyone else. You do something that you're going to get up every morning and love doing it. Do what makes you happy, not everyone around you. This is a time where you need to put yourself first and understand what you want to do, not what your mother or father want you to do."
"Yeah but they want me to do something that's going to make me money right out of graduation." He pointed out.
"I understand, but you're not promised a big cheque after Law School, or Business." I counterpointed. He shrugged, he knew I was right. "Listen kid, I'll tell you this every day if I have to. Honestly, your parents don't get to run your life anymore, my kids are only 12 and they don't have a curfew. They go to bed on their own and come in the house on their own whenever they're with friends and they do it at decent times. If you don't give your kid some slack then they're more likely to fuck off on you, so be your own parent and give yourself as much slack as you need." I smiled at him and he laughed.
"You're the best, Brae. Thank you so much." His eyes were slightly tearing up.
"Just know when to be selfish, and when to be selfless. Whenever it comes to YOUR future, be the definition of selfish." He hugged me and I kissed his cheek whenever I pulled up to his Highschool.
"Niall is so lucky to have you, thank you." He said to me and grabbed his book bag and walked out. I sat there for a moment and thought, is Niall lucky to have me? Or am I lucky to have him? My phone started to buzz and I pulled it out of my pocket, "hello?" I answered.
"Braelynn, it's Marua. You need to come by the house right now, we have to discuss something." I replied with an 'okay, be there soon.' And right after that, I started getting tweets from fans. I opened the notifactions and looked at all the pictures I got sent, Niall is arm-and-arm with Tessa at a bar, laughing and looking at her with a drink in his hand. My heart started to throb, and not in a good way. MY hand rubbed over my mouth and I looked around, this was not happening.