I could tell Ashton was slipping a few times, I heard him several times where he nearly told Calum about me. But he didn't. In the meantime I took out my phone and started scrolling on Twitter. Suddenly a DM popped up and I opened it. It was a picture of me and Calum, but there was a big red cross over Calum's face.
A minute later a text was added. 'I still own you, if you talk to him, he might just end up at the hospital if not the graveyard'. I had minor panic attack, my breathing was rapid and my eyes became watery. I knew it was Jayden, why would he do this to me? It was like my whole world came crashing down around me. i had soaked my shirt when Ashton came into the room with a horrorfying look on his face as he saw me looking like a mess.
"What happened?" He asked sitting down beside me. I showed him my phone and covered my mouth with a hand to shut out the sounds it was making. "What the fuck is this?!" He yelled out in rage handing me back my phone. "I know who it is Ashton..." I said, my head buried deep into my hands. "Who is it Alex?" He stroked my back softly with his large hand. "It's Jayden. I am so scared that he's going to hurt Calum" tears streamed down my cheeks as I hid my face in the crook of Ashton's neck. "Oh Alex... I'm so sorry. That piece of shit needs to be stopped!" Ashton clenched his fists, I knew how much Calum meant to him and the rest of the boys, no one could ever love each more than those boys did. Well except maybe me, I knew i loved Calum more than them, but they didn't know that.
"What should I do Ashton?" I looked up at him drying off runaway tears. He comtemplated for a second, "I don't know, I will speak with the boys, we have to protect Calum and you. Sooner or later you have to tell Calum what is going on.I know that is not my place to do it. So I will leave it up to you to decide when he should know." I nodded at his words and knew he was right. All I wanted was to protect Calum, but if he didn't know what was going on how could I? In reality what I'm doing now is only pushing Calum away from myself and that's the last thing I wish for. The terrible things of what Jayden might do were running through my mind, I shuddered by the thought of Calum being hurt in any way. I would never forgive myself if he was to be hurt.
"Would it be alright if I stayed over tonight? I'm too scared to go home, my mom won't be home until tomorrow morning" the hair behind my ears fell in front of my eyes as I looked down at my hands. Ashton's hand grabbed them both in one scoop and held them tightly. "Of course you can Alex. I know Calum would never forgive me if you were hurt and he found out I was responsible for keeping you safe."
"Thanks Ash..." I hugged him and let out a sigh of relief. "Why don't you take a shower and I will call my mom to let her know you will stay here for the night" Ashton stood up and walked out of the room. He came back a moment later and handed me a towel, a nirvana t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants. I thanked him and went to the bathroom. I stripped out of my clothes and rolled it up in a ball and threw in the corner behind the toilet. I placed the clothes on the table and hung the towel from the rack beside the bath. The water was nice and warm, it almost seemed to wash away all my worries, if only for a moment.
I washed my hair thoroughly, and gave out occasional squints as the soap ran into my cuts. Any leftover makeup was washed away with the soap and water. When I was done, I reached for the towel and dried myself off before putting on Ashton's comfortable clothes. I sniffed it, it didn't really smell like Ashton. I knew this smell... This must be Calum's clothes. I knew I should have recognized it, but the smell was definitely not to be mistaken. I brought my dirty clothes back with me and found my bag to put it in. I hung up the towel to dry. "Are you done Alex?" Ashton's voice came from outside the room. I opened the door with a wry smile. "Yes, I'm done. Is this Calum's?" I gestured to Calum's clohes making Ashton grin widely. "Yeah, how did you know?"
"I recognized the smell. Why do you have his clothes?" I responded, rubbing my hands together and hugging myself afterwards. "He left it here once. And I know him very well, so I kept it just in case he needed spare clothes when being here. Looks like you needed it more than him" his eyes were kind to look at as he continued, "Oh and mom says it's cool. You can stay. She'll be here soon and then we'll have some dinner."
I nodded in response and hugged him gratefully. He was such a good friend. Right when I needed one the most he just happened to come along. I never really saw myself as super close with anyone other than Calum, but now I wonder why I wasn't. They were all great guys.
We went downstairs. Ashton put on the tv and I zapped through the channels trying to find something interesting to watch. "Hello.." Ashton answered a phone call and disappeared from the living room. I stopped zapping and found that Keeping Up With The Kardashians was on and decided to watch that. Ashton came in a short while after, a distressed look on his face. "So... mom won't be back until tomorrow." I turned my head and looked at him. "Why? Does work take that long?" I asked curling up in a ball on the sofa. "No. She's met this guy... she's going to spend some time with him. I'm happy for her though. It's been a while" he sat down beside me on the sofa and turned his head grinning mischievously "What do you say to pizza then?". My eyes became wide and I nodded wildly "Yes dude!" I laughed slapping his arm softly. He smiled and took out his phone. First he typed a lot of things and then he stood up taking up the phone to his ear and left the room. "Done" he said a few minuted later when he appeared again from the hall. I chuckled at him and continued to watch the Kardashians and their weird family drama.
10 minutes later there was a knock on the door. Finally the pizza was here. Except it wasn't the pizza. Ashton opened the door and 3 loud voices boomed through the house. There was no mistaken who that was. I panicked, Calum was here as well. What should I do? I managed to stand up but didn't get any further than that as I was met by Calum's gobsmacked face. "Alex? What are you doing here?" he looked at me, and then down at my clothes. "Is that...? Never mind.. Are you two hooking up?" his face turned red. "Spare me the details I'm out" he turned on his heels and walked out of the door. "Calum!" Ashton yelled but I stopped him. "No. I got this" i said running outside.
"Calum stop!" I yelled out, my voice breaking. He stopped, but stood still in his place. He didn't move at all. "Cal, please turn around so I can see your face when I am talking to you" my voice was quivering slightly, I knew he had to know about Jayden at some point, so why no now? He turned slowly, clicking his tongue he glanced at me. I started walking towards him, as I reached him my eyes became watery and my body was shaking. "Hey... Alex, are you okay?" His features softened and he pulled me into a tight hug. Oh how I've missed his hugs and the calming scent of his deodorant. "I..." I took a deep breath as I pulled back and dried my eyes with Calum's shirt I was wearing. "First of all, Ash and I are not hooking up. We are just good friends and he's been helping me today. Look, this is what I need to tell you" I pulled up in my shirt showing his the bruises down my stomach, his face contorted as he looked at me in disbelief at what was going on.
I then showed him the cigarette burns on my arm. I could see his eyes tear up, but he kept quiet. "So... Jayden has been harassing me, that's the reason I haven't been talking to you, because I was and still am trying to protect you. He has threatened me, he hit me and burned me with his cigarette and Ashton only found out because he found me today at school while Jayden was beating me up outside, that's why i didn't come to school. Half an hour ago Jayden sent this." I took out my phone and showed Calum the picture Jayden had sent to me of Calum with a red cross over it. He took a step back as he gasped. "He has been threatening you too. So I thought if I just stopped talking to you maybe he would leave you alone. But I can't get through this without you... I just don't know how to do any of this... If anything were to happen to you, I would never forgive myself." A river of tears were now flooding my face. Calum was all red in the face, a look of anger had struck him, he had tears running down his cheeks.
"I'm such an idiot... I'm sorry Alex... Wow..." he buried his face in his hands, i moved them away from his face and looked at him before embracing him in a tight hug. "Alex... just stay with me, stay with us. I promise you I will never let Jayden touch you again, okay? Do you hear me? That son of a bitch is not going near you ever again, I knew something was off about him. Just... stay with me... I love you Alex, no one will harm you again, I promise!" Calum was all out of breath and his voice was breaking, his held me closer than ever before. "I promise" he whispered softly in my ear and kissed my head. "Thanks Cal... Love you too". I gave him one last squeeze before letting go. "Let's go back inside" Calum took my hand, we walked back inside to the boys and had pizza. After that I told Luke and Michael what I had told Calum. They promised to help keep me safe. Everything went back to normal again, I felt a bit more like myself again. Sitting there joking with the greatest friends a girl could have and the most important person in my life, Calum. The boys were allowed to stay over and we began one of our many movie marathons.
I sat next to Calum. "You seem more like the real Alex again" he whispered with a reassuring smile plastered on his face. "Yeah... Thank you. It's because of you. I missed you, Cal." my eyes were beaming at him. I was relieved of all the pressure that had been lifted from my shoulders. I was happy he knew everything now, but I was still scared. not just for me but for the boys, especially Calum. I know Jayden never really liked Calum, he always suspected he had a crush on me but I knew it was not true, he was just jealous that I had Calum so close to me. That night I fell asleep happier than I had been in a long time.
Okay, finally an update, let me know what you think :) xx