On The Road Again

"You just need trust."

Sometimes people come into your life, to help you grow, learn and move forward with your past self. Sometimes that's all they're there for, just for those simple things.

Sometimes they don't stay, sometimes they do.

Maybe it's time Braelynn let go.


14. "I didn't do it"

ALSO, sooooo... I was reading my book on the app, and noticed that everything was crunched together, I'm sorry if that's what it's like for everyone, my paragraphs and stuff and spaced? So I don't understand why it even smooshed together... so sorry about that! Anyway, have fun! FEED BACK IS NECESSARY 



My mouth hung  open. Braelynn was pregnant again, this is exactly what I wanted! I dropped my phone to the ground after hanging up on Tessa and holding Braelynn. "You're pregnant?" My eyes were wide with excitment, "really?" I asked and she nodded her head. "How long?" I asked her. 

"I'm not sure yet, but you've been gone for almost four months?" She shrugged. 

"Oh my god, baby, I'm so fucking happy." I dropped to my knees and placed my hands on her swollen belly. "I thought you felt different." I said to her, looking up but only see tears splashing on to her cheeks. "What's wrong?" I asked and stood back up.

"Nothing, just going through a lot." She wiped her cheeks with the back of her hand, "we need to talk though." She breathed in and took me over to the bed. We sat down, "in the car, Liam said some things." Fuck. "He was drunk and I don't think he realized who he was talking to." She swallowed. "He said that you didn't always go back to the hotel, and that you started hanging out with Tessa a lot more than what you two had lead everyone to believe. Not to mention the fact that you invited her to the concrets whenever you were in London." 

My buzz was killed, I almost completely sober. "What?" I shook my head. I'm just about fucked here. "Yes she came to the concrets, but I never invited her?"

"Okay." She said, and I looked at her. No fight? No yelling? What the hell? 

"Okay?" I said, watching her stand up from the bed and walk over to the suitcases. She slipped out of her black dress and heels, bending over on the floor to pick them up and put them on the dresser. She put on a pair of blue sweats and a black t-shirt and walked over to the door, "where are you going?" I asked her.

"Just for a walk." She said and closed the door. Well okay.




I held his phone in my hand as I walked down the hallway to the back door. I went through the recent calls and texted the number that had just called him. "Hey." I sent it and they instantly replied. 

X: Why did you hang up me? 

N: Wife came in.

X: She's with you? Why?

N: Because she's my wife? 

X: I thought you were leaving her? 

My heart was in my throat. I can't believe Niall would even, possibly, joke about leaving me. 
N: For what? 

X: For me? 

N: Meet me, back door of the hotel. Now. 

I knew who I was going to be greeted by. 

Within minuets a cab pulls up to the back of the hotel and Tessa steps out. She's decked-to-the-nines and I can't help but almost laugh at her. She tries too hard.  "Niall-" She stopped, realizing it was me and looked toward Niall's phone in my hand. She was scared and she had every right to be terrified.  "What's going on?" 

I shouldn't be smoking, but with everything going on, and I can't drink, this is all I have to keep myself some what sane. I'll stop, just right now in the moment, I just need something. "Hey." I said as I blew out the smoke in a big huff. "You're going to come here and sit with me, tell me a few things." 

"I don't want to." She said and stuck her nose in the air.

"Hunny, I wasn't asking." I smirked to her. "You're going to sit and you're going to tell me a few things, clear up my brain. Can you do that? I think you at least owe that to me after you've tried to break my family up more than once." I smiled a sarcastic smile at her and she just looked around, finally agreeing and sitting beside me. 

"What." She didn't look at me, I wouldn't want to look at me either. I probably have some kind of daeth glare on my face right now. 

"Did he actually say he would leave me?" I flicked the cigarette before brining it to my lips again.  "Or are you just saying that because you want us to break up so you can have him?" I swallowed over the pain in my throat, nothing was hurting me more than this. I was getting angry at her silence, I felt my teeth grip each other and try to grind one another. "Please, Tessa." 

She breathed out, looking at the ground before looking back up. "Yeah." She said. "He said that." 

"You don't have to watch your words around me. I'm not a 'beat it around the bush' kind of person. If you've got something to say, you better say it now." I warned her. 

"Okay, I'll explain." She nodded.

"Because no one else will. And I'm tired of getting lied to, so better be telling me truths here." I warned again. She understands how quick I go from calm to nuts. 

"I got a call from Modest! they explained the contract and after you and I had that fight, I said no. They explained to me the attention the band needed, because there hasn't been much talk about any of them lately. All you see in the media is Harry and everyone's getting tired of seeing Harry." 

"So seeing Niall do something so out of his character, it would've brought attention." 

"Exactly." She looked at her fingers. "I'll be honest with you, at first, neither of us wanted anything to do with it. But money talks and we signed. We didn't do anything, just enough to attract attention-"

"But then you started hanging out, blah blal blah. I don't care about that shit." 

"Then what do you want to know?" 

"The end of it, tell me." I was holding back tears, I didn't want this bitch to know how bad she hurt me. 

"Braelynn... I'm pregnant." My breath hitched, and I started choking. I put my hand on my stomach and the other over my mouth. I was going to throw up. "I'm so sorry, Brealynn! I'm so so sorry! If I could go back, I would, believe me! I fucking would." She tried to put her hands on me and that's when I lightly pushed her away and turned my head before I puked on her. I should have, but I just couldn't do it.

I was hyperventalating. "S- so am I." I choked out. 

Her eyes went wide, mouth starting to drop and eyes flooding over with the tears she was trying to hold in. "Oh my god." She covered her mouth. "What have I done..." She whispered. "I'm so sorry okay? I won't tell anyone, I'll just go into hiding or something?" 

"Has your fucking hair dye sunk into your fuckign brain? Or are you just THAT fucking stupid?" I cursed at her. "You really think you're going to hide a fucking baby and no one is going to know who's it is? With the fucking brown hair and the blue fucking eyes, are you dumb?" I wiped the spit off my chin. I was loosening it.  

"I don't know what to do, okay!" She screamed back at me.

"Maybe you shouldn't have fucked my husband! That's a first thought? Maybe?" I screamed back. The doors opened, Harry, Niall and Liam all stood outside, starring. "Tess?" The way Niall said her name made me even more mad. I lost it. 

I charged at him, my hands trying to go to his neck. I felt hands slip around me, causing me to fall into the body that held such a grip on me. By how tiny the hands were, I could pretty much tell who it was. "Get the fuck off me, you homewrecker." I growled.  She backed off, knowing very well I was right and I was crazy. "You're a fucking liar, a cheater and just an over-all shitty fucking person!" I spat venom at Niall, trying to get at him again but this time it was Harry that grabbed me and pulled me back.  "Get OFF!" I screamed, lashing out and elbowing him in the ribs.

"What's going on?" The other two boys walked in on my out burst. Louis was starring at me and then looking to Harry for answers. It was when he seen Tessa behind me that he put two-and-two together. "Oh fuck, Niall, what did you do?" He asked. His voice sounded like he was begging for Niall to say it was just a misunderstanding, but he knew what happened, and he looked pissed. 

"Did you say something to her?" Niall asked. He was acting like this was her fault, asshole.

"You can't blame her for this! " I tried to push Harry out of my way, but he wasn't budging. "Harry!" I screamed at him, "Let go!" 

"What did you do Niall?!" Harry screamed at him. His arms were hugging my rib cage, not in a hurting matter but tight enough to keep me contained. "Niall!" Harry screamed at him again, letting me go. 

"How could you fucking do this to me! To your family, to your own kids!" My crying was out of control, the best way to explain it would be worse than Kim Kardashian. " Does this not even mean anything to you?" My voice was raspy now, sore from crying so much and screaming. I grabbed his ring finger and held it up to his face. 

"Yes, yes of course, I love you." He lied. I wanted to slap him in the face. 

"Tell him what you told me." I said to Tessa and she shook her hear, eyes wide. "TELL HIM!" I screamed.

"He said he was leaving you for me." She gulped. 

I bit my lip as my heart was breaking, smashing on pavement beneth my feet.  "Really?" I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks and across my neck. "Niall, how could you?" I pushed him. 

"I never said that!" He shouted, looking at Tessa.

"What is going on! Bloody hell, can someone explain!" Zayn yelled out. 

"Niall is about to have four kids." I stated bluntly. 

"You're having twins again?" Liam smiled, I hated the fact I was about to wipe that puppy smile off his face.

I shook my head. "No, I'm only having one." I said to him. It took him only a few seconds and that's when he turned to Niall, grabbing him by the collar of his shirt and pinning him to wall behind him. "How could you do such a thing!" Liam screamed in his face. 

"I don't know how that's even fucking possible! We didn't even have sex!" Niall screamed out, trying to grasp his breath again. "We didn't even have sex?" He looked to Tessa. "How is that possible?" He questioned. We all looked to her. "How?" He screamed at her.

"Yes we did?" She said and my head twitched, I wanted nothing more than to wrap my hands around her skinny neck and squeeze. "We did!" Now she was screaming. 

I turned to her, something about her was pissing me off. "Did you, or did you not fuck my husband?" I said through seethed teeth.


"No!" Niall screamed. Holy fuck this was confusing. 

"Ya know what." I said with a crooked smile. "How about this." I clapped my hands together, everyone stood in almost a line, watching me and awaiting me to say whatever it was I was going to say. Harry looked scared, as did Niall, but Tessa.. She looked almost pleased, kind of like she knew what I was going to say. "You," I pointed to Niall. "Be with her. I raised our kids by myself anyways, I wouldn't mind raising three." I said and shrugged my shoulders.

"Braelynn, wait!" Niall tried. 

"No no, it's fine. I'll call my lawyer in the morning and let him know I'm going through with the divorce this time, I'll get him to send the papers." I coughed, my chest was hurting. The words that came out of my mouth tasted like vomit, like I shouldn't have to be saying these words. "She needs you more than I do. I'll finish this tour, act like everything's fine and as soon as we're back home, I'm packing, taking the kids and leaving. You two can have the house. Don't call me, don't talk to me, I'll allow the kids to talk to you and to see you, but don't think you're seeing anything from me." I growled. 

"Braelynn, stop. This is a little much." Niall was tearing up. "I don't know what happened, how this happened, but that's not mine." He sniffed. "I swear to god, I meant everything I said. Yes, I didn't always go back with the boys, but nothing ever happened."

"It's not that I don't believe you, Niall." I sniffed, tipping my head back and taking a deep breath to calm myself down. "It's the fact that I can't fucking live like this. Did he cheat? Is the baby his? Does he love me? Does he think of her when touching me?" I asked all these questions to prove a point. "It's not fucking worth it anymore, Niall. It's been a nice long time with you, but clearly you're bored with everything you've help build, so it's fine. Take her and go!" 

Tessa just stood there with a smug look on her face, as if she's perfectly okay with I just said. She has no morals to save her life, I'm divorcing my husband because of her and all she can do is smirk? "Wipe it off your face because I promise you I'm not fucking scared to do it for you." I pointed at her and she just looked away from me. "You're work here is done, go home and wait until the tour is over." 

"See you at home, Niall." She said as she walked away.

I screamed and tried to run at her.  The violent cries that came from me were inhumane, like a cat trying to crawl out of tight, bladed gutter. "Fuck you!" I screamed at her, she just kept walking. This was her plan a long, fucking bitch. "I'm going to kill you." I said with Liam let go of me and I turned around to see Niall watching her leave. He gulped as I charged at him again, wrapping my arms around him and trying to punch him in his face. 

"Braelynn, this isn't good for the baby!" Harry screamed at me and pulled me back. "Smarten up!" He yelled in my face. 

"Harry!" I pushed him, well tried. "Harry, please!" I screamed and tried to get loose. "I don't even care anymore!" I said with a whimper and melted into him. "I'm just-" I sobbed into his chest, fingers curling into his shirt. "I'm just so hurt." I said into him. 

"I know, I know." He hushed me, putting his hand on my head and ran his fingers through my hair, holding me tight to him. "It's going to be okay." He whispered into my ear. "It's going to be okay." 




"Please just sleep with me?" I begged her, she wouldn't even talk to me. "Braelynn it didn't happen!" 

"Really?!" She screamed, turning around and scaring me. "After you came home, you didn't want me to know you were there, you didn't want to talk to me, you didn't even want to talk to your own fucking kids!" She was screeching at this point, inside the hotel room. "You wouldn't touch me, you wouldn't even sleep with me. The couch, I'm pretty sure, has your body indented in it! So no, I won't fucking sleep with you, I think I'll take the couch this time." She said and threw the pillows and a blanket on the couch. 

"Braelynn, come on. You're taking this a little far." I stood up from the bed, trying to walk over to her. 

"You touch me and I'll slit your throat and think nothing of it." She growled and I backed off. "I don't hate you, Niall." I heard her sniff as she turned toward the couch, pulling the blankets up to her face. "I'm just not enjoying you anymore." She coughed and turned the lamp off by her head. The only light admitting the room was the one I left on for a moment. 

I tried to sleep, but the sound of her crying was keeping me awake. I fucked up, I was a fucking moron. What am I going to do? I can't let my family go? And how is Tessa even pregnant anyway, we didn't even have sex? Her last sob was it for me, I was up out of bed and had my sweats pulled up my hips within seconds, a t shirt thrown over my head and I headed out the door. I knocked on Liam's and when he opened up and seen it was me, he tried to shut the door in my face. "Liam, please." I begged.

"Five minuets." He snarled at me.

"I didn't do it." I swallowed. "I really didn't. I mean, I kind of did, but not that far."

"What do you mean, 'not that far'?" He sat up on his bed, he looked pissed.

"We.. kissed, that's all. Nothing else, I swear." 

"I knew it, we all did. You're pathetic Niall." He swatted his hand at me.

"But that baby is not mine. I kissed her one time when I was drunk after a concret, ONE time." 

"You try and explain that to Braelynn." He scuffed. "She called her lawyer already, Harry was with her."

"Why are they always together?" I questioned, it sort of pissed me off. "They're really close for not being able to stand each other?"

"That was a few years ago, Niall. A long time ago. He treats those kids like his own, honestly, he's a better dad than you." I didn't even notice Louis was in the room. I forgot they had roommates. 

"Eh, fuck you mate." I spat at him. "I love those kids more than anything!" I said to him.

"Really? More than your wife, or just your family? Because you've really shown them how much you love them lately, haven't ya?" Louis spat back. 

"OI!" Liam said, standing up. "Both of yas, knock it off! Niall, you need to leave." He said to me and I just bowed my head, walked out and went back into my room. The couch that Braelynn was on was empty, the blankets half on the floor and the pillow soaked with her tears. I thought maybe she went to bed and I got half excited, but when I turned the corner to the bedroom off the kitchen, nothing was to be seen. The room was empty, everything was empty, including myself.

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