32. Distance(Christina Perri )
I walk to the bakery feeling tired. It’s been a long day. I’ve practice, I went to school and now I have wok. The worst of all, Harry is going to be there. I really can’t understand how in a moment I like him and then I hate him .He is so moody, this mess my head and my heart. The thing I have to do is stay away from him which is going to be easy since he is ignoring me.
I get in the bakery and Harry doesn’t say a word to me. Good. I go to the back to put my stuffs. When I come back Harry is taking to a guy. Must be one of his friends .I try not to pay attention on their conversation and just keep cleaning the counter.
“It was one of the best party!” the other guy says ”You were so crazy. It was one bottle, one girl, another bottle, another girl”
“Yeah” Harry says laughing ”I’ve lost the count”
What an idiot!
“Lost the count of bottles or girls?”
The two laugh. I try to keep my mouth shut. I really can’t believe that I thought Harry could have a serious relationship, he could be a gentleman, a sweet guy. I was so wrong. He is just a jerk that only want to have fun. I should have known this.
“You made Lanna moans so loud we laugh so hard”
That is disgusting. I feel the anger coming. I want to scream to Harry. How he could he do this? In the afternoon is plays the sweet guy with me and at night he fuck many girls as he can!!!!
“Who is Lanna?” Harry asks
“You don’t even remember, do you?”
They laugh again. His friend receive a text and say he has to go. He leaves the store and I keep with my head down working.
It has been two hours of work. All I want is to leave so I don’t have to look at Harry’s face. I am so angry with him but I don’t say anything, neither he says. But I can almost feel the tension in the air. He seems to be angry with me too. I don’t even know the reason.
“Excuse me” I say while I try to pass. Harry is blocking me, on purpose
“What about the magic word”
“I’m not in the mood for your jokes Harry”
“I’m waiting the magic word”
“Get the hell out of my away”
He laughs “I was expecting ‘please’ “
“Harry move!” I say angrily
“Why are you so angry baby?”
“Why? Are you really asking this? Well I can say many reasons for me being angry “
“So tell me”
“First of all you are bipolar! And you are driving me crazy! You are sweet and then you act like an idiot! What is this all about Harry? You try to kiss me say that I’m different and then you have a wild night with so many girls that you can’t even count!”
“So you are jealous!”
“No! I’m not jealous. I’m thankful that I’m not of them, that can resist your charm smile and hot body! I’d never be one of your girls! NEVER!”
He puts his arms around my waist and push me to the wall . He has done this before. I’m breathing fast, it’s like there is no oxygen in the air, my heart betting fast. I have no idea what is going to happen.
“You wouldn’t be one of my girls. You would be the only one” he says softly. He puts a strand of my hair behind my ear ”You have no idea how you drive me crazy. You have this body, and those lips, your smile, your attitudes, the way you talk , your laugh, everything. And all this drives me crazy because I want to kiss you so much but you are always pulling off. I did everything right. I didn’t rush things. I try to be just friend but it’s almost impossible. I take to a date, we had a good a time and when I try to kiss you, you back off. I think you don’t like me. You don’t act as you like me. Saturday when you left the car I was sad because I thought you didn’t like me. So I went to a party because I needed a distraction. But all I could think about was you .The whole time. I kissed many girls trying to prove to myself I didn’t need you but it was worthless. I felt so bad. I saw on Sunday I tried to ignore you but you were in my mind the whole day. Now when I think I understand you don’t like me, you have a jealous attack. I don’t understand you. If you think this is all a game to me it’s not. It’s more than that. I hope you feel the same”
I.Can’t. Breath .I. Can’t. Think. I. Can’t . Say. Anything.
“Stop resisting. If you want tell me. Tell me you are jealous, tell me you are angry with me. Tell me I drive you crazy, tell me you want kiss me”
“I’m angry with you because you fuck other girls. I might be jealous because I like being with you and I…I want you to kiss me” The words come out of my mouth before I could think
His lips crash in mine and I feel something so good, I can’t describe it. It just the way his arm s are around me and his lips kissing hard mine like he need this kiss so badly, like he wants it so badly. I pass my hands though his hand and he smile. He must like that. The noise of the front door opening make me jump away from Harry. He pulls off too and turn to serve the client. I just stay there stand trying to understand what just happen.